Life Changing Journey

is that I was using the foot pod wrong.
I was running today keep checking on my speed and it was showing 0.00 mi/hr quite often…and I was RUNNING pretty good. So I changed the form of how I was running…I started “flipping” my foot every time I lifted my foot and yup. It started picking up way better… Too bad I didn’t realize it until after like 18 minutes into the run.
So 18 minutes of crappy reading and 12 minutes of better reading brought me to 1 mi/hr. haha… I got a feeling I will do waaay better tomorrow because it will be better reading for the whole 30 minutes. And I sweat way more than I ususally do. I think I really was a lazy runner before.
I then did one of the Taebo T3 which was about 20 minutes. So 50 minute workout today.
I didn’t even get to start working out till after 3, thanks to my LOVELY DD. She usually goes to sleep around 1ish… even falls asleep on the way home from the DD. Today? No, she wouldn’t have it that way! Didn’t fall asleep till after 3 and that was after she put up some big fights. Man…

Oh..side note.. I HATE DST. Lack of 1 hour sleep. So tired after work on the way home.

I got another goal of this year: pay off all the debts except the credit card by the end of the year. I actually used my lovely Quicken and will be done with one in May, another in October…and then will be done with the credit card debt by the end of January! Yay! By then, hopefully I will be in a new house, with only mortgage and utility bills to pay. BEAUTIFUL!

I just realized that it’s been over a year since I started…as I started on March 7 last year.
And I’ve been stuck at 170’s since like August. Yeah, I haven’t really paid THAT much attention since about September/October except here and there…and the lowest I hit was in December at 173 with some high high protein/low carb diet but gained 5.8 lb back in 23 days once i stopped doing that..so that one doesn’t count. So the lowest weight I’ve been was 174 in September.
I know I haven’t really paid that much attention till January…but that’s still quite depressing..to realize that I’ve lost only about 30 lbs in a year. And even after I started paying attention and got back on the wagon in January, it’s just not going anywhere.

I’m sooo gonna do this. I’m gonna be at my goal weight by this Christmas at the latest! That’s about 45 lbs in 9 months..Very feasible…except the fact that my body seems to telling me otherwise..like my body is destined to be in the 170’s..

I’m still at the same weight. I actually am little higher than what I was when I took the last pics.
I got my watch..so I will see how many miles I’m really running. Yes, I am running at least 30 minutes but I don’t know if I’m really burning enough. So we will see tomorrow..(well, I should say later today since it’s after midnight…)

I’m frustrated. Yes, I am. It’s like my body is built to stay at this weight.
I don’t even know what I should do. Yes. I should keep it up and I am going to. I mean, if the weight doesn’t go down, I at least know I’m doing stuff to get myself healthy. But for the weight to start coming down again, do I need to increase my calorie like many people do? Is my body in starvation mode? I doubt it… since I’m not really taking low cal stuff. Am I eating too many calories? Need to start really watching what I eat…and maintain my intake at 5 meals a day and let’s see what happens.

I think I started eating when I’m bored again… although it’s not bad food. I need to cut this off and start eating better than now. Again.

Gotta remember the 4 golden rule, too. Eat what you want when you are HUNGRY, and eat consciously and stop when satisfied. Sounds so simple. Why is food so yummy and so hard to control mind when it comes to food?

I wonder if I should try Smart Balance TV dinners for like 2 weeks to make sure my calories are down and then see if the weight moves… If that’s the case, then we know why my weight haven’t been going anywhere… Or SlimFast?

Well… I did do 30 or 35 minutes of run today. I’m going home after work and do the Taebo T3 since I didn’t get to do it, even if that means going to sleep at 6. I don’t want to procrastinate when it comes to workout…

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When I went home after work, I didn’t get to do T3. Too tired. I hit the bed and was a goner!

However, I used my watch today. Oh it was so sweet. so nice. I learned how SLOW I was running. Maybe that’s why the exercise hasn’t been doing that much for me. I mean, I ran 30 minutes and that was only 0.5 mile! Believe that! Maybe the think is off a lot. But it doesn’t matter. I’m gonna try to do 2 miles in 30 minutes and see how that works for my weight.

I then did T3. Sweat like a dog. I then did Abs of Steel from Exercise On Demand. Nice nice…
Total 70 minutes. It was nice.

Ohhh one more plus today. I saw 176 today! I’m glad that it’s moving down. Hopefully it will keep going down…

Going out to eat Thai tonight with one of the moms at the daycare.

So I’m trying to work out… did 20 minutes of Skinny Bitches or whatever. Not my fav. At all. I have to agree with Leighish. Better than nothing but eh… yeah. Won’t be doing that again.

I’m gonna go do Taebo Transformation. I’ve done it once before. Pretty good.

Then I’m gonna do the workout Nicki posted. Will see how my ab feels afterwards.

So I weighed this morning to see… I’m pretty much at the same weight as Monday. Why! And I measured myself to see if I have lost any inches since beginning of Feb and nope. What in the world is going on… Maybe I will stop eating altogether. Crap. Grr

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Water intake is going well so far.

