EXTREMELY OVERDUE update

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So May was full of wonderful occaisions but a disaster diet wise. I gained some weight back :( I think I was back up to 147-148 but I don’t know for sure it was so awful :0. My BC might also have been affecting my weight, as I just switched.

I got sick of paying for Yaz (30 bucks a month) and asked my gynocologist to switch me to a different generic BC,(not the yaz generic, as it made me CRAZY) so now I’m on Cryselle something (generic of lo ovral). She gave me 3 months to try it out. I know it takes a few months to get used to a new BC, and I’ve already noticed a couple (GOOD) things that may be related to the pill, but May was so tumultuous I will need to keep an eye on it for the next couple months. And, I can have 3 months at once, instead of picking it up 1x a month which is annoying.

May was the MONTH of food. (April wasn’t a breeze, either, but I digress). Here is a quick rundown of all the food-having events I can remember in May, and there was def. some other stuff mixed in. I kept up the exercise, which is helpful, but there is no way to out exercise crappy eating habits.

-Taiko Concert. Ate at the reception, then went out to dinner after.
-Greg’s Bachelor party at the Medieval Manor, where the 5th course was, I kid you not, HALF A CHICKEN. I didn’t eat it all of course, but that was the LAST course
-Victoria’s Bridal Shower
-Mother’s Day
-Victoria’s Bachelorette party
-Greg and Victoria’s Wedding
-Mom’s Birthday
-Friendly’s with Stacey
-War of the Roses, where I was miserable and cranky and ate extra peanutbutter and bagels, AND the food G&V gave us
-Visiting Joel and Becky and going to the diner
-Candy in the car after Roses

And that’s what I REMEMBER. Minor offenses include at least half a bag of baking chocolate chips, Soc’s, Meletharbe’s once (though that may have been April), and 2 scoops at Tosci’s instead of 1 a couple times  Also, I was so depressed by the end of the month I kind of went nuts and ate an entire sleeve of thin mint girl scout cookies in one sitting.

All told though, the dimensional damage wasn’t bad, though that more shows how damn fat my somach is for my weight. My waist went back up to 32 from 31. My stupid boobs remained the same, fortunately, instead of getting bigger, which I they might have on the new BC as I think it has more estrogen than yaz (haven’t checked this though). I went back up to the Old Navy 8’s from the Express 8 ’s. Sigh.

Anyway, June 1st I got back on track, and it’s been going very well. I have been doing well in the food department, averaging somewhere between 1500-1700 daily, with the exception of Saturday when Steve and I went to Coldstone Creamery (SOOO GOOODDD) and Monday, which was Mike’s b-day and we went to the cheesecake factory. I only ate 1/3 of the factory burrito (maybe less, a lot of rice fell out) but I ate almost the whole piece of cheesecake, lol, the peanutbutter fudge ripple (MMmmmm chocolate and peanutbutter drooooll). I have been walking pretty much everyday, and going to the gym for classes, AND doing weights consistently.

For the weight lifting, I FINALLY started using barbells for some stuff. It is hard at lexington, as I got used to working in the smaller room that doesn’t have any barbells or heavier dumbbells, but I’ve started going to Watertown for some classes and since I go right after work and get there pretty early (going home and leaving again would be a waste of time because of traffic) I will do weights before kickboxing. And the watertown gym is just everything thrown together. I felt a little subconscious at first, but like, whatever. I was the only girl using barbells at the time though, lol. I used 45 to squat the first time, and yesterday 50. I will stick with 50 for a while. Dunno after 60lb, that’s the highest the fixed barbells go, but I may just stay at 50-60 for a while, as it is quite effective at making my but hurt, lol.

I am also (doing a horrible job at) not looking at the scale every day. Haha. Right. Anyway, as of the weekend I was back to just under 145, and then yesterday when I got home I was just under 143. Normally I’d say it was because it was after 8 when I got back and I’d been walking, but I’d also been to the gym and drank AT LEAST 40oz of water during my time there, and that’s like, 2.5lb water. I don’tknow what I was this morning since I was at steve’s house, but the Counselor scale in his b-room had me at about 141 last night and 137 (!!!!!) this morning. It usually has been about 2lb off, so either it’s WAY more off now from my scale, or I evaporated.

