Archive for July, 2007

Food Journal, Friday 7/27/07

Kashi Heart 2 Heart cereal w/ soy milk (1 bowl for breakfast, 1 bowl for a late dinner)
Soy Latte (2)
Cherries
Blueberries
Tuna Salad Sandwich
Apple
2 steamed artichokes with salad dressing

Food Journal, Thursday 7/26/07

Large bowl of Kashi Heart to Heart cereal** with soy milk
Soy latte
a couple of large handfuls of blueberries
leftover morrocan chicken with rice & apricot glaze
2 peices of string cheese
nonfat latte
more leftover morrocan chicken with rice & apricot glaze
bowl of cherries

**Stay away from this cereal.  It is healthy and so delicious that it is nearly impossible to have just one serving.

Food journal today and yesterday

Halfway to Friday, and then its a week off for vacation!!   I forgot to post my food for yesterday so I’m doing doubles today. 

Today

soy latte
oatmeal
nonfat latte
salad with tuna, cottage cheese, mixed vegetables and italian dressing
apple
handful of blueberries
Chicken with rice and apricot glaze

Yesterday

Oatmeal
Soy Latte
Nonfat Latte
Apple
2 peices of lowfat string cheese
strawberries
egg salad sandwich
Trader Joe’s vegetarian chili with brown rice, mozarella cheese and a peice of pita bread
Whole Wheat tortilla

Sweet cravings today were tough to overcome (pms!).  But the blueberries were on super sale, so that worked out perfect!!

Food Journal 7/23/07

Whew!  What a day.  After reading nonstop for the last 3 days (except, of course, while at work today), I just finished Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows.  Don’t worry, I won’t give anything away.  J.K. Rowling is such an amazing and beautiful writer.  What a great story!! 

Moving on.  Here is what I ate today. 

  • 1 soy latte
  • 1 packet trader joe’s plain oatmeal with water
  • 1 nonfat iced latte
  • strawberries
  • Green salad with cottage cheese and topped with tuna salad and italian dressing
  • 2 peices of string cheese
  • 1 peice of pita bread
  • 3 homemade lowfat enchiladas

This might sound preachy, but I just had to add this extra comment.  I just perused some of the other 3fc blogs, and I have to say that on one hand, I relate very much to many of the other bloggers.  On the other hand, I see things that make me a little bit sad.  There are people in this community literally starving themselves to lose weight.  I don’t really know what to say other than, in addition to achieving their goals, I hope everyone here finds peace with food. 

Cheers!

~suzeeeq

212/198/tbd

Food Diary 7/22/07

Real exciting reading here…

  • 2 soy lattes
  • leftover chicken sukiyaki & brown rice
  • apple
  • bowl of rice with margarine
  • 2 peices of whole wheat pita bread
  • vegetarian sausage link
  • 1 bowl of frozen blueberries, defrosted with about 1/2 cup of nf plain yogurt

Me: A History, Part I

Weight gain and diet success (a bit of history about me):

Throughout my childhood, I had an unending appetite for food. After school I binged on cereal and pop tarts. I snuck cookies in the middle of the night. I spent most of my allowance on candy and junkfood. I regularly ate Little Caesar’s Crazy Bread for lunch (so yummy!). In spite of myself, somehow I managed to stay at a moderately normal / healthy weight throughout my teens.

It didn’t last once I reached adulthood. After high school, I started gaining weight. I got a desk job and started eating takeout. I was earning a salary for the first time in my life and I loved spending on gourmet food! I also took college classes at night, and that led to frequent trips to the vending machine and many late night studying binges.

The stress of adult responsibility eventually led to additional and sudden weight gain. I got into debt. Balancing a full time job with school became too much pressure. My childhood friends were all moving in different directions for the first time in our lives, and I found myself lonely much of the time. And as if it wasn’t enough to have a sedentary dead-end desk job, I had a manipulative, sexually harrassing, verbally abusive boss. And the straw that broke the camel’s back - I suffered my first broken heart at the hand of my high school sweetheart, who cheated on me while away at college.

It was like a switch flipped. I started eating. I knew it was emotional eating, but I didn’t care. When I wasn’t eating a super burrito from my favorite taqueria, pasta was my drug of choice. It did not matter if it was served with alfredo, marinara, butter, oil, cheese, vegetables, or plain. So much was out of control, but mashed potatoes, with a Dr. Pepper chaser, could always be counted on to numb my pain. I knew the day would come when I would have to learn how to eat right but I had too much going on to think about that.

I now weighed 156 pounds - up from 115. After hearing a recommendation from a friend, I joined a weight loss clinic. To my suprise, it worked! Every week I lost 2 pounds, just like the advertisement said I would. It was practically effortless. The packaged food was edible, and there was good variety. I started exercising regularly. I sang Gloria Gaynor songs (favorite: “I will survive!”) while I aerobicized Jane Fonda style. I had lost most of the weight within 5 months. I felt great.

I actually felt myself changing. I got some experience with portion control, calorie counting, moderation, and balance. I planned ahead and learned how to order “low-cal” at restaurants. Although this approach brought me great weight loss success, deep down I knew that I would not be able to get away with eating sodium-filled, mystery-ingredient, prepackaged frozen foods forever.

