slipstream becomings

i need a rest. i have been going full bore for three weeks, and my body told me today in the pool to take tomorrow OFF. i called the workout in about 400 meters early, and still had a 2 hour nap this afternoon. i was not only tired today, but also muscle sore. yesterday was weight day, and i added a new exercise, so it’s probable that i’m really in need of a real break.

so i will rest and honour my body. tomorrow i will probably do a nice long hatha session and just stretch it all out.

i am still quite congested and this cough isn’t going away. if i wake up tomorrow with the same symptoms i am going to have to go to the doctor i think. it’s been an entire week, and i really don’t feel good. 

my weight is down 2 whole lovely inspiring pounds. i am starting to understand how people develop unhealthy relationships with their scales. while i was swimming, i was trying to convince myself i couldn’t possibly take tomorrow off because it was weigh-in day, as if that were some kind of immovable event.

and i’m kind of bummed. i had to move due to unforeseeable circumstances in december last year. i had no choice but to leave a large numbers of plants that i had brought from my house to this new rental situation.  the new tenants at the old house were not friendly about my coming to get them, and i noticed today that they have put in a vegetable garden where a number of my perennials were. i know i have no right to those plants and i know it was kind of silly to even take them from the magnificent gardens i had planted at my old house, but it still makes me very sad to let them go. 

i have lost so very very very much in the last two years. i will find and build it all again, but for today my heart is very sore.