This sudden drop in weight I think is at least somewhat related to the new birth control pills, as it is impossible to lose 4 (or more) lb in a week, no matter HOW hard I work. I’m a few days into the off week, and had to pee like, 90 times the last couple days. Monday I thought it was because I was drinking water excessively, but yesterday that was not the case. I will need to keep an eye on this, to see if this pill gives me a monthly water retention/loss cycle. Yaz never did that, probably because one of the drugs in it is a mild diuretic.

Exercise log??

Today: so far I walked around the building before work, ~.5 miles. this is going to be a non-exercise day. Probably should have those once in a while.

Tuesday 6/8
-3mi walk before work
-strength training after work
-10 minutes on the stair climber to 50 flights  (ugh) . Never done it before. The girl next to me was holding on. How is that any good? Go slower. Of course, it was hard to walk on. There needs to be like, 1 more step, and the steps need to be deeper. I kept tripping.
-2.5 mile walk on the bike path, because it was SO NICE out

Yeah, Tuesday was a lot of exercise. Haha.

Monday 6/7
-3 mile walk before work
~3/4 mile walk during a break at work.
-kickboxing after work

Sunday 6/6
-about 2.5mi? walk with Steve

Saturday 6/5
-kickboxing in the morning
-strength training, upper body only because I strained a muscle or something and couldn’t do squats. And I did a bunch anyway, during kickboxing, before deciding I should stop it before I made it worse
-~2.5 mile walk with Steve

Friday 6/4
-3mile walk before work
-walked around the mall a bit after work, in an effort to get myself NOT to take a long walk. I bought a cute dress, lol.

Thursday 6/3
-just over 2 mile walk before work, in the office park
-strength training
-kickboxing

Wednesday 6/2
-3mile walk before work
-~2.5 or so mile walk in the evening

Tuesday 6/1
Strength Training
Kickboxing

Food??

Well, after a couple weeks ago when Steve and I ate at Fresh City, I’ve started eating wraps instead of oatmeal for dinner all the time. Probably a good thing. I was probably destroying myself eating only oatmeal. Anywho, I sometimes do chicken ceaser wraps, but usually I do “greek” style (it has hummus, so my stupid brain says greek). Really, they are just wraps with hummus, baby spinach and grilled veggies. Primarily zucchini, yellow squash, green peppers, onion and mushroom. This week I added garlic (good) and carrots (not so good, and the flavor got into EVERYTHING). Along with a wrap I eat a bowl of miso soup with ?frozen seafood medley” (lol) for protein and FILLING POWER lol.

I bought chocolate-peanutbutter spread to eat with bananas for dessert sometimes. YUMMMMM.

So yeah, that’s where things stand. I will be interested in (not, yeah right) seeing the scale today, and esp tomorrow first thing and the tape measure. See, I finally recovered enough to be motivated to update my journal! I’m not changing the tracker, though. I’m such a liar, haha.

La-di dah

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Things are going, I guess. I haven’t seen any loss or anything yet, but well, it seems to take a couple weeks of being good to see change at this point, and I’ve only been good for like, 2 days haha. When did I update last . . .

The 9th. That’s. . . last Friday. Oh, well. I was REALLY BAD on Saturday. Well, with food, anyway.

It started well. I went to the gym in the morning for Bodycombat, and breakfast and lunch were normal. I was meeting Steve and his friend Justin (who I’d not met yet) at their chess tournament, somewhere around six, so I had planned this epic walk through Boston, cambridge, and Somerville, ending up at the chess club. I left home just after 1:00 (and had a Tag-a-long on the way out the door, yum) for the 1 mile walk to the subway, and decided to start the walk at Downtown Crossing instead of North Station as per my original plan (I’d forgotten the walk to the sudbway from my house). I wandered around downtown crossing and China Town a bit, stopped by Winmill Fabrics (didn’t buy anything) and poked my head into Van’s Textiles (which, according to google people was closed, dingbats), and then headed off towards the commons. I wandered around the Public Garden and through the Boston Common, and then a little more in the garden as I headed towards Mass Ave. The Make Way for Ducklings ducklings were wearing little straw hats with ribbons in addition to small children, how cute!

