Just the weigh I am.

Yeah, a baby step back for baby back ribs…

So last night I ate ribs. And smoked salmon spread. And garlic mashed potatoes and sweet baked beans. I don’t know why I do it to myself but I’m not upset this time. I gave myself a treat. I felt beautiful because my hair was done.

203.4

Not bad for this week, even considering the scale said 202 yesterday. Plus, I haven’t moved my bowels this morning yet (not to be gross, but it’s true) and this week for various reasons and numerous plans I didn’t get to the gym. I still see it as a success. It’s a loss, and I accomplished a lot this week. I cut out my after school snack since I was overdoing it, and except for last night I didn’t stray from my diet once. We have to appreciate the small victories so that we can push forward, right? Right.

I’m going to a Going Green party today. Yep, green for the environment. I’m sure there’ll be snacks there but unless they’re vegetables I’m not eating them. I’m going to eat both breakfast and lunch before I go and bring a water with me to drink on the way there. I’m still determined. I also might go to the gym tonight, and definitely tomorrow (so maybe twice this weekend to make up for it).

Here’s the meal plan for today, subject to change only slightly.

Breakfast:
- nutrisystem pancakes
- a banana

Lunch:
- nutrisystem minestrone soup
- an orange

Dinner:
- nutrisystem bbq steak with rice
- a salad
- a little taste of Josh’s smoked brisket

Snack:
- nutrisystem chocolate mint bar

Beverages:
- 2 bottles of fruit2o raspberry
- 2 waters

How is it possible that I gained weight this week? The only day I slipped up was last night and I only had a little bit of ice cream. There is no way I can be over a pound heavier than last week. No freaking way. Theoretically, I should have lost a few pounds this week.

I’m very discouraged.
On the verge of being pretty depressed.
Can stress make you gain weight?

207.2

No such thing as “meals” on weekends, really.
Only woke up after 1pm.

Today:
- nutrisystem chicken salad
- melba toast
- 2 plum tomatoes
- 3 tablespoons of cottage cheese
- & nutrisystem dinner later
- 2 poland spring water bottles (probably 2 more before sleep)

So if you haven’t noticed already, I neglect this diet blog when I am not being successful. It really should be the other way around since support from readers are beneficial and can help me in the right diet direction. Alas, I am self destructive most of the time.

I had a nice Christmas. However, a list of the things I’ve eaten in the past week are not so good.

• 10oz steak and mashed potatoes for Christmas dinner.
• Cookies at the faculty party, as well as a bagel that morning with cream cheese.
• Vegetable platters twice, but didn’t go too easy on the ranch dip.
• 5 pinwheels
• My grandmother’s lasagna, some meatballs, sausage, and a dinner roll yesterday for Christmas #2.
• Taco Bell (nachos and a fresco burrito) Friday night when Josh and I were staying up.
• Way too much French Vanilla coffee. We got a new coffee maker for Christmas. HALF AND HALF IS NOT YOUR FRIEND.
• A wrap from Country Rotisserie.

209.0 at the moment. I guess it could be worse, but it’s still a substantial gain. Probably take me another week to get back to where I was at 204. But for once I’m not upset. I enjoyed my holiday and it was quite a melancholy time as it was my last Christmas here in America and my family for probably a few years. I didn’t need to worry about my diet too.

I hope everyone else had a nice Christmas. Keep up the good work, sisterchicks!

213
Lost 2 more pounds!

Today was really hard for me. I had a bit of a let-down today and it made me want to eat, and eat, and eat.

Thankfully, Josh was so good to me. He took me home and we cut up some nice tomatoes which I ate with cottage cheese instead of indulging in something that was bad for me. He’s so good to me. Eating would have only made me feel worse once I realize my weight loss had once again been foiled, anyway.

We might go to the olive garden tonight so I can pig out on salad. See, I just need to choose better treats for myself. Thankfully, Josh has been very supportive in helping me do so.