A new month, a new me… April 3, 2009
Okay it is April and I signed up for the 20 pound Memorial day challenge. I signed up when I started back a week ago and I know I have lost some but I wont know for sure until I weigh in the morning. My plan is kind of taking shape for the most part. I am going back and forth on WW or Calorie Counting. What to do? Neither seem appealing to me because I never have the time to keep track. I am exercising some with DH but I think I need to get an elliptical….I will ponder on this some more, but for now I feel good, I have added sooo much water to my routine and that is a huge step for me.
I was thinking that April is too darn rainy here… It seems like it has rained 4 out of 7 days for weeks now. I am totally committed to this and this month I am making a point to find new ways to suceed. Memorial day is a little over 7 weeks away and that is my first mini goal. In the past I looked at the big picture and 110 pounds seems impossible. 20 pounds seems easy and it has already made a difference in the way I chose to live.
You know they say you make tons of choices about food everyday, and for me I have always doubted that. I thought I never thought about food, and I was right. I was not thinking about it, I was mindlessly eating because the draw of taste was so overpowering to me. Well today I took my A&P test and had time left over after I was done. I was so stressed that I took off down the hall to the cafeteria, as I walked I talked in my head the whole time. I noticed that I was walking faster and faster, like I was trying to get there before I could talk myself out of it. I asked myself “what are you doing”….I am going to weigh in the morning, why would I make this choice? At the last minute I darted into the bathroom, got rid of some excess water, lol, and walked just as fast back to my class as I was walking to get the food I never made it to. On the way home I had to reason with myself why I should not stop at Subway on the way home. Subway is great, but I would have ordered a foot long, and I do not NEED to eat that much. They are only $5, but I had sandwich stuff at home. So I went home and made a sandwich.
My live is full and I am very busy, but I am working on my time management skills and I am also working on listening to my body. Eat because I am hungry, stop eating when I am not hungry anymore NOT when I am about to pop. Give myself time to think and remember who I am and what I am trying to do for ME.