I am having a bad day. A really really bad day.
I am miserable. This day is soon to get even worse.
Why won’t the bad things just go away?????
Why can’t things just be good????????
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I’m back. It’s been a few hours. My world is being ripped out from under me. My life is getting turned upside-down. I [...]

                          I want to be pregnant more than anything!
I can’t say that we are actively trying to get pregnant. Not on a regular basis at least. But I have been telling Jay that I am ready for a while now. He wants a child with me, but is a little less sure about this being [...]

This is not me today. This is me 5 1/2 months ago ….. about 15 lbs ago.
This is one of my favorite pictures of myself …. and you guys are the only ones who have ever seen it.
I mean, seriously, who takes a picture of themselves in new clothes when they are feeling thin for [...]

OK … it’s only 7:15pm, but I think I’m done eating for the day. Probably. We have nothing at all to snack on in the house, healthy or not.
Not sure about the times I ate, but does it really matter …..

oatmeal
dry Crispex cereal … a lot of it!
entire box of broccoli in cheese sauce
coffee

My cabinets [...]

1:00pm - large iced coffee with skim milk and splenda
7:00pm - large bowl Crispix with skim milk
                 packet of apple cinnamon oatmeal
12:30am - bowl of spaghetti with red sauce

Ok …. so it was a weird day for food yesterday. Weird work hours. No food in the house. Not enough food. Not the right foods. But [...]

I have no food in the house. No money to buy any. This should be easy to lose weight, right??? I can’t get fat is there is nothing left in the fridge.
But I also can’t afford healthy food right now. I’d kill for a yogurt and an apple right now.
My boyfriend had knee surgery so [...]

At least I kept track of what I ate today … in my head … even if it wasn’t good ….

5:30 am - large iced coffee, skim milk and splenda
9:00 am - 2 slices bacon
                2 pancakes with syrup
2:00 pm - large can minestrone soup
9:30 pm - big bowl spaghetti with red sauce                                                                                                         glass [...]

I show up on this blog every few weeks, and I NEVER follow through. Still the same weight. 131 lbs this morning. Still eating bad stuff. Going to the gym …. once or twice a month! Pathetic.
But summer will be here before I know it. And I want to get down to last summer’s weight. [...]