My walk was more direct after I left the gardens. I walked down the Charles on the esplanade towards the Smoot Bridge (Mass Ave) and walked through central square and to harvard square. I stopped in a couple stores along the way, and passed up the MOST AWESOME EVER LAVENDAR CHIFFON PETTICOAT in a vintage shop near harvard. It was $58. I can’t do that to myself. No matter how awesome. Of course, now I have to buy a bunch of chiffon and make one myself, but I’ll probably shoot myself in the head first because I’ve heard chiffon is a B* to work with.

I stopped at a few places in Harvard Square, including the Hootenany’s and the other random trendy clothing store in the Garage Mall, and the Urban Outfitters. Store I ALWAYS wanted to shop in when I was 15 and fatfat, but now I just. . . wasn’t impressed. Oh, well.Some stuff was really cute, but, of course, my stupid boobs are too big to fit those cute things still, even if the rest of me isn’t.

After that I made my way to the chess tournamet, I think I poked my head into one more store on the way. I got there around 5:30. Steve was playing his last game, which of course went on FOREVER, until almost seven. Which wouldn’t have been so bad, except the room I was waiting in was COLD, and I was HUNGRY.

This is where it gets bad (foodwise). We went to an italian place (counter ordering) for dinner and I got Mozzarella Sticks (yummmm) and chicken-pesto ziti. I got the large mozzarellla sticks to split with Zteve which means I had 5. I ate about half the pasta (Steve thinks I ate less than that) and I guess that was about 1.5 servings pasta, not sure though. So not great for dinner, but really, considering how much walking I’d done (about 8 miles) I figured fine. But, I REALLY wanted ice cream, so after we parted from Justin and got back to Steve’s car, we went to Friendly’s (cause like, that ’s the only obvious option around here sadly) and I got a peanutbutter cup friend-z. Which only had ONE peanutbutter cup in it! Jerks! Anyway, when I added it all into the daily plate, guestimating for the eating out, it would have been ok, EXCEPT FOR THE FRIEND-Z, which, according to Friendly’s nutrition info, was about 860 calories. Ouch! Maybe it was a LITTLE less, as there was only one peanutbutter cup in there, but still. After the food and exercise, if I hadn’t eaten ice cream, I would have actually had a deficient for the day (about 300 cal) but with the ice cream I was totally OVER by like 500 or something. Dman it!

Oh well, live and learn (or get over it again). I decided not to eat breakfast on Sunday (haha). Slept in, ate a banana around 10:30, went to work, came home, and ate a reasonable lunch around noone. And then ate 3 oz of my trader joe’s feta cheese, making it ALMOST like any other day. Heh. Then I went over to Steve’s and hung out with him and Justin playing Dominion until Steve had to take Justin to the air port. Steve agreed to walk with me after he got back, so instead of going home I drove to the Target in Saugus to look for little bowls and plates. Do you have ANY IDEA how HARD it is to find SMALL dishes? Argh. I found some dipping dishes to use as cold food bowls (they are made of melamine, so not microwave or dishwasher safe), a couple little plates and a BIG plate to use like a tray. They are squarish so they all fit, and my bigger stuff also fits, as I’ve discovered, so it’s easier to carry 4 things to my room at once, lol. And next door was a Shaw’s, so I went there and bought sugar free pudding (chocolate and butterscotch) and FINALLY bought powdered milk to use in the pudding, since I don’t actually drink milk and it would go bad and be a waste. Oh, and a set of baby spoons, to see if it slows down my pudding-eattin’.

Steve came back and we took like, a 15 minute walk before it got dark. It was a pretty nice day, I wish I’d had more outside time.

When I got home I ate dinner. I had Hot Cereal for the SECOND TIME that day, lol. I decided to make a couple changes though, so I had tuna fish instead of shrimp. I also added a little soy sauce to my spinach in addition to the mustard, as I think part of why I’ve been adding more mustard is I like it salty. So, that was nice. I (tried) to make butterscotch pudding for dessert. I added 1-cup milk’s equivalent of milk powder instead of 2, 2 cups cold water and the pudding mix. I THHEN massaged theinternet and found a mention that you have to mix the milk up first. Sigh. Needless to say, I had pudding soup instead of pudding. But, it was all butterscotchy! For the day I was like, 1400 cal or something. OK, for a not-active day.

