Just the weigh I am.

Yeah, a baby step back for baby back ribs…

So last night I ate ribs. And smoked salmon spread. And garlic mashed potatoes and sweet baked beans. I don’t know why I do it to myself but I’m not upset this time. I gave myself a treat. I felt beautiful because my hair was done.

203.4

Not bad for this week, even considering the scale said 202 yesterday. Plus, I haven’t moved my bowels this morning yet (not to be gross, but it’s true) and this week for various reasons and numerous plans I didn’t get to the gym. I still see it as a success. It’s a loss, and I accomplished a lot this week. I cut out my after school snack since I was overdoing it, and except for last night I didn’t stray from my diet once. We have to appreciate the small victories so that we can push forward, right? Right.

I’m going to a Going Green party today. Yep, green for the environment. I’m sure there’ll be snacks there but unless they’re vegetables I’m not eating them. I’m going to eat both breakfast and lunch before I go and bring a water with me to drink on the way there. I’m still determined. I also might go to the gym tonight, and definitely tomorrow (so maybe twice this weekend to make up for it).

Here’s the meal plan for today, subject to change only slightly.

Breakfast:
- nutrisystem pancakes
- a banana

Lunch:
- nutrisystem minestrone soup
- an orange

Dinner:
- nutrisystem bbq steak with rice
- a salad
- a little taste of Josh’s smoked brisket

Snack:
- nutrisystem chocolate mint bar

Beverages:
- 2 bottles of fruit2o raspberry
- 2 waters

A horrible photo today with a vein popping out of my head, but I’m too lazy to take another photo. Got my hair done today. Been growing out my highlights and got the bottom to match my natural hair color. I’m happy with how it came out. The photo doesn’t do it justice.

Annnnnyway.

Couldn’t resist weighing myself this morning, one day early.
202!
I am ecstatic.
And tonight I’m going out to eat to wreck my official weigh-in tomorrow.

But you know what? I’m so happy. I’m doing it and I’m determined. I WILL reach my goal of ONEderland for the end of this month. YES.

Breakfast:
- nutrisystem granola bar
- a banana

Lunch:
- nutrisystem chicken salad
- an orange

Dinner:
- probably salad with horrible dressing. oh well.

Everyone deserves a treat once in a while, right?
Plus, my hair looks awesome. I have to go out.

I was so exhausted yesterday I didn’t write. But I was a good girl, I promise. Yesterday I didn’t stray from my diet at all.

Now today, on the other hand:

Breakfast:
- nutrisystem blueberry muffins

Lunch:
- nutrisystem chocolate grahm bar

Dinner:
- Olive Garden salad
- 2 breadsticks

Snack:
- ice cream… FAIL

Beverages:
- 3 poland spring waters
- half a raspberry iced tea at olive garden… moderate fail
- starbucks energy drink… FAIL

Today was Friday and I rewarded myself a little bit, but I went overboard with the ice cream and the energy drink at the end of the night. Right back on track tomorrow morning. I won’t dwell on this like other times. I am pretty confident I still lost weight this week, despite my carelessness today. Today I didn’t have any fruit or snacks to bring with me so I was starving all day and then overindulged when I got home. Lesson learned.

I decided I’m weighing myself once a week on Saturday mornings. That way I won’t obsess over my weight all week. Okay. Doing better still. Keep going.

So if you haven’t noticed already, I neglect this diet blog when I am not being successful. It really should be the other way around since support from readers are beneficial and can help me in the right diet direction. Alas, I am self destructive most of the time.

I had a nice Christmas. However, a list of the things I’ve eaten in the past week are not so good.

• 10oz steak and mashed potatoes for Christmas dinner.
• Cookies at the faculty party, as well as a bagel that morning with cream cheese.
• Vegetable platters twice, but didn’t go too easy on the ranch dip.
• 5 pinwheels
• My grandmother’s lasagna, some meatballs, sausage, and a dinner roll yesterday for Christmas #2.
• Taco Bell (nachos and a fresco burrito) Friday night when Josh and I were staying up.
• Way too much French Vanilla coffee. We got a new coffee maker for Christmas. HALF AND HALF IS NOT YOUR FRIEND.
• A wrap from Country Rotisserie.

209.0 at the moment. I guess it could be worse, but it’s still a substantial gain. Probably take me another week to get back to where I was at 204. But for once I’m not upset. I enjoyed my holiday and it was quite a melancholy time as it was my last Christmas here in America and my family for probably a few years. I didn’t need to worry about my diet too.

I hope everyone else had a nice Christmas. Keep up the good work, sisterchicks!

208.

