Thin Is In!!

SO February was a hard and craaaaazy month. I found out my unemployment was DONE w/o any warning at all & had & still have NO MONEY, me&my boyfriend had 1 of our worst arguments we ever had and it stressed me out I almost left him, I had a lot of issues with my family over the holidays and didn’t talk to my mom for over a month (the longest we’ve ever gone w/o talking) and just an all around extremely stressful month for me. Its like I couldn’t focus on anything!!

Well me & my bf made up and hes helping me with all my bills, my mom & I kinda started talking but its still not the same and I believe i got a job at Fashion BUG so things are looking better for me this month.

I just know in my heart that I MUST make this month better then last and this year all around better then last year. 2011 was 1 of the hardest years Iv had and I just want things to be different and I know that all starts with me. & I already feel like it has. I cant let another year go by and me being unhappy and miserable in the house all the time bc of my insecurities and worries about what others are thinking of me. Its been so hard living like this…in fear every day, I cant and refuse to do it anymore!!

SOoooo with all that being said I will make this my final time to “attempt” a diet and instead of thinking about it like that Im thinking and looking at it like this is the new me and my new lifestyle. I have to win this battle with this bulge. AND I WILLL!!!

ok i got a little carried away with the “king speech” type of talk but I was feeling it so I just went w it lol.

SO tomorrow I start the 90 day Turbo fire challenge. Ive done the workouts before. They’re really intense but are soooo good. I love em. & I was reading if you take before and after pictures of yourself before and after the challenge, once completed, you send em to turbofire and u get a free tshirt!! Thats awesome I want that tshirt!! And ima get it too!! lol

I also MUST start believing in myself and letting go of ll the negativity. I just finished watching The Matrix and Morpheus says so many amazing things that movie that really applied to me (& probably so many people bc its what so many of us do.) The one thing that really stoood out to me was this:

You have to let it all go, Neo. Fear…doubt…and disbelief.

Free your mind…

soooo true!!! This is what I need to do! I have so much fear,dount and disbelef that its been keeping me handicapped for a looong time. & I wont let it anymore!! Im stronger then this!!!

SO with that being said (i say that alot lol) I dont care anymore about what happened in February or all the other times that its been rough and hard and difficult for me to focus. Im over it now and never looking back, but theres reasons why people do the things they do, Theres action then reaction and there was alot of that in the past and I know i will not repeat the same mistakes twice.

March will be my perfect month.

When I weighed in on Thursday 2/2/12 & gained 1.2 lbs I got really upset. I was in a funk for a few days and stopped working out.  BUTTT i still tracked all my points and used all my weekly’s for Super Bowl Sunday so I actually impressed my own self but not going crazy eating everything! I think w this 1.2 lb weight gain it had me thinking, especially after posting it up on here and WW website, that this is going to be my 1st road bump of many road bumps & I wont let this stop me!!! I need to lose weight for ME!

So I got back on track with my workouts on Monday 2/6 and been going strong.

The only thing is today was weigh in day at the WW meetings but I skipped it it b/c I don’t want to focus on the # and instead just focus on getting my new Healthy lifestyle together.

BUTTT i did take my measurements today and I lost inches!! YAAYAYAYAY!!

Beginning Stats: 1/9/12 Monday

chest:  54 1/2″

neck: 15 1/2″

r.arm:  15″

l. arm:  15″

waist: 54 1/2 “

hips; 62 1/2″

r.thigh: 29″

L. thigh: 28″

weight: 273

First Month Stats:   2/8/12 Thursday

Chest: 53″  total lost: 1 & 1/2

Neck: 14″ total lost: 1&1/2 “

R.arm:  14 & 1/2″  total lost: 1/2″

L. arm: 14″ total lost: 1″

Waist: 51″   total lost: 3 & 1/2

Hips: 60 & 1/2″  total lost: 2&1/2

R.thigh: 26″  total lost: 3″

L. thigh: 26″  total lost: 2″

weight: 266 total lost: 7.8

I last weighed in on 2/2/12  so who knows I could be down more!

SO i am very happy with my inches lost!! Feels awesome!! Last week i gained 1.2 lbs after losing 9lbs the 1st week. Soooo i decided not to weigh in this week bc I didn’t want to focus on the # but just me doing better.

until next time….

So today I weighed in and was up 1.2 lbs. I have no clue how this could’ve happened??!?! Last Thursday was my 1st weigh in from initially signing up and I lost 9lbs. I was so happy about that, BUTTT I understand that it was my 1st week and people usually lose the most there 1st week.

But I don’t really understand bc I kicked up my workout regimen, I do 1 turbofire dvd and either Jillian Michaels 3o day shred or a zumba class at the YMCA. I worked out every single day this week so I am stumped. :-/

I did eat late last night and it was a big dinner, but mainly all veggies, it was 1/2c red&green peppers,onion, 3 oz chicken and 1 corn tortilla and salsa. BUt thats healthy!

I just dont get it and its very discouraging. ESP when I was busting my butt working out hard. The ONLY thing I can think of is there was 3-4 days this week I didnt eat alot, I was 15-20 points under my target points. Thats the only thing. My leader told me I MUST eat my all my points to lose weight bc she did this 1 time, she decided to eat less then what they told her to eat, and she gained weight.

Well this week I will be eating ALL MY POINTS! I just cant help but feel discouraged.

Thursday January19th 2012 start: 273.8

Thursday 1/26/12: 264.8

Thursday 2/2/12: 266.0

Sunday 1/29/2012

So after 4 years of yo yo dieting, trying every single silly fad diet known to man, along with “healthy diets”, and not having much success, I think I’ve finally came to a breaking point! SO i decided to try something completely new and just give it all I got!! And that’s what I did

SO I decided to join Weight Watchers, after years of it being referred to me by my boyfriend (his ex gf from years ago lost 80lbs on it) and my friend who lost weight too.

I did try it for a week back in 2008 and I lost 8 lbs and I can honestly say I have no clue why i stopped.

I wasn’t mentally prepared. You MUST be mentally prepared to start a diet, or should I say new healthy lifestyle. I went through ALOT after graduating high school, then moving in with my boyfriend, there was just so much going on that its like I couldn’t even focus.

BUT now that I’m over all that, and really trying to put the past behind me, I decided I am ready to finally focus on my weight loss and tackle this thing once and for all!

SOooooooooooooo I joined Weight Watchers on January 19th and started my workout regimen January23rd and 1 week into my diet/exercise routine I lost 9 lbs!!! Yippeeeee!!!

I weighed in on Thursday 1/19 at 273.8 and on the Thursday the 26th i was 264.8! yaaaaaaaaaaaaa boyeeeeee

& I have worked out every single day (except Tursday) and feel amazing!!! I heard it takes 3 weeks-21 days- to create a new habit so that means I have 14 days left But I already feel like I’m there, well almost atleast.

I feel really good about everything and feel like I am finally mentally focused. LETZ GOOO

143 days left till SUMMER!!