So today I’m having a bit of a better day. I got to talk to my husband this morning and that was just lovely… we’re talking about our trip to Niagara Falls that we’ll be taking this summer. I cannot wait! I haven’t gotten to see my husband in 2 years because of an immigrations mess. The thing is, I’ve had my surgery since I saw him last and have lost about 90lbs since then in total. I look different. I feel different– good different. But I find myself wondering if I look good enough. Isn’t that funny? The man saw me last at my worst and yet I wonder now, when I look the best I have since I was in 8th or 9th grade! I swear, I’m a nutcase. But then, when I look in the mirror, I still see the woman I was, not the woman I am now. Somehow I have to change that.