The skinny friend, now fat

Day 6

Day 6! Wow. I woke up this morning and felt a bit faint. I ate some toast with mushrooms, had a cup of black tea and felt better. My daughter came home yesterday. My diet is still intact.  
For a while today I was on the cusp of giving in and falling into old habits. Then [...]

feeling good

Day 4. I can actually see a difference on the scales. I’m feeling better about myself, glad that I’m making the effort to lose this weight. Even though I can’t see a difference and the scales may only be water weight, I feel thinner. The biggest threat to my diet comes back tonight, my daughter. Back [...]

Fatorexia and believing you’re ugly

I have fatorexia. Yes, apparently it is a condition; a person refuses to see that they are fat, thinking instead they are skinny. This was me for a long time, I still think I’m skinny. Yesterday afternoon I went for my goal walk. Striding out, my baby in the stroller, me wearing a pretty cap-sleeved [...]

Day 2

Day 2 went well. Having this blog is helping me. Reading the supportive comments really inspire me to do well. I made myself do an exercise dvd yesterday. I hated it. Ten minutes in I wanted to sit down and watch it instead. But I forced myself to do it, exercising harder instead of stopping, [...]

Jealous

I went to visit my friend this morning. She just had a baby three days ago. She already looks like she’s back to normal. I, on the otherhand, ten months after giving birth, look like I should be the one on the maternity ward. My stomach is still fat. I’m so jealous of people who [...]

Fat friends

I’ve always had fat friends. Perhaps I felt comfortable with them; they’re not a threat. They won’t steal your boyfriend.
I’ve been lucky to have good genes and a fast metabolism. I was always the skinny friend. I could eat lots of junk. I gained weight of course, just not heaps. Until now. It started before I fell [...]