WHAT? WHY? HOW???????

I DO NOT understand!!!!!!!!!!!!

It’s sooooooooooo unfair.

I gained 2 pounds this week. Eating an average of 1600 calories a day, I gained TWO POUNDS!!!!

And I do not sit on my ass all day … I am a fairly active person, and at work, I am on my feet for 12-13 hours straight! 

No … it is not that time of the month.

No … I do not feel bloated.

I just feel VERY disappointed.

This week I had 5 good days, 1 so-so day, and 1 bad day. That shouldn’t add up to TWO POUNDS!!!

Why am I even bothering? I pass on so many yummy foods that people are eating around me, and I gain weight. Who gains weight on 1600 calories??? And I usually round up my calories …. it’s probably much closer to 1400/day. Even Daily Plate says I can eat 1900 a day to maintain my weight. Ummmm ….. wrong!!!!

I am not fat. And I understand that it’s harder to lose weight when you have less to lose. I was 130 last week, and I was 132 this morning. I feel like I have to always explain myself because people here give me a hard time cuz I’m not technically overweight. If you looked at me, you would see that I would be a lot healthier around 120-125. Not anorexic as people on here have accused me of, but healthier. I’m mean, look at my picture …. do I really look even close to anorexic?? No one in the real world (meaning anyone I know in person) would ever consider calling me anything close to anorexic. I actually kind of the plump friend.

That being said, I am very disappointed with my weight gain because I really have been working hard, and I have used a good amount of willpower. You wouldn’t believe how much more I ate before this “diet”. It’s not the end of the world. But no matter what size you are, if you work hard towards a goal, it’s very diappointing to not only not make the goal, but to go in the opposite direction.

I will not let this be the end of my weightloss / get healthy adventure. I will officially put it behind me now and concentrate on another week. I could say I want to lose the 2 pounds I gained, plus the 2 I planned on losing, but I will be realistic …. my goal for next Monday is to go back down to the 130 lbs I weighed a week ago.

I am going to eat what I want to be happy, but use portion control. Tonight, I am even making cheese filled meatballs with spaghetti. I won’t each much, but if eating almost all healthy doesn’t do anything for me, I am going to at least eat happy!!!

OK … I’ll check in later with food tracking if I have time tonight. Have a good day everyone!!