I went out with a bunch of my friends from high school tonight. I had an absolutely fabulous time. We went to Olive Garden. All I ate was salad. Everyone else had entrees and I felt left out but then I was like I AM HAVING SALAD OH YEAH!! I did eat a breadstick or two, though. I could’ve done worse, though. Way worse. I’m pleased with my not giving into temptation tonight.

I didn’t want my night to end, though, and I ended up doing this:

Energy drinks don’t help my diet but oh well.

I completed my 101 things to do in 1001 days list today. I am really excited about it. I have a couple diet goals on there. I’ve almost completed the first one - lose 25 pounds.

I’m going strong.
I need more blogs here at 3fc to add to my blogroll.

I had a rough couple days. I went out to eat twice and I also indulged in some crazy expensive milk chocolate and dark chocolate covered biscuits that were brought as a gift by my grandparent’s friends. I’ve been dreading getting on the scale, but I finally did it this morning.

212
WHAT?! I lost a pound? I don’t understand how, but I decided I’m not going to complain.

This morning, I’m going out to eat with my great uncle. I plan on getting a greek salad and only using half the dressing. I don’t think that’s too bad. I’m getting together with a friend of mine later today, as well, and I know we will probably grab something to eat. I’m going to try and find the healthiest thing on the menu. Maybe a grilled chicken sandwich and I won’t eat the top part of the bun. I’ll figure it out.

My goal for this week is to not eat out at all until Saturday when our weekly trip to Olive Garden for salad usually occurs. I treat myself to salad and a day out each week. However, I had too many treats this week. Blah.

My goal for next week is to lose 2 or more pounds. Not unreasonable, I think, since I still have so much to lose. It always comes off pretty fast in the beginning so I’m going to enjoy it before I plateau.

Hopefully in a few weeks, I’ll be staring at ONEderland. <3

213
Lost 2 more pounds!

Today was really hard for me. I had a bit of a let-down today and it made me want to eat, and eat, and eat.

Thankfully, Josh was so good to me. He took me home and we cut up some nice tomatoes which I ate with cottage cheese instead of indulging in something that was bad for me. He’s so good to me. Eating would have only made me feel worse once I realize my weight loss had once again been foiled, anyway.

We might go to the olive garden tonight so I can pig out on salad. See, I just need to choose better treats for myself. Thankfully, Josh has been very supportive in helping me do so.

Once again, I fail at blogging.

My mother ended up staying at the hospital for over a week. Things really got to me, and meals were had on the go a lot last week. I ended up at 220 again. I felt useless. However, this was no reason to give up. Now I’m back at 215. Hopefully now that the stress of my mother is gone and things are back to normal, I’ll be able to succeed like I intend to. Lets just forget these last 2 weeks ever happened.

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We had a dinner party tonight and I stayed on my diet while I saw everyone around me eating swordfish, baked potatoes, greek salad, apple pie, and ice cream. Ahhh, I’m so proud of myself. My determination is finally back.

Yesterday, Sunday, was the day that I decided on to restart my diet. I had lost 30 pounds, but gained back 15. You would think that being all excited about starting my diet again would be enough to at least not mess up on the first day. But you would be wrong.

I slept extremely late yesterday as Sundays are my day to catch up on sleep. I woke up after noon, not feeling very hungry. I had a wonderful day of lounging around in my pajamas and browsing the internet and playing video games. Finally, it was past 5pm and Josh and I realized that we were quite hungry after not eating all day. We decided to go out to dinner at the Olive Garden because I love to eat their salad and he likes their meals, as well. I figured that it was alright to go and eat just salad to break in to my new diet, as one last little treat. (Nutrisystem is quite a regimented diet, and that’s what I’m doing - I’m not saying that eating salad is bad for a diet, just to clear that up.)

However, we somehow ended up at a steakhouse. I ended up getting a house salad as well as a chicken sandwich. I guess I could have done worse, but I still came home feeling very disappointed in myself. How could I have made ANOTHER excuse after being so psyched to finally start back on my diet again? However, I did have a fabulous evening and it’s not like I ate too much or ate something that was unhealthy. Heck, I was too full to even finish the chicken sandwich. I just can’t help feeling bummed out. It makes me want to give up already.

Today is going much better. I ate my Nutrisystem breakfast which was low fat granola. I decided to mix it with fat free yogurt and it was very tasty. I had a snack of organic unsweetened applesauce and it was so good! Then for lunch I enjoyed my Nutrisystem Pasta with Broccoli which I still ate even though Josh was eating Taco Bell, one of my favourites, beside me. I wanted to prove to myself that I had enough self control to not be upset while he ate takeaways, but I was surprisingly determined today. Although I was a bit upset and jealous, I just tried to be positive. The fact that he kept telling me he was proud of me also helped.

I am glad that I decided not to give up, and I’m confident that with the right mindset and support I will be successful in dieting, finally.