Yes I’m back.
I am down to 171.1 pounds. I am also down to very little energy and patience but that’s on me. Life has been crazy stressful with art submissions, husband, job, school, house, and other crazy things. I am hopping back on the pony and working out and eating well. Though, I have to say I haven’t been all that bad. It’s the being so busy that gets me, which makes me forget my lunch or sleep walk and have “breakfast”. Hahaha the cabinets should be locked at night because half awake me does not give a damn what she is eating. I am kind of like the blob, devouring anything and everything in my way.
By the way, happy memorial day!!!! (well 45 minutes ago). Summer makes me want to wave american flags, eat veggie dogs, and run around outside in a tank top and shorts. Oh and bring the flip flops out!
171.5 and on the way down
Filed under: Uncategorized on May 31st, 2010 | No Comments »
Today I cheated on my diet. A friend was having a birthday and they didn’t have anything I could, well, eat. I through caution to the wind and ate cheese and potatoes and cake. You know what? It didn’t taste very good to me. I wanted to have a mango. I think I’m going to have an apple and do some crunches. Ugh, I feel gross but I did have a great time at that party.
Filed under: Detox on May 8th, 2010 | No Comments »
Today, I felt it. I want PASTA and BREAD. Damn it. I didn’t cheat though, though I think I ate one too many sweet potato fries. Ugh, a nice ciabatta sandwich with pesto. Some pasta with tomatoes, basil, and pine nuts. I think after my self imposed diet jail I might be skipping to Phase 3 and not 2. Why? Because cooking 2 completely different lunches, then 2 completely different dinners, then not being able to eat out with my husband is a pain in the butt when it comes to my time. Its only been 4 days and it feels like a lifetime but I feel like going to the diet gods on my knees “I learned my lesson, I learned my lesson!!!!” Of course they would strike me with lightning or maybe a low carb pretzel stick .
Ugh, must make it.
Filed under: Detox on May 7th, 2010 | No Comments »
Dia numero TRES de mi dieta. Yesterday my dinner plans changed completely. I made a sort of chile relleno without cheese or flour, but filled with mushroom, squash, corn, brown rice, black beans, and a rough enchilada sauce. It tasted good but just a little cheese would have sent it over the moon.
Oh and I lied. I ended up not working on my art. I worked on some different career things.
Today I was wearing these beige pinstripe slacks and I had a belly pooch or whatever it might be called. Any time I was near a mirror it was calling to me. “Yeah your slacks aren’t laying completely flat on your stomach. Pay attention to me you Pinkberry gobbling monster!! You don’t have abs *evil laughter* ” Harsh slacks, harsh. We’ll see who gets washed with the expensive detergent.
Filed under: Detox on May 6th, 2010 | No Comments »
I’ve battled with my weight for a long time which has been a pain in the ass. Academically if I step away from myself I can totally see whats happening. “Ah, *pensive look with hand moving to chin” classic retention of weight due to fear of failing…. Now get me a seltzer water young chap!” But then its me alone with that bag of Sea Salt Chips. I eye the bag, the dopamine flows, the bag crinkles in delight, and I’m left fat.
I want to do this properly this time as a way of putting myself first. How can I fail if I don’t try? I really don’t want to be perfect in my own little self enclosed and limited world. That’s boring and won’t be making any headlines. Time to pick up a hammer and throw it. Why? Because weight isn’t the only thing I put off. I put off my art. I am sure that my success in one is going to lead to success in the other. You know what? Tonight I’m making some art. F*&% it!
Oh it’s so easy to be the doctor, but its tough to take the medicine.
Bottoms up.
Filed under: Detox on May 5th, 2010 | No Comments »
You know, this isn’t too bad. I’m eating a lot of fruit and veggies while not starving. I took a mango to work to snack on. I think tonight I’ll make some oven sweet potato fries, a salad, and hrm….I don’t know. I’d really love some orange peel tofu but I have no patience for making it.
What do I miss? PASTA AND BREAD!!!!!!! Oh I miss you. I can make some kick ass pasta salads and if you ate some vegan baked goods. Its going to be a whole month without pasta and bread. That just might be my breaking point… Oh and outings with friends. That’s no good. What the heck can I have when I eat out?
One day at a time. There are more important things to concentrate on. Who am I talking to? Myself.
Filed under: Detox on May 5th, 2010 | No Comments »
I survived Day 1 of detox. During the day I was fine, but I had to work late and that was no fun. Next time I need to bring extra fruit and food to munch on in case of emergencies.
Dinner went pretty well. I made a sort of black bean chili thing. I had a 30 minute walk (thanks super far parking for helping with that). Now I’m wrapped up in a blanket getting ready for the next day.
Starting weight: 176.5
Filed under: Detox on May 4th, 2010 | No Comments »
Today I said no to cheese and sour cream on my tacos and it wasn’t so difficult. It took a split second to assess the problem at hand, and I picked health…and some pico.
I went to the grocery store and stocked up on fruits, veggies, and legumes which will help me with my diet.:
- black beans
- pinto beans
- mangoes
- apples
- grapefruits
- tomato sauce
- sweet potatoes
- corn
- mushrooms
- bell peppers
Filed under: The Plan on May 2nd, 2010 | No Comments »
I’m female, married, and love art/science/business.
Now let’s get this started, like I’ve done a million half assed times before. This time, though, the whole ass is going out the window.
I was doing well weight wise last year but just as I was back on board with working out I hurt my back badly and gained 20 pounds. I currently weigh 180 pounds and I want to get to 135. I didn’t even notice it coming on because standing up was an achievement in itself. Now, I not only see it but I feel it. I feel heavy, I fit into my “fat” pants, I’m eating things and then I’m disgusted by what I just ate. Ugh, the fat has overcome me. At times I catch glimpses of myself at work in the windows and I look so unlike what I think I look like. In the window is a sweater bedecked manatee.
I’ve been eating unhealthy, I’m hurting, and I’ve been stressed about everything (damn you artist’s block!!!). Losing weight will help me physically and give me the confidence and energy to get out there and shake things up. My tool of choice? I’m going to be trying the Fat Smash Diet. It’s a sensible reevaluation of one’s diet through going without processed foods and building up from there. *sigh* I need that. I will be starting my diet come Tuesday (I need time to amass some supplies).
Thanks for reading my blog and laughing along with me during my journey.
Filed under: The Plan, Uncategorized on May 1st, 2010 | 2 Comments »