Yesterday I woke up early and walked the 2.2mi loop around horn pond, and walked around lake quannapowitt with steve after work (3.4 miles). I tried the pudding again with chocolate, mixing the milk first this time, and it worked lovely yay. Now I need to get smaller containers to make 2-3 servings from the pudding instead of just eating it all at once, haha. I also want to try to make my own with stevia, instead of aspartame that come sin instant pudding. According to the internets, I can use cornstarch as a thickener, but I need to look for recipes still. I may invest in cocao powder. Food was fine yesterday, around 1600 total.

So far today has been ok. I decided it’s time to change my lunch. It is notoriously devoid of fat and high in carbs. I lessened the potato, tomato sauce and applesauce slightly and threw in a cheese stick. Really, I just need to not bring the applesauce. It’s just, so ingrained! It’s been my desert for like, 2 years now at lunch.

I’m sick :( I have a cold.:(( BUT, I shall go to bootcamp anyway!

Oh, and I’ve probably been consuming rather more sodium than usual. One serving of instant pudding has 480mg of sodium I think it was, and I eat the whole box so. . . almost 2000mg of sodium! Maybe I’m retaining a little extra water, haha, so if I stop a couple days the scale will drop. I’ll cycle, haha. Sat-Wed, lots of sidum, little on thr, fri for sat morning weigh in lol. Nah, too much effort.

And my tummy and love handles are all smushy :( I don’t have firm fat, just mushy fat :/ And I need a decent bra. Time to go to a lingerie store and fork over my salary for a decent feminine constrictin device.

Stuffs

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So I guess the ticker stays where it is. 142.4 this morning (sighs of relief ensue).I ‘ve been a good girl since Tuesday.

I’m STILL sore from bootcamp, darn it! And last night Matt, my FAVORITE bodycombat instructor, told us he’s leaving the Lexington club to take a management position in Watertown. So no class next week, because they are fixing the studio floors, and then, his last combat with us. Pout. I asked when he’d be teaching at Watertown and that’s when he said it was a management position, and he didn’t know what/if he’d be teaching, but I assume he’ll tell us in two weeks. If he ever teaches at a time I can go, I so will, at least sometimes. I also told him he was my favorite bodycombat instructor, and he said not to make him blush, lol.

Tomorrow Steve and one of his friends from Brandeis are participating in a Chess tournament in Davis square. He asked me to come towards the end of the tournament, and we’ll probably go eat somewhere, so I have planned an EPIC WALK Starting at North Station, through downtown boston, and down mass ave, eventually ending at Davis Square. If I do everything as on my little map, the walk will be 7.8 miles long, lol. Depending on what time I get down town, and how I feel, I can always start at like downtown crossing instead, and hope the 1 bus somewhere and resume the walk from harvard or get on the train or something. I also get to go to Winmill fabrics (assuming they are open) for the first time in AGES. It’s supposed to be like 58 degress, but sunny, so good walking weather.

My stupid muscles are still sore around my shoulders/neck and some scummy kid at anime boston (I know they arent’t REALLY scummy, I just like to pretend I’m old sometimes) is probably responsible for my sore throat. I guess If I didn’t keep giving in and sleeping all day I’d be sick by now.

Bootcamp = PAIN

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I did my first bootcamp at the BSC yesteray. My body is sore. ALL of it. My shoulders, my legs, even my abs a bit. And my back hurts. That started this weekend, and bootcamp seems to have exacerbated it. Usually it takes about 24 hours for the soreness to kick in, sometime towards the end of work I start to feel it, but NO, I woke up and it was ALREADY THERE.

:(

I shall OVERCOME bootcamp. When I started bodycombat, it almost killed me, and now I’m fine. I shall adjust to bootcamp as well, even though it is only once a week.

Oh, and I was back to 143.8 this morning. Keeping my fingers crossed, I’m sure I’m “retaining water” today, lol.

Another-other restart

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Well, the horrible month of March has ended, and so has passover. I didn’t let it die easily, of course, I ate like 7 tablespoons of peanut butter yesterday. But at least it’s done. And Steve took away the PB, kind of like he took the jelly rings the other day. Phew.

