I’ve been very good this week. I’ve stayed right around 1100 calories. Not too much. Not to little. No exercise, but I’ve been working a lot. Here’s today’s food:

Thursday, August 21st

5:30am - FiberOne Bar

              large coffee with skim milk and one splenda

10:00am - nonfat yogurt with fresh blueberries and 1/4 cup FiberOne cereal mixed in

1:00pm - Lean Cuisine Three Cheese Rigatoni Bowl

             Sugar-Free pudding cup

7:00pm - apple

9:00pm - sliced turkey breast on whole wheat roll with fat free mayo

about 5 minutes from now - Slim-a-Bear 100 calorie ice cream sandwich

Total calories: 1075

So, food is good. Weight is good. Work is keeping me busy. But I am miserable. I really am. I miss my boyfriend soooo much. I probably won’t have him home until the end of October. That’s a long time to be away from the person that you love.

When I am busy at work, I am okay, except for the occasional random moments that he pops into my head. But coming home to an empty house. To a cat that can’t talk back to me, to a computer that sometimes makes me feel more lonely than ever, and to a TV that I have no interest in watching. It’s hard. It’s lonely.

But it’s going to be okay. I really am an independent person. I like my alone time … just not so much of it. Not when it means that I am missing out on together time with the man I love.

Urggghhh!!! I gotta go do something else. I can’t think about this right now. I deserve my 100 calorie dessert now … already added it into my calories. Maybe I’ll have my treat, read a few blogs, and then get in bed with my book. Gotta get up at 5 again for work. Another night alone in bed. Oh well.