I want..

Dear Amy,

Karma.. it has a way of getting you back doesn’t it?  I remember when you were, ohhh 12 years old and an overweight girl was running down the street in front of your house.  Your *best friend*, because we all have those when we are 12, began singing the classic Carole King tune “I feel the earth, move under my feet..” you know the rest,  and laughing at this poor girl.  Did you laugh with her?  Sure!  You were young, dumb and NEVER going to be a big girl, so why not?  Right?  Damnit Amy, you were raised better than that.. and now.. look at you.. 192.4 lbs, 3 kids and lots of take out food later… UGH!  To say I’m disappointed with you is an understatement. 

You are a very beautiful, intelligent, caring and AMAZING woman.. how could you let yourself get to this point?  What happened?  Are you going to blame it on stress, birth control pills, having babies, money.. what?   Who’s fault is it this time? 

The truth is, it’s no one but yourself.  You have wallowed in self pity for so long, it’s time to take a stand and break through the brick walls of guilt and shame that have been holding you back.  You are the only person in control of your future and if you don’t change something now, it may get to a point where it’s too late, and then what will you tell your children, that it’s THEIR FAULT?  Pfft.  Please, get a grip on yourself and your life. 

1st. assignment… write down a list of what YOU WANT.. 29 things, anything.. don’t question me just do it.  2nd.  turn off your computer and get moving.. whether it’s housework, playing with the kids, going for a walk, or putting in an excersise dvd.  Do those two things and let’s see how you feel, then we’ll talk about how to achieve your goals.

Good Luck!  I’ll support you 100% of the way, and I will not let you down again.

Love,

Yourself.

Posted on October 7th, 2009 by supermom78
Filed under: Letter to myself