So I stepped on the scale today (like every day, but ya know) and weighed in at 145.2 . At least some of it is temporary (thank god) because of the volume of food I’ve consumed recently, and the amount of salt Passover plus eating at both P.F. Changs AND the Cheesecake Factory on Saturday adds to that lovely salt level. If I get back down to 154 by friday I will sigh and move on. 153, I will be satisfied, as there is no way I DIDN’T gain a little the last couple weeks. I shall reset the ticker if I am above 153 on Friday morning. And then I resume re-losing what I’d already lost, and maybe by the end of April I will break into the 130’s!

I resume healthy eating today. I had my normal breakfast (on the higher end, but barely) and have a healthy lunch that contains no matzo balls. I will go to the gym to try Bootcamp after work today. I hope I like it, because then I will switch to tuesday bootcamp instead of monday body combat, probably for the summer, to free up an evening for walking as well as getting in a strength training evening that isn’t on the machines or on wednesday and I miss half of dance. I also will be able to make it to Taiko still. I have decided I will take a hiatus from taiko after this semester completes sometime in May. I haven’t been enjoying it so much lately, and it’s time for a break, no matter how much that pains me.

Here’s to making april a success!!

On A roll, but coming to a week-long snag. . .

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So it seems that once I broke past the whole 147-150 thing, I got on a roll. A weight-loss roll. Despite the setback this month after getting down to 144 due to total suckage, and then getting back there, I am now down to somewhere in the 141-142 range. Somehow.

On Saturday, I had to take my car into the dealer for my 60k service. I went to bodycombat at 8, got to the dealer at 9:30, and left for . . . a while. I walked to Horn pond, which is a touch less than 1 mile from the dealership, walked AROUND the pond, and back. When I mapped it on sparkpeople, the total walk was 4.18 (or something) miles). I did it in 84 minutes (yes I checked!) which means 3mph, huzzah! I walk at a NORMAL pace now! It was totally chilly, but very sunny, and a REALLY pleasant walk. I didn’t even bust out the mp3 player.

This far on Sat., I had only eaten breakfast before the gym. I got back to the dealer a little after 11, expecting to be there until noon, and read a book for a while. I was kind of hungry, and had kept a south beach bar with me to eat, but was toying with waiting for my car and going home at eatingn lunch. But, I decided to eat the cereal bar. I had taken just one bite, when they told me my car was done (30 min. earlier than expected). Lol. I finished it anyway, I was hungry! And did some “errands”. Really, I went shopping lol.

I went to old Navy to try on size 6 clothing. There is no better way to try it. My size 8 jeans from ON are a bit big, so I figured it was time for size six, lol. Well, the size 6 of the same style are the right size, though I didn’t buy them. Other sixes were, like, too low in the rise haha, and my gut still spilleth over, but otherwise fit. Stupid stomach.I also tried on a (SHOCKER) bright yellow dress, but my boobage was too powerful for it. I tried both a small and a medium, and might have fit both if not for my boobs, which, even though they have shrunk SO MUCH, are still roo powerful for clothing designers.

And I bought the MOST AWESOME EVER little shoulder bag, it is bright blue and soft and theonly thing I don’t like is there is no zipper to close it, but I’ve already converted. Sorry Shana bag, you are needing to be retired for a while.

Then I went to Jo-ann’s and bought that sewing pattern I wanted. And 3 others, because butterick patterns were on sale for $1.50 each and 4 patterns for 6$ is way better than the one for 10$ which is what it would have been with the normal 40% off. I went to Trader Joe’s after and bought THE BIGGEST JAR OF STEVIA EVARRRRR, for like less than the smaller one I got from whole foods last year. Now that I converted from splenda to stevia, I use it pretty quick. I’d say I used most of the jar in about 6 months. The TJ’s one should last at least a year, I think, maybe more. It’s HUGEEEEE. I also stopped at Michael’s to get one more flower for my costume.

