slow.
i am really fat.
sometimes this bothers me. a lot.
i am not as fat as i was a few weeks ago.
sometimes it bothers me to constantly think of myself as fat.
i am moving slowly and persistently towards healthier, leaner, more efficient body.
sometimes the pace of the journey is disheartening.
yoga is a practice,a lifelong one if you’re smart.
sometimes the way my fat gets in the way of my bending and holding and even my breathing compels me to give up.
but then i tell myself that if i give up, it won’t change.
sometimes i think it would be easier not to change.
today is saturday. i am alone, and have plans to attend a party this evening.
sometimes i wish i was a paper doll and could change everything about myself by folding over a few tabs.
i got a haircut and some new clothes and i look much better than i have in a long time.
sometimes i really really do feel a lot better.
small steps.. you are doing great.. what can i tell you.. i feel fat all the time.. i look at myself in the mirror, and i don’t see the 30lbs i lost.. i only see the girl who started this diet.. our brains have to catch up with our bodies.
haircuts and new clothes are awesome, they can give such a boost.. but unless we maintain the effort every day, it goes back to where it was.. my hair has been in a ponytail for 4 days straight now. I finally waxed my eyebrows this morning. its a lot of work to be beautiful.. but it’s exhausting to be miserable too.
Small steps are good! Even the smallest of things can make the biggest change in our lives. Always try to find even the smallest good in a bad day. Sometimes it will be hard, but there will always be something.
Keep up the good work!