I’ve gone running FOUR days in a row now!!! 2 miles each time, in 22-24 minutes. It’s not getting any easier yet, but I keep doing it! Proud of myself for that

I went bikini shopping today. It was very depressing. Just when I was starting to be okay with the number on the scale, I put on a bathing suit and stood in front of the mirror, and saw that I still have a mushy, flabby body. It doesn’t matter what the number on the scale says, I still have an icky body. Not tight at all. I don’t think losing 10 more pounds would make a difference. My skin will never be tight. I ruined my body when I was overweight. I stretched it, and it will never be a thin person’s body. Maybe I will look good in clothes, and maybe I can feel good naked in front of my boyfriend, but I will never feel like a thin person in a bikini no matter what the number says. So depressing.

I guess I just have to keep at it and get to the best me I can be. Not giving up yet. Just a little bummed out. Dressing rooms and bathing suits are EVIL!!!