http://www.3fatchicks.com/diet-blogs/stephensgirl Because in the end we may lose, but we gain so much more... Fri, 17 Jul 2009 12:31:16 +0000 http://backend.userland.com/rss092 en So here's a gain... I've found my home! And Stephen's too lol... we'll be moving to KY as soon as we're able. I'll go down first to get things ready... That place is fantastic and I have my bestest friend down there. Home is more than a place-- it's the ... http://www.3fatchicks.com/diet-blogs/stephensgirl/2009/07/17/kentucky/ Well.. I went to the family 4th of July party today.... When I first walked in, my father said 'Where's the rest of you?' Then he hugged me and made a point of putting his arms all the way around me-- for the first time! Then I was standing out in the yard ... http://www.3fatchicks.com/diet-blogs/stephensgirl/2009/07/04/reunion/ So... this Independence Day means something to me on a rather personal level... which is probably why I was willing to go celebrate with my family. I realized today how much freer I am than a year ago! A year ago I was completely trapped in fat and it coloured everything ... http://www.3fatchicks.com/diet-blogs/stephensgirl/2009/07/03/freedom/ I'm sitting here tonight just thinking... a year ago I'd be sitting amid tastykake and candy bar wrappers and the ruins of another diet, feeling completely lost. Feeling like a total failure, again. That was such a tiring process. Now? Now... well... I'm listening to slow music and looking forward ... http://www.3fatchicks.com/diet-blogs/stephensgirl/2009/05/31/musings-of-a-tired-woman/ I went to the doctor last week and found ou I have a raging kidney infection... he wanted to put me in the hospital, but after many promises of staying off my feet and that I'd go to the ER if things got worse, he let me go home. He gave ... http://www.3fatchicks.com/diet-blogs/stephensgirl/2009/05/31/antibiotics-suck/ I think I mentioned before that my sister basically stopped speaking to me as soon as I got smaller than she is. Makes it hard when you live in the same house, but there's just nothing I can do about it. Now she's added that she will not eat in ... http://www.3fatchicks.com/diet-blogs/stephensgirl/2009/05/25/sabotage/ So I had my therapy appointment today and got a few things out in the open and feel a bit better. My therapist is very good and I found out from my new surgeon's office that she's the person they send all the people to who have eating disorders. That's ... http://www.3fatchicks.com/diet-blogs/stephensgirl/2009/05/20/talking-things-out/ Today was a terribly bad food day forme... I just finally had to force myself to eat something. I went out to eat last night and ended up sick as a dog! And it lasted all day today... finally I decided that I'd better eat something to see if that ... http://www.3fatchicks.com/diet-blogs/stephensgirl/2009/05/16/bad-food-day/ I am absolutely and completely emotionally exhausted tonight... between hormones and this depression, it's just really something. I picked up and started the Lexapro tonight so we'll see how that works. It would truly help if I had more positive people in my life... at the moment I only have one ... http://www.3fatchicks.com/diet-blogs/stephensgirl/2009/05/12/emotional-exhaustion/ I'm feeling  a little lost today... I'm wondering if the rapid weightloss has my hormones in a tizzy. Or if it's just depression, or both. It doesn't help that my husband is very low right now too.. This 2 years apart has been a bit much... and he's ready to ... http://www.3fatchicks.com/diet-blogs/stephensgirl/2009/05/12/lost/