I got home at like, 2:30-3pm, and worked on my costume a bit. I made the leg garter, and put it on. Then I put on the bustier, which is less uncomfortable after getting back down to 144 haha, put on the dress, and wrapped the s+m cord around the skirt. I looked and the mirror and was like “THAT IS SO HAWT”. Sorry, no pics, my roommate wasn’t around and the mirror glare was unavoidable.

I ate lunch at like, 4pm. I decided I really wanted ice cream for dinner and told Steve I wanted to go to friendly’s later. I’d been REALLY GOOD (lol). My calories were somewhere in the 1100’s so far, and I’d gotten two workouts in 3 hours, lol. I finished the sleeves for the costume (FINALLY, THEY SUCKED TOTAL ASS TO MAKE) and went to Steves. We had just finished a round of dominion and my mom called to tell me my grandmother had died. :( It sucks SO BAD she was my only remaining grandparent, all the otheres died when I was young so I don’t remember any of them except my other grandmother, and her only a little. All of her children’s families are close to her. I cried a while after that call. I still wanted ice cream, EVEN MORE. We went to Friendly’s and I got the 5 scoop sundae with the hunka chunka pb fudge, marshmallow, peanutbutter sauce, and peanutbutter cups topping. It was really good. Almost 1600 calories of good, according to the daily plate, lol, after I added it all up.

Sunday I woke up at 6. I was at Steve’s. I had to go to work. I lay around for a while, but at 8 I decided to just go and get going with my day. I had to go to work for a bit so I did that. Considering I was miserable I decided not to go to the gym for strength training, and did some bodyweight exercises while waiting for me culture media to warm up. I did two sets of pushups (22 and 11), 2 sets of jump squats (~25, and 20) and 2 sets of crunches. 30 regular ones, and 15 lower ab ones, where you elevate your knees and push your legs OUT, rather than crunching up. I don’t know what those are called, but one of the trainers and BSC showed me them.

After work I went home, it was like, 9:45 or something. I called my sister on the way, asking if she wanted to come to Bloomingdale’s with me. My friend Flavia is getting married in a couple weeks (In Brazil, so I can’t go to the wedding :( ) and here registry is at Bloomingdale’s. I can’t afford anything on her registry, but I decided to get her a gift card. And, As I’ve never been IN a Bloomingdale’s, I decided to go buy it in person. And my sister sometimes likes to come with me when I go out. When I got home first we hugged a while, and we ended up not leaving for a while because we were talking to my mom. My dad had just gotten back from driving from NC that morning and napped, but he was up and on the phone with the funeral home in NY when we got there. After a while Rachel and I went out. Unfortunately, Bloomingdale’s can’t send the gift card to the registry address because it is “Money” so I will have to mail it myself. They do have some gorgeous stuff there. There were these goblets that I have decided were for ice cream, they were brightly coloered and shiny inside and had spoons shapped like hearts (or butts, or something) and I WANT THEM. I told Rachel I wanted them for my wedding, lol.

We walked around the mall a bit. Originally we were going to walk around the chestnut hill reservoir, which was nearby, but we decided we were both hungry and tired and walked around the mall instead (the chestnut hill mall is pretty small, it turns out) and went home. It was almost 3, and we just snacked, because we went out to dinner at like 5 with the family. We went to Bugaboo Creek Steakhouse. We shared the spinach dip and tortilla chip appetizer, and I got the Pete’s Pasta whatever-ya-callit for dinner. It was penne pasta with alfredo sauce, chicken, sun-dried tomatoes and broccolli. Yum! I think I ate about 3/4 of it. Passover starts tonight, so gotta get all those yummy grainy carbs in PRONTO!!

Went home after that and sate some rainbow cookies (had one earlier, too). I checked my gym’s hours to see how late they were open, being a Sunday, as I felt the DESPERATE URGE to exercise. Not just because eI ate so much, but for stress relief. The Lexington club was open until 10pm, which was AWESOME. Of course, I had to backgrack a bit home first to get my mp3 player( treadmill = BOREDOM) and I went, and walked for 70 min. I have improved in the fitness department since taking bodycombat, as I was able to push quite hard yesterday. I worked up from 3.5mph to 3.7, and a range of 8-11 % incline. For the first 40-50 minutes I increased a little every 10, and then decreased over the last 20-30 min. According to the machine I averaged 3.6mph at 10% incline. Sounds about right.

