Hey Everyone,

So it’s snowing in DC right now, we are suppose to get an inch or something. All i can say is I’m trapped in my house with all this good food. It helps that my fiance is sick with strep, he is eating nothing, and drinking like a camel. So that means I’m not eating to much today, which is a good thing.

Last night i had meatloaf with green peppers baked in the center. It was freaking good. I guess you can cram anything in the center of meat and it will taste good (That’s what she said). On Thursday i hung out with my friend at her place, we ate guacamole and chips mmmmmmh. We went to 711 to grab the chips, and i was surrounded by Cigarettes, beef jerky, muffins, donuts, candy, and cupcakes. It was very hard for me and her to be in there. I really like having a friend who is trying to loose weight as well. I never really had support in my life so having her is amazing.

Well that’s pretty much it for now, oh wait no one more thing. Question when did Pretty Women become a family wholesome movie?  Holy Pickles they are showing it on the family channel, I don’t get it? When did being a hooker become a family thing? I guess I’m already getting stir crazy from the snow, and it hasn’t even gotten to an inch yet.

Well have a great rest of the weekend!

byes

Hey everyone,

Today was a bad day, i went to HR Block to get my taxes done early. I thought i would get my taxes done for free and i wouldn’t have to pay anything. I was wrong i had to pay $200 to get them filed because of a c file from a past job i had. I knew when i started that job it would fuck me over somehow/someday, well today is that day. When working for Home Buddies they don’t take out for taxes so if you are not told that your screwed. So i payed the money for it to be filed, and now i have to live off $150 for two weeks, Yes that’s right 2 weeks. I don’t make anything at my job, so luck is not on my side. I do have to say the women who helped me was amazing, so nice and she tried everything to get me more money on my returns, as well as lowering the prep fee for HRB. So no diss to them at all.

So as soon as i walked out of HR Block i debated using the rest of the money i have to live until my next paycheck, to buy a nice pack of ciggs and a burrito at Chipotle. Lets just say i should have a mariachi band fallowing me for awhile cause i didn’t do either. YAY FOR ME! CHA! CHA! CHA!

Tonight i get to see my friend, so i can be happy about that. I will be having guacamole and chips, so nothing big for dinner. I will make some eggs before i leave to meet her. I do have to get my dance on today, so i can work out my anger through that. Nothing else to say but today was a huge pickle fart of a day so far. I hope all you get a good tax return, and don’t have to pay a arm and a leg like i did.

Byes

Hey everybody,

So today was an interesting day for me, there were up and down moments all day. I believe Will Ferrell Said it best in Anchorman “I’m in a glass case of emotions”

It also was a day i thought i was going to throw one of my Saltines at my co worker. I’ll get into that in a bit, but yes i was snacking on saltines and bananas, and drinking lots of water. So i was a good girl with lunch and breakfast. The person i was suppose to work with today said she was scheduled at her other job the same day, so she had to go to that job and leave me alone the whole day to work the shift myself. GHA! Keep in mind this was her 3rd shift since she started, she’s not doing so good so far. (wha wha wha) Then she said she could come in for a little while but had to leave at 12:45 to get to her other job which started at 1. I was like fin whatever, at least i can go to the bathroom. So she came in and ran her mouth for like 3 hours, she is such a chatty person, at times she sounds like a hen clucking if you tune the words out. She was talking about when she worked at forever 21, and she hated (get ready) She hated when fat people came in and asked for a sizes small when, in her words ” they obviously were not, who were they fooling?” GHAAAA can you believe that? She was going on and on and on about this topic, when i just looked at her and was like “WOW that’s a pretty hurtful statement” I know i should have said more but i just feel bad for her, and i think karma will bite her in the ass. I wanted to smoke a cigg right then and there, like i said before i wanted to throw my saltines at her, especially when she started talking about when she was a model. HOLY PICKLE FARTS SHUT UP!!!

