I’m up to 17 1/2 hours of cleaning/organizing this month. Last night, I tackled out linen/medicine/everything else closet. I had no idea how much crap was in there. Today, I kept busy cleaning a little bit of everything. Junk drawers, polishing wood, etc. I can’t believe how much stuff I have thrown out. It feels good!!!

I’ve eaten great so far.

• Apple
• large iced coffee with skim milk and splenda
• Healthy Choice Sweet and Sour Chicken meal
• turkey sandwich on white roll

I plan on having a snack right now. Maybe a sugar-free fudgsicle.

Then, I am going to start to get ready for a night out. It will involve drinking alcohol. There go my calories for the day! I don’t care. I’ve been looking forward to tonight. But I do feel a tiny bit guilty. I was talking to Jay on the phone, and I originally told him that I was going to share a bottle of wine at my friend Christine’s house tonight. Today, I admitted to him that Christine and I are actually going out with some guys. Friends. Nothing sketchy. But it is a guy that I used to hang out with before I met Jay, and that I haven’t seen much since then. We both know this guy has always had a crush on me, so I guess I feel like it’s a little wrong of me to go out with him without Jay. But I have no interest in him in that way. I know Jay knows that, but I could tell he was kind of hurt when I told him. He told me to have fun, and he acted ok about it, but I know that it made him sad. I wish he could come too. I miss him so much.

Oh yeah … I went to visit my cousin’s new baby yesterday. So cute. It really gets my biological clock ticking … actually, it’s been ticking pretty loud for a while now. I’m just not in the right place in my life for that right now. Soon maybe. But not yet. I guess I will have to borrow my cousin’s baby!