Big Changes July 8, 2010
It’s been a while since I last posted and my life has had some twists and turns. I have now separated from my husband and have moved out of our house and into an apartment. It’s certainly an adjustment, but I feel as if a huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders. The absence of the stress and tension in my everyday life has been really nice. Right now I’m just focusing on rediscovering me. With the exception of Memorial Day weekend, I have managed to stay on track with Weight Watchers throughout all of this and that really amazes me. I’m definitely proud of that and I’m glad that this has become more of a ‘lifestyle’ for me than a ‘diet.’ At this point I’ve lost nearly 60 pounds. 60 pounds! On one hand that sounds like so much, but on the other hand it’s just the tip of the iceberg. Thing is, I’m not letting myself get caught up in the big picture and I’m just enjoying watching the scale move downward with every passing week. This might take me a couple of years, but those years will pass whether or not I do this, so I might as well just do it. I haven’t started noticing the drastic changes yet, but there are differences. I’m still wearing the same clothes, but they definitely fit differently. There are a few tops I’ve had to stop wearing because they’re too big, but the best thing is that I’m adding new tops to my wardrobe. I’ve actually been shopping in my own closet and wearing things that I’ve never been able to wear. That has really been nice. I’m looking forward to the day when I can wear clothes in the next size down. Right now my immediate goal is to be able to fit into jeans that I haven’t worn in over four years. I still have them in my closet and once I get into those I’ll be the same size I was in my mid-twenties. They are 30/32s, but have no stretch, so they’re on the smaller side of that size. It’s crazy that I’ve been wearing that size or higher for over 15 years now. Once I’m out of the 30/32s, I’ll be about the same size I was when I graduated high school. My twenty-year high school reunion will be in two years and I’d really like to go and be smaller than I ever was in high school. In order to accomplish that I’ll just need to be smaller than a 22/24. I can definitely do that!
Just need to lose 1.4 lbs this week to hit 60. Next goal: 75!