I messed up! Back on it again today

March 16th, 2011 by still

Things were going well on the diet front lately, then yesterday happened.  I had a stress binge of massive proportions.  I’m dealing with a lot right now (thyroid cancer, upcoming radiation, having to be away from my son for two weeks while the radiation leaves my body, etc) but still.  Doesn’t excuse it.

So I’m here today to recommit to the beach body I promised myself I’d have by Disney.  I have until November and another 25 pounds to lose, and I WILL do this.

So I’m setting some goals/incentives:

When I hit 175, I’m buying myself a heart monitor watch

When I hit 170, some new workout clothes or an ipod armband

When I hit 165, I’m buying myself a swimsuit from Victoria’s Secret

After that, I have no idea.

Back on plan, people!!!

Into week 2

February 25th, 2011 by still

So the scale said 181 today.  I was so happy.  I might of done one of those ridiculous football end zone dances in my bathroom, but hey- nobody saw me, so it didn’t -really- happen, right?  🙂

I’ve learned a few things in the past two weeks.  First of all, measuring is important to me.  I’m not a crazy measurer- now that I’m getting a handle on what 1/2 cup, a cup, etc look like, I’m starting to eyeball some things (especially things that don’t hurt me too badly, like frozen veggies).  But I always measure my cereal, ice cream, and popcorn.  I’m way too likely to go way over on my portion size on those things.

I’m still a sugar-a-holic.  The only way for me to be successful at this is to build in sugar and chocolate into the plan in moderate ways.  For example, I’ll build in a half cup of ice cream, or 2 Hershey’s minis, or something.  I’m very proud as I don’t go nuts on those things any more.  I used to eat 15 of them, or a giant bowl of ice cream.  I’ve learned that less does actually satisfies the craving.

I’ve learned I don’t need 400 calorie super butter microwave popcorn, when plain air popped popcorn will satisfy that same craving.

I’ve learned when its okay to be hungry.  Before I started all this, I ate so much all the time that I was never actually hungry.  But I’m not a “starver” and I do need to regularly eat so my sugars don’t freak out on me.

And I -love- the gym.  Love it.  I was going to the gym before my change in eating, but now I have so much energy and such a goal that the gym is one of my favorite places to be.

the most important thing is that I’m making small, slow changes and I’m seeing small, slow results.  That is a very good thing.  Now, once they irradiate my thyroid, I really need to expect this all to go to hell for a while- I need to expect to gain weight, be tired, in general be sick for a while.  But the important part is that I’m setting a plan into motion now, that I can stick with later.  A basis for healthy eating and weight loss.

Four days until the thyroid test that sets this all into motion.

Holy crap! Weight loss!

February 18th, 2011 by still

So I stepped on the scale this morning and its true- 182!  It’s been a long time since I saw 182.  Actually, not terribly long…. back in October/November, when my immune system flared up again, I dropped a random 10 pounds before my doctors medicated me.  But this is medicated, healthy, non Grave’s Disease weight loss, and I’m proud of it!

The plan is going well.  I went over yesterday for the first time though.  I was doing really, really well until I met a friend for coffee and dinner.  I went with a skinny mocha but it still put me over 47 calories.  Not terrible, in my estimation.

Also, funny things are happening as my body adjusts to eating this way.  I’ve had two nights of almost a full night’s sleep without medication this week, which is unheard of for me since October.  That is awesome because I hate pills with a passion and my huge goal is to eventually go from 10 pills a day to 3.  I’m also experiencing less pain, which also means less medication.  I love this.

So today is going to be another successful day!  I’m ready for it!  Hope you all have a great day as well!

Day 2- another sucess!

February 15th, 2011 by still

Day two went well.  I even managed to come in under my allotted calories in the end.  Yesterday was both easy and hard- there was candy and chocolate everywhere, but I ended up working an additional 3 hours, which kept me out of my kitchen and away from temptation.

I had another mid-afternoon sugar craving, but on my short lunch break I just hurried home, made myself a cup of tea with Splenda in it, and hoped for the best.

I did have a rice krispie treat and a donut hole in honor of the holiday, and we had pizza for dinner.  Working out still kept me below my calorie count for the day.  but today I don’t have a workout planned, so its going to be a bit tougher holding it together.  Wish me luck!

yay! Day 1- a success!

February 14th, 2011 by still

Rockin!  I made it through day 1!  Cut my cereal in half from 3 cups to 1.5 cups, didn’t eat a whole bag of popcorn, tracked everything I ate and worked out my normal 45 minutes!  By the end of the night I had 140 calories to go and used 120 of them on a victory glass of my favorite wine!

First post! Woot!

February 13th, 2011 by still

Hi.  I’m Nikki.  I’ve got a lot goin on these days.  The Man, the Boy, the Job, the Disease, the Upcoming Treatment…. all this adds up to the Stress.  And what do I turn to when I get stressed?  Sugar.

Yup, I’m one of those.  That, and a snacker.

We’re going to Disney World this November to celebrate the Boy’s fourth birthday, and by then I should be done with the disease and all the treatment.  My goal is to be fabulous by then, and keep working at it even through all my treatments and interventions.  I have Grave’s Disease, an autoimmune disorder that attacks the thyroid and makes me hyperthyroid, and so I’ve been on a weight yoyo for four years now.  Unmedicated flare-ups result in huge weight losses.  Treatment and medication result in huge weight gains.   In 2 weeks they kill my thyroid and make me hypothyroid for the rest of my life.   At least then I’ll be stable.  Currently I’m at 185 lbs, which doesn’t look bad on me but doesn’t fit the lean, strong image I’ve always had of myself.  I’m not used to being fluffy, and I’d rather not be.  So my goal is 155, which is very respectable for me and will make me nice and lean for all the muscle I have.  I’m not a tiny girl, see, and I was never meant to be.  At 140 I’d look anorexic.

So I’m on this path.  I’ve been exercising, cardio and weight training, for about 8 months now in order to mitigate effects of the Graves.  Now I’m ready to handle my diet.  I’ve been slowly decreasing my sugar intake, moving away from white breads/rice/etc, and adding more fruits and veggies.  Now I’m moving up, getting serious, adjusting my portion sizes, and counting calories.

Yesterday was my baseline track day.  i ate normally, but tracked everything I ate.  Let me tell you, it was atrocious.  2800 calories.  It was mainly portion control issues.  Breakfast was 700 calories alone, through cereal, fruit and hot tea.  Yuck!  Apparently eating three cups of cereal when a potion size is 1 cup will do that to ya.  😉  The 400 calorie bag of microwave popcorn didn’t help either.  Yesterday was my day off of working out, so I didn’t even really burn any of it.

So today, I halved my portion of cereal.  1.5 cups.  The rest of the day is a track it before I eat it day, and I’m going to look at portions the entire day.  See where it gets me.

So hi!  I’m here!  I can’t wait to walk this road with all of you!

Caterpillar: Who are YOU?
Alice: This was not an encouraging opening for a conversation. I — I hardly know, sir, just at present — at least I know who I was when I got up this morning, but I think I must have been changed several times since then.

Hello world!

February 13th, 2011 by still

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