Weight Loss Journey

Hi My painful mouth seems to be the result of a canker sore. Or at least that’s what we’re speculating at the moment. Either way, it’s messing up my eating. I eat too little all day because of the pain and then I get worried about my metabolism and overeat in the evening. lol. Plus, on top of it, my family keeps telling me this or that to eat to help. Like they told me to eat SALT AND VINEGAR CHIPS. haha. And my stupid self LISTENED. Something about the salt drying it up. If better be better tomorrow. I don’t wanna be eating those things in vain. LOL. Oh well. It’s a one day slip. I have an appointment with my therapist tomorrow morning. I haven’t seen her since summer. I am about 10 pounds heavier than I was then AND my hair is way shorter AND it’s dark brown. I went from tan, long haired blonde to pale, short-haired brunette! haha. She is gonna be confused. But ya, then I have some photo business to take of. And then I am hitting the gym for a good workout!

I watched the Biggest Loser tonight. I wish they would stop getting bigger and bigger people. It makes the contestants so removed from people like me. I know I would never qualify for BL because I am not heavy enough, but when they get 500 pound people? C’mon. I want to see 300 pounds AT MOST up there working out. Ya know? It feels closer to who i am and where I am at, even though I am at 180. But props to the over 500 pound man. I hope he goes far. He needs it.

Anyway, let’s pray for a better day tomorrow and a good trip to the gym!! Here I will leave with some cute dresses and clothes I looooove

Hello! I am so worried. My cheek has really been hurting due to my wisdom tooth growing in. It usually isn’t an issue, but lately it has REALLY been chewing and rubbing my cheek RAW. My cheek will actually sting in severe pain when I breathe in. I am just trying not to do anything to move my teeth that much, but that also means I have to limit my eating, and my talking. I don’t want to just NOT eat, cause that’s not healthy and not how I want to slip into being, but I gave my cheek a week to heal and it’s only gotten worse What to do, what to do.

Biggest Loser challenge is going well. I won’t post a weigh in until Friday BUT, my team is super awesome and supportive. I feel like if we build a good relationship, then everyone will want to work hard for everyone else on the team. At least that’s how I am. I don’t want to report low numbers and let my team down. Anyway! I might write more later today. For now, though, time to put some make-up on and continue with my day!

I am tired and in a bad mood I don’t feel like going into detail except that I ate and exercised some today. My wisdom tooth is growing in and it’s causing a massive tear in my cheek cause it keeps gnawing away at the skin. It hurts to eat. It hurts to talk. It hurts just plain and simple. UGH. My mom did buy me frozen raspberries which I LOVED and managed to choke down despite the awful stinging pain they caused to my raw skin. haha. I wish I could just wire my mouth shut for a day so it had time to heal. Maybe thats what I will do tomorrow?

Tomorrow is Monday. A new day.Hopefully a less painful one. BUT, I did get my assignment for 20-somethings Biggest Loser challenge and I am on team Pink! I was so excited when I saw that. I love Pink and Pink team is always a winner for the real BL so this should be good. WOOHOO!

Write more tomorrow!

Today was VERY busy, and I struggled with my eating a little bit. Here is how my day went.

Woke up around 9 AM and got ready to take my car in for an estimate. I got rear ended ON MY BIRTHDAY a couple weeks ago and am going through the process of getting it fixed. I came home, ate a bowl of frozen fruit (YUM, can NEVER get enough) and went for a walk and did some light weights. Went to a meeting for the basketball team my dad coaches. I ate a turkey and cheese sandwich, a couple doritos, a cookie, and 4 or 5 little baby chicken nuggets from Chic-fil-a. We then jetted off to go see Avatar in IMAX 3D. Can I just tell you how amazing this movie is? It’s a must see. I would say that the movie may not be worth buying once it’s on DVD just because the plot isn’t anything extraordinary, but the visual is like nothing else. ANYWHO.

I ate popcorn and had water there. THEN on the way home my mom decides she is starving so we stop at a steak place. I am super fussy and in a bad mood, but I decide to eat anyway. I ate so much I ate some bread with butter, a baked potato with sour cream, butter, and cheese and a piece of cheesecake. Oh ya, and sweet tea to drink, too. Once I got home, I got right into my car and went bowling for three hours with my friends. I had one piece of cookie cake there and drank my water. BLAH. Such a fail food wise. But I was so busy, that’s why I am 2 hours later writing this! Let’s hope tomorrow is better!

I know that New Years day is usually the day that everyone decides they are going to lose weight. But I would like this to be real for me. I have let myself get all the way up to 182, when just a year ago I was at 155. I don’t want this for looks anymore. I want this because I want to be healthy and feel good about myself. I would like to eat somewhere between 1,200 and 1,500 calories a day. And work off between 300-800 calories when I work out. I am new at this so my plan will take some adjustment. My plan for tomorrow is an hour long cardio session before I begin my day. Let’s hope I can get myself to the gym!

Height: 5′7.5″

Current Weight: 182 lbs.