I am absolutely and completely emotionally exhausted tonight… between hormones and this depression, it’s just really something. I picked up and started the Lexapro tonight so we’ll see how that works.

It would truly help if I had more positive people in my life… at the moment I only have one and I don’t know what I’d do without Jenny! Otherwise, all the other people in my life, with the exception of my husband, are major emotional drains on me. They never have anything positive to say, and never act in a positive manner.

I haven’t gotten a single compliment on my weightloss in about 2 months. My mother says it’s because if she were to dwell on it, then I’d stop losing. Okay, that makes sense. My sister stopped speaking to me when I got smaller than she is. That one is almost funny. And my friends here? I honestly don’t know what’s up. Resentment? Fear? Maybe I don’t deserve a compliment! Who knows?

There’s a support group coming up next week about Body Image and WLS and I’m seriously thinking about going. I think I need it. I need to be able to somehow acknowledge the changes in my body. I know I’m trying! But maybe there’s some trick to it that I’m missing.

I’m slowly starting to feel some better tonight… it sure did take awhile.