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I did the ones Nicki posted and yup. nice ab pain the next day.
I did the Transformation. Nice sweat. Gotta love the sweat!

So it seems like I have a routine now in my brain…when I’m driving home from work.
I got music turned on, and once I’m in the highway or so, I lit a cig. (Yes.. I smoke… I’m planning on quitting… SOON hopefully.. Especially with the tax going on next month!)
When I’m done with cig, I start thinking about my weight..over and over and over…
I’ve been stuck at the 170’s for so long.
I don’t feel like giving up. I just feel like.. this is where I’m supposed to be.
When I was pregnant, I went down to 165 but that was because I couldn’t eat…then when I had my DD, I was 175. 175 is still less than what I weighed before pregnancy. I hit 203, down to 176..Then I went up the roof to 208 when I was satisfied in a relationship.
This is first time I ever really worked out. I hated PE class when I was in school.
I think I used like one week of gym when I had 2 year membership for Bally’s. You get the picture.
Now I run every day. I do Taebo or some other workout dvd everyday. The minimum is 5 days a week. Great. Yes. I feel my bicep even when I’m not flexing my arms. Woohoo! (can you hear sarcasm in my voice?)
So what’s going on with my size? What’s going on with my weight?
Started at 178 in January of this year again. I’m only at 177 now. Well, I was on Monday. With the weight going up and down, I wasted 2 moonth!
Now the problem is… yes I am frustrated but it’s not getting me mad anymore.
Maybe that’s a good thing… not having all or nothing mind…
But I also feel like… well, more worried that I am thinking if it happens, it happens. If it doesn’t, oh well it doesn’t. I am just gonna work out..eat healthy… That’s what seems to be on the back of my mind.
Eating healthy and working out is great and all but what happened to that urgency I used to have? That “I NEED THIS!” feeling.
I have goal. I have motivation. California in August/September. Family visit in July.
So why am I like Blahhhh…

I gotta go pee… finishing my bottle to get the 64 oz in..and fill it up once more to make it 96 so I can finish it on the way home..

Maybe i will weigh myself tomorrow morning…hopefully that moved down little bit. If it went up… I may really break that darn stupid scale!

1. Toe touch (lyin on back with arms and legs outstretched, lift legs and arms together and touch, go back down without touching the floor)

2. Flutter kick (lift feet off ground and kick up and down without touching the floor….keep your hands under your butt for support)

3. Scissor kick (lift feet off ground and kick side to side, crossing without touching the floor….keep your hands under your butt for support)

4. Modified bridge (bridge pose in yoga for 30 sec, then same pose but lift one leg for 30 sec, then lift the other leg for 30 sec)

5. 90 degree lift (lay on your back and lift legs up 90 degrees and back down without touching the floor….keep hands under legs for support)

6. Sitting leg lifts (sitting up and leaning back against your hands lift each leg up and down without touching the floor)

7. Sitting double leg lifts (same as above but lift both legs….VERY HARD!!!!)

8. Single bent knee lifts (lying on the floor lift legs off floor, one by one bring knees into your chest and back out….keep hands under butt for support)

9. Double bent knee lifts (same as above but do both legs together….keep hands under butt for support)

I was just looking at my “weight stat” on the side bar and realized it’s been over 8 months since the last time I met my goal of 190 and I still haven’t reached my next goal, 170!
4 more months and it will be a year since I reached that first goal. And I’m having difficulty…
I am not sure if it really hit me that hard..because when weekend comes, I still eat out with my daughter and my bf. I try to eat healthier and whole food, ordering salad, trying to eat less or stop when full…but I know I can have better and cleaner eating habit. I have been working out at least 5 days a week if not all 7. With at least 40 minutes. And lots of cardio. But since I jumped back on the wagon back in January, I’ve been going up and down non-stop and it’s bugging me.
I lost average of 7 lbs/month when I was losing last year. If I can pull it off again, by June 23, 2009, I should be able to reach two goals. 170 and 153…since it’s almost 4 months. I will be actually just below 150.
I need to do this. I can do this. I can be cleaner.
Maybe it’s time for me to look at the detoxing phase of FSD. The last time I tried it, I was already eating very healthy that it didn’t do much for me. But this time, I wonder if it will do anything. But I just do NOT like the idea of limiting certain items because that will just make me want to eat more of those I can’t have…
I need to listen to Paul’s CD again.
I need to.. I need to.. I need to.. So many “I need to”s… Sigh…

I WILL REACH MY GOALS BY JUNE 23!!!

I know I can make it this year because…

1. I now actually like the feeling of sweat and don’t feel right and am not satisfied if I don’t work out.
2. I learned not to give up even if I have little set back because it’s not all or nothing anymore.
3. I learned that this is life style change, not just a “quick fix” to lose weight.
4. I know how to eat healthier and am a better cook
5. I am setting small and big goals, and number of different things to motivate me.
6. I like feeling my bicep muscle I gained since I’ve started working out. lol