Any who on to better topics, i ate some hummus today, and tonight my fiance and i are having steak and salad. I’m not feeling like a work out today, my head is killing me. Since i have tomorrow off i will do my dancing in the morning, and clean the house. I get a good workout scrubbing the bathtub, i can feel it in my arms.

I also wanted to thank everyone for the supportive comments, i feel so great when i hear back from people. Thanks so much it makes my day. : )

Byes

Hey Everyone,

So this morning i wrote a post about seeing my mom, which went like normal, Horrible!! I did have nice organic lunch today which was a plus. I had something called a Tartine, which is small pieces of bread, with meat and veggies on it. I had the black bean Hummus, with avocado and chipotle dipping sauce. It was a small portion so i felt good after eating it, but still very hungry. Then i got home and popped in Just Dance 2 on my Wii for the first time, i just fell in love with it. My arms and tummy still ache. I think the best work out they have is Jump in de line by Harry Belafonte, and my new favorite Tina Turner’s Proud Marry (big wheels keep on turning) If your looking for a fun time, or a light work out this is a great pick. I will be using it again each day as well as the Zumba Fitness game that i will be getting soon. I feel good that I’m taking action with my weight loss, I was also happy to see that i was not struggling to breath. My lungs are getting stronger from not smoking HAZZAH!!

Well that’s all for now have a great night.

Byes

Hey Everyone,

So today is my day off YAY for that fact, but on one of my days off every week have have to see the wicked witch of the west (aka Mother). I have never been close to this women, not only because i was adopted form Chile, but she and the family did a wonderful job making me the black sheep of the family. This lead to my addictions and acting out. I figured when i had my magic cigg in my hand no one could hurt me, i had a shield on my side. That is not the case anymore, I have seen the wicked witch 3 times now since i stopped smoking, and i can say it’s the hardest test i have ever been put through. After i drop her off i always need to light up and heal myself after the mean things she loves to say to me. So now i use food to comfort me, we only see each other for like 2 hours and go to lunch, so i try and stuff my face to keep from saying “YOUR A WITCH!” I just want to shove a huge Chipotle Burrito into my mouth maybe it will take the pain away. So i think i will go to an organic restaurant today near my house. I’m going to come home after and pop in Just Dance 2 on my Wii, and dance my pain and the food away. I weighed myself today and am higher than my normal weight which is 120. I don;t have much to loose to get back but the way things are going and how i have found food as a new band aid we will see. I also would love to flatten things out a bit, i am Latino so i love my curves so i would never triad in that, but my jiggly parts that can go.

Well wish me luck, maybe if i pour water on her she will go away.

Byes

Hey Everyone,

I’m in my 4th week of not smoking cigarettes, YAY for me! I have been a smoker since i was 14 years old, yes yes I’m shocked myself how young i was, but I’m not going to be to hard on myself right now. I choose to stop because i was not just hurting myself, but the people i care about. I also want to be around to get married to my fiance, and have healthy children, as well as a life without lung cancer. Quitting smoking is the hardest thing i ever had to do, hands down. I do have a very addictive personality so i do latch on to something if it helps me cope with life or issues. I had this problem before, while in college  i was going to AA. I kept with the program and i can happily say i am 10 years sober. YIPPEEE!

I have been struggling with the many side effects while quitting smoking. I’ve had many hot flashes throughout the day, and at night not being able to sleep, and when i do i have the worst nightmares. I also have found myself in foul moods, and angered easily. The worst is i am gaining weight fast, i have been eating more and have caused my Acid Reflux to act up. Like i already couldn’t sleep as is i have to sleep sitting up, or on my left side. I hate sleeping on my left side!

I’ve chosen to do Zumba Fitness to try and dance my way back into shape.  I’m Latino so anything with dance and working out is for me. I will be blogging as much as i can, talking about how the war of not smoking is going, as well as how my weight loss is going. I was lucky i was  introduced to this site by my best friend (who i will call Dragon) since that’s my code name for her HAHA. So here i go, hope i land on my feet.

Byes