Down hill May 14, 2009
I have fallen off my pedestal and started rolling down hill….no let me make that a mountain!!!! I ate lunch with my husband on Tuesday, then with my friend on Wednesday. Both days I made bad choices but today I put on my hiking boots and started trucking back to the top.
Not being able to weigh in on Mother’s Day at WW was not good for me. I need to have a deadline to look forward to each week, and missing it made me feel like I had extra time. Plus I have just had a miserable week on an emotional level. I can be somewhat mentally unstable so to speak, and I have periods of being okay and then everything builds up until I explode. Unfortunately that was yesterday and I am still not right but I am pushing forward.
I have a lot going on right now with my school, and Matthew’s school, and work. If I could quit my job, be a full time mom, and still have enough money to move out of this horrible neighborhood I would be okay. I feel like a failure right now and it is making self loathing easier and caring about my weight harder. If I can make it through the rest of the day on my plan I should be okay for the weekend. I hope to have lost at least a pound or 2 more by WI Saturday.
later that night…
I still do not feel good. I am emotionally spent I think and since I am an emotional eater that does not help me in the least. We went out to eat at a buffet even though I knew I shouldn’t. I do not think I did too bad though and tomorrow is a new day and hopefully full of promise. For some reason I am depressed….I am not sure why, but I feel like it has to do with all the struggles I have had lately. My classes start Monday and I have one Monday and one Tuesday night, so I will have two days a week that are free to spend with the kids over the summer. Matthew is getting out of school next Friday so I will have 4 kids on my days off. I hope we can do something fun.
My goal for tomorrow is to stay on plan so I am going to plan a menu tonight to help with my points.