I maintained that weight loss for 5 years. Although it is certainly admirable, its not the end of the story. I credit my weight loss and maintenance success in part to luck (I was young), metabolism (I exercised like crazy), Lean Cuisine, and a nasty smoking habit (I trained myself to smoke any time I got hungry). My compulsion to emotionally eat eventually returned from dormancy (with a vengeance) because I never fully addressed it. But I won’t make that same mistake again. The one thing that I gained from that “dieting” experience is that I know I can do whatever I set my mind to. Sometimes there are days when the scale is moving in the wrong direction and I feel like change is nearly impossible; and then I must remind myself of how far I’ve come. I haven’t lost a lot of weight, but I have changed many eating behaviors that will help me in the long run. And I’m learning a little bit every day about how to cook and what to eat, and that is something that will serve me for the rest of my life.

Before I made my 2007 new year’s resolution to change my life and habits, I was eating ice cream every night. My favorite was Starbucks brand Mud Pie ice cream (at $6 per quart and 240 calories per half-cup serving!). Had you asked me a year ago to give it up I would have had an anxiety attack. It was like any other drug or toxic relationship - even though it was bad for me, I was completely addicted to the pain. Now, I just take it one day at a time and ice cream is no more difficult for me to stay away from than a pack of Camel Lights or my cheating ex-boyfriend.

  • Starting weight on January 1, 2007: 212.0

  • Current weight today (July 22, 2007): 198.2

  • Goal weight: to be determined

Embracing the behaviors that will lead to a healthy, sustainable weight

~sq

Food Journal 7/21/07

In no particular order:

  • 4 soy lattes
  • shredded wheat cereal w/ soymilk
  • 2 bowls vegetarian chili with brown rice, mozarella cheese, and nonfat plain yogurt
  • half cup blueberries
  •  2 peices of whole wheat toast with lowfat margarine

Food Journal for 7/20/07

Its midnight and I’m exhausted.  Just when I decided to put the computer away and go to bed I remembered that I made a committment yesterday to start posting my daily foodtake on my blog.  Boy oh boy this accountability thing is going to be tougher than I thought. 

 Breakfast:

  • 1 soy latte (hot)
  • Shredded Wheat cereal with soymilk

Mid-morning snack

  • iced soy latte (yes, another one)

Lunch

  • Indian food:  rice, vegetables and chicken with whole wheat Naan (yum!) and easy on the various sauces on the side
  • Unsweetened chai iced tea

Afternoon snack(s)

  • 4 peices of lowfat string cheese
  • another iced nonfat latte
  • handful of blueberries

Dinner

  • Chicken sukiyaki and brown rice (very healthy and delicious)
  • 4th and last nonfat latte of the day

Dessert

  • 2 bowls of cherries. 

 OK, ok, so I need to cool it on the coffee.  Give me a break just this once.  Coffee and cherries and lowfat string cheese are my only remaining vices. 

A little about me

Time for introductions.  I’m SuzeeeQ.  I am a 33 year old female.  I live in northern california with my husband and 2 cats.  I love reading and knitting, and I love to exercise.  Most of the time I just take long walks, but lately I’ve been trying to challenge myself with Pilates. I’m also trying to learn to play golf. 

 I am looking forward to my first blogging experience with 3fatchicks.  The community seems really supportive and I see this as a great weight loss tool.  For one, I’ve been trying to find a way to start a food journal that I actually stick to.  I think that if nothing else, I would ask that my friends in this community help hold me accountable to post my daily food consumption.  Secondly, I hope that diet-blogging will be a good outlet for me as an alternative to emotional eating.  I tend to eat compulsively so I am really making a solid effort to try out some healthier ways to emote.  :)

January 1, 2007 I started out at 212 pounds.  I made a New Year’s resolution  to eliminate sugar and white flour from my diet completely, no matter what weight I did or did not lose as a result of that behavior.  I am happy to report over 6 months later that I have successfully achieved that goal.  Plus, as an added bonus, I lost 10 pounds!! 

I don’t even miss sugar and flour most of the time.  I allow myself up to 5 grams of sugar in breakfast cereals and bread (100% whole wheat only), and I don’t get crazy about counting sugar grams in sauces or salad dressings.  I just make my best effort to avoid it.  Thats not to say that I don’t occaisionally allow myself a small indulgence.  A few months ago I had a flatbread sandwich from one of my favorite restaurants that was made with white flour.  Another time a few weeks ago I had a rice krispy treat.  When I use words like “never again” I get a little anxious; instead I go for words like “lifestyle” and “healthy habits”, and that sits much better with me. 

 When my weight loss stalled over the last few months, I decided to take my healthy habits and lifestyle to the next level.  Now I would practice portion control, avoid eating as much at night, and start a food diary.  I’m currently at 199 pounds, and unfortunately weight loss has all but stopped.  However, once again, I’m trying to redirect my attention and energy on my lifestyle and developing healthy, sustainable habits.  However difficult, I will measure my success on how successfully I embrace certain behaviors, and trust that the weight loss will follow. 

 Cheers!

~sq