I also decided that I may go tonight, as I won’t have another chance to go until Thursday. Tomorrow I have Taiko, and wednesday we are driving to NY for the funeral. And tonight is Passover Sedr, so lots of food and no bodycombat. The gym is open until 11 tonigiht, so I will probably try to go.

Anyway, over the weekend I actually saw the number 141 on my scale, though of course it was yesterday at like, 10 AM and I hadn’t eaten or really even drank anything yet. This morning it was 141.6. Hopefully the disaster of passover wont cause too much backtracking.

Passover always SEEMS like a good time to start a diet. No Carbs, right? Well, really it is so not. All the grains are just replaced with matzah, which is like bread only suckier because it is a cracker, and then everything is made with a pile of oil. And all the desserts! Sigh.

C75 - fatty acid synthase inhibitor (leading into a rant)

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Here is a link to an article about C75, a fatty acid synthase inhibitor. I have done a little work with this at my job, and am trying to learn a bit more about it

http://www.bentham.org/emi/samples/emi1-1/Di%E9guez.pdf

In the abstract, it notes that it decreases food intake and bodyweight in rodents, and suggests fatty acid synthesis as a target or treatment of obesity.

Well, duh, fatty acid synthesis IS a target for treating obesity, but really, the best way to target fatty acid synthesis in the real world is by not overeating, or something.

I think it is very important to understand the biology of healthy weight and obese bodies, but every time something like this comes up (via work-related interest, on the 3fc or spark forums) it further backs up my feelings that the only REAL treatment for obesity is BEHAVIORAL MODIFICATION. Just because the rats ate less doesn’t mean this sort of thing would work in humans. The rats weren’t over eating in the first place! They already listen to their internal signals, and this drug told them to eat less, and being rats, they listen.

There are no such signals in obese people. Stop. Don’t tell me about the exceptions. People that are obese eat too much. They know it. I know it. You know it. There are signals saying STOP and we don’t listen! THEY ARE ALREADY THERE AND WE DON’T LISTEN. THIS IS WHY DIET PILLS DON’T WORK. If you aren’t going to listen to signals that are already there, treating them with drugs that amplify the signals isn’t going to help!

Success!!!!!!

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So I decided it was time to update my tracker, lol. I got down to 144 2-3 weeks ago on the scale, then it all went to hell, got back there yesterday, and today . . . . 143!!!!!

Since I fluctuate quite a bit these days, I always have the tracker a bit higher than my lowest lows. However, I’m not 146 anymore, and I’d rather be less than 145, so. . . . 144.5!!

You may also have noticed that I changed my goal to 135 instead of 140. When I reach 138 I will reevaluate, but it’s looking like 135 is gonna be closer to what I want. Sigh. At least I don’t have more than 10 to go again, hahaha.

I’ll be good again today, and do my best over the weekend, so that maybe I’ll be a tad lower for the start of passover. Every year I have this glimmer that maybe I’ll lose weight during passover because I can’t eat grains, but really, it’s totally a weight-gain holiday It’s all full of matzah and oil and sugar and chocolate and stuff. Lol.

My left leg is SO SORE still today! I went to bodypump wednesday after not going to it for a few weeks and it was like the first time, SERIOUS AGONY (er, soreness). I need to start going to it once a week, and doing the express line 1-2x a week. Once endurance class, 1-2 “growth” sessions, or whatever. Walking totally hurts. I went to bodycombat yesterday, after about 10 minutes the soreness was less and I had a good workout, especially as I am no longer under the EVIL FOG OF ZYRTEC. Of course, by the time I got home after my muscles had cooled down and were sore again. I had toyed with the idea of doing the circuit today after work if it is raining/snowing, but I’m not gonna bother. I need more time to recover. I’ll do the express line on Sunday before or after I come into Billerica for cell maintanance. Tomorrow I’ve got combat at 8:00 (yes, A.M.) but then I’ve got to go to the dealership for my 60k service. And I’m not going to the gym Monday next week, so I’ll do strength sunday, wednesday, and maybe friday (as Anime Boston will suck up sat. and sun., and I can go after work but before Caroline’s shower).

