Is this time different?

In maintenance since June 1, 2012

 

One month of maintenance

It’s been an eventful month. I lost two pounds –four, but I regained two–, kept eating between 1200 and 1300 cals, trained according to the C25K three times a week, did not binge, had my clothes altered. So far so good.
But I also discovered I still need to learn lots of things –I listed some in my previous post–, and especially I have to grow spiritually. I am still jealous of my co-workers and sometimes too proud, and though I try to tame that jealousy/pride combination I get really pissed when they give me orders (WTF?) or when they get credit and I don’t. There is somebody in particular who drives me mad, because she bosses me around –though she is not my superior– and because she works so hard –probably 16 hours a day, and not from home as I do– that no matter what I do it is never as good as what she does. I don’t want to spend my life working, but I am good at what I do and don’t make mistakes… So the other day I did not agree with her and she stormed out of the office, and then came back to continue our meeting. When the meeting was over, she said that she did not want to work with me any longer if I kept contradicting her… Really stressful. Fortunately other people have the same problem with her, which makes me think that I am not that wrong, but I still think I should not make her mad. What makes her mad is seeing that I think on my own and do things she is not doing –she is jealous too!–, and reacts aggressively. I am jealous, but just breed it within and don’t attack people! Well, it is not easy to work together, but I have to learn how to work with her and with other people without getting anxious or angry.
Luckily, the anxiety and the anger are not making me eat.

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By susana
On June 30, 2012
At 4:15 pm
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