AND THE WINNER IS…… January 3, 2009
Me, yep that is right me!!!! I get to sleep late this weekend. Jason gained weight, not sure how much because he forgot to weigh this morning. I lost a total of -5.6 pounds this week. Most of this success I am sure is due to the fact that I have not had a coke or ate out in several days. This week it was not so hard to do those two things because I have been sick. My throat hurts sooo bad that nothing sounds appetizing. Not sure if I will sleep in tomorrow or Sunday, it depends on who is sicker in the morning. Jason is catching it too so I can’t very well make him get up sick and take care of all the sick kids.
I am really into losing weight this time. Years ago I lost 60 pounds and then I just kind of stopped. When I started that time it was like no other time. I remember having this determination and strength that I did not know I was capable of. For years I have struggled to find that again. As the boys were little they took so much work that I couldn’t find the time for me, and if I found it I was too tired to do anything with it. Then when it should have been getting easier I was pregnant with Olivia. With 4 kids it is very hard to work in me time. I struggle everyday with guilt over not being able to stay at home with them. My mother takes care of them for me while I work and go to school, but I still miss them and want to spend more time with them. So when I could get away to exercise, I have a hard time taking that time away from them. I know some people will say it may be hard now but it is for the greater good. I don’t believe that, they remember when you are NOT there more than they remember when you ARE there later on. So I am going before work and other times that affect them as little as possible. So far not very much, because I have been sick.
Anyway I got off my thought. Today when I weighed in I realized that this time I felt like I had before. I felt that determination and I have not even craved coke or fast food (maybe because I am sick) but still, it is a start. I see me making it through to the end. 130 here I come…. I am strong, I am dedicated, I AM WORTH IT.
SORRY PRIDE TAKING OVER,LOL. For me it is all about being organized, once I have a plan I am good to go. the forums have served a few purposes for me so far. First I spend so much time reading posts and blogs at night that I don’t eat….night time eating was my downfall. Second, I have found a few challenges that I really like to be a part of and they keep me motivated and focused on my goals. I have added a few updates and stuff lately to my other pages in case you haven’t seen them yet. I am off to get a good nights sleep I hope.