Oh, and my Express size 8 jeans? They were totally comfortable enough to wear today, when I stealthily pulled them on this morning! I’m gonna wait until next week though, ‘casue I intend on taking a long walk after work today if it isn’t snowing or something, and I’d rather not break ‘em in on a long walk, esp. after having them on all day. They are still snug, of course, just not muffin-top-inducing-snug anymore.

Update, hopefully more not too much later

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So things have been going well this week with the weight loss attempt. After the increasingly horrible last few weeks, I have regained control, for now at least. I don’t know how muhc of what I ganed the last few weeks was real and what was temporary, but as of today I am back down to ~144.2 (3 readings this morning, 144, 144.2, and 144.4). I have entered/reentered new territory. The first time I got here was on like, a friday or saturday, and then the weekend attacked and everything went to hell, but now I still have two days left of the week and I really think I might break 143 this week! ZOMG.

Food has been good. I have finally come to accept the fact that I need to eat closer to 1500 than 1800 if I want to make any progress, as 1800 generally becomes 2000 and 1500 only becomes 1800. HAHA. Yesterday I went to Toscanninis after dance and got the brownie brown sugar butter ice cream. I was looking forward to it ALL DAY and was so glad they had it. I’m ashamed to admit that the ice cream was a stronger motivation for going to medieval dance than socializing was last night. I behaved foodwise all day for that ice cream!

I didn’t get to see Steve yesterday:( But I will today!

I also went back to bodypump yesterday, and like. OOWWWWW my legs hurt, my torso hurts. I sort of figureed out how to do squats correctly a week or two ago so I felt it a lot more strongly yesterday, and the lunges almost killed me even though I took down the weight a bit (20lb instead of 25 on the bar). I think some of it has been fatigue from the Zyrtec this week, but also I haven’t been doing the endurance of bodypump, just the regular circuit for strength. I think I need to make sure I do bodypump ONCE a week, and the circuit 1-2x a week.My left quad is sad. The other is sore when like, I walk and stuff. My chest hurts from the presses. I think my chest muscles are improving somewhat, at least some stabilizing muscles or something, because before on the chest track my arms would hurt a lot during the chest presses, but last night I could feel it more in the correct muscles, and they are sore today. Medieval dance isn’t exactly a workout, but I could really feel the soreness last night! Oh, and I walked to Tosci’s and back to my car, so that was my “cardio” yesterday, lol.

I want my stupid fat stomach to get less fat. Maybe if I keep it up for the next week and a half I’ll get down to like, 142 and another inch will come off my jelly belly, lol. One week to Anime Boston! At least my costume will fit. I decided I’ll wear my cheapo bustier instead of the strapless bra, I think, though I’ll need to try it again now that I’m back down 4 pounds haha. I did the fit-adjustment with the zipper insertion to the dress while wearing a normal bra not the strapless, so it’s tight over the strapless which is pretty thick. Also, I don’t like how it sits on me, and digs a bit. The bustier isn’t all that much more confortable, though it helped when I pulled out the “boning” under the cups. It dug SO BAD into my fat and hurt. I thought it was plastic, considering how flexible it was, but when I pulled it out I was shocked to discover that it was, in fact, STEEL BONING, just, extremely thin and flimsy. Like, i could tie it in a knot if it were long enough. Pics later, haha. It’s way more comfortable now, and I think I will just have to suffer some of the discomfort. It’s only uncomfortable because the fashion industry assumes, for some reason, that a 36D bust has a 29 inch waist, or something. And last time I chicked, 32 inches and 29 inches were SO not the same.

Oh,, here are the most recent pics! I look so, er, WIDE in the front view, lol. The back looks so cool, with the train. It’s held on by two buttons, which makes it easy to remove if I don’t want to drag it around anymore. And it’s not attached to the dress. The zipper would have made things difficult. I guess if I had wanted the train attached I would have needed to do a side zipper, but then the lacing wouldn’t have worked. . . eh. it looks REALLY COOL from behind, doesn’t it?!?!???

From Chii 2010 costume progress
From Chii 2010 costume progress

Stupid Allergy

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WAHHH I MISSED BODYCOMBAT!

But I guess diagnosing and medicating the spreading cashew allergic rash was more important

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