runnin’ down a dream

weight:

calories:  1600

accomplishments:  swam 45mins.

finished school work for phil.  good attitude mostly.  looked up stuff on insulin resistance.

improvements:  relax and de-stress.  plan better.

feel:  anxious.

inspiration:  yoga journal. good reading.  trying to realize that looks don’t matter.  who i am is not defined by how i look.  and i don’t look as bad as i think i do.  i’m just constantly comparing my 34year old self to my 16 year old self.  but no one can turn back time.  just have to be as healthy as i can and get my 34 year old body to look as good and be as healthy as it can.

weight 185

calories: 3150

accomplishments:  swam 45mins.  it was a good workout and then i rode my bike @ the nieghborhood a bit.  nothing intense but it was some activity. also mowed the lawn. looked up homework and started reading

improvements:  i hate seeing it because it means i have to look at my failures and see how far i have to go, but it is good to see how many calories i log, even when i know i’ve screwed the diet up. I know there are times i eat when i’m not hungry and also times when i eat way to much when only a small snack would suffice.  nothing left to do but pick up and start again.  the biggest area i need to improve with is my eating habits and though i grab alot of good salads, i still eat alot of the wrong things.  the tempting things.  the comforting foods.  Also it is important to do something relaxing daily or more often.

attitude:  i really want to be thin.  but it isn’t enough.  I have to want to be active and want to eat healthy.