Becoming Tawnya

It’s calm and sunny this morning at 57 degrees. How nice for a Friday!

I’m gonna jump right in to yesterday. I logged foods and exercise again. That’s a nice sign—nice recovery. Ed said that he thought I handled my skin issue pretty well considering where I’ve come from with coping skills. Yay! Emotions will be the death of me, I swear. I just don’t like to FEEL at all. I like to be invisible and numb. Well, once the bulk of the fat is gone, all of that changes and it’s harder to accomplish.

So my calorie intake was around 990 yesterday. By the end of the day I drank about 7 cups of coffee. That isn’t unheard of for me, but it’s not a common occurrence. I just wasn’t hungry and I had things I wanted to do so I kept busy and away from food. BUT I did have 6 or 7 of those mini tootsie rolls. Of course that was spurred by The Mumsy. She came over after I got off work and I showed her my gardens, Laura’s Thai cuke salad, and then we walked about 4 miles. It started to pour rain on us so we turned back. We were soaked but walked so far that by the time we got back, the sun and wind had dried our pants. Lol. It was actually fun. It’s not every day that you get to play in the rain. We haven’t had a lot of rain and it felt refreshing, actually.

Anyways, so after the walk we went to Fleet Farm and picked up some black-oil sunflower seed for the birds. AND TOOTSIE ROLLS! Lol. My choice of candy was sugar-free Lifesavers. Mom’s of course, was not. But it’s a good candy to have compared to others so I chowed down. I would have liked to walk more, but I was so sore from gardening most of the day on Wednesday. My arms are sooo sore. I used that hand-trimmer for tall weeds by the fences. 200 calories burned from the walk, at any rate. Dinner was Subway.

I tried on many clothing items that I haven’t been able to fit into because of the 20 pound gain. Since I’m down 12, I now can fit into everything—even my black dress with white polk-a-dots!!! Oh I’m just so relieved. I LOVE that dress. My boobs have definitely firmed up and shrank. They DO NOT fill the dress out the way they did the first time I lost weight. (I can fit into bras anywhere from an A cup to a C cup, depending on the cut. I have NO problem with that after years of back and shoulder pain! )

Today should be good. I’m going to Home Depot to check out their clearance perennials and then to the next big ritzy town to take photos. I plan on taking a couple healthy snacks—apple, grapefruit, water jug…yada ya. Since we went to Subway yesterday we still have beef to cook up tonight. I’m thinking grilled burgers will be on the menu.

So yesterday I ordered The Firm: Get Chisel’d DVD. I want to have fun things to do in the house this winter when it’s too cold to walk or bike. I plan on going to the community pool to see how much it would cost for a membership/pool use. That’s not high on my priority, but it’s on my list of things to eventually do.

Okay that’s all for now. Gonna shower and get going on my day. No cleanin’ house this morning, I’ll do that later in the afternoon. Exercise will be walking around the ritzy city–nothing hardcore, as I am still very sore.

• Breakfast: graham cracker, apple
• Lunch: cuke salad since I didn’t finish it yesterday
• Dinner: grilled burgers, steamed fresh green beans
• Snacks will be banana, cheese stick, grapefruit/homemade bread slice w/ low-sugar jam

Filed under: Healthy Living