Yesterday was a really bad eating day for me. I know it was actually very emotional– it was an anniversary and I didn’t get to talk to my husband. So I made really bad food choices. I really need to reign that in before this whole honeymoon period is over! My therapist will not be pleased. She’s trying to teach me to feel my feelings instead of stuffing them down with food… well? Sometimes they’re overwhelming! I’m going to be more careful today.

Last night I went out with my friend again to see another friend of ours. She really isn’t happy with me about last night’s faux pas. The dynamics are really shifting, everything is changing and I find myself wondering if I want to be around someone who is so negative to and about me. I have one friend now, whom at this point I would consider my best friend, who is always there for me and celebrates my successes with me. Of course, she’s had RNY as well and understands exactly what I’m going through with all the changes. At this point, I feel like she’s the only person I can talk to about anything! With the friends that I grew up with, it’s different. I feel like I keep everything we talk about to surface matters. And the funny thing? They’re fine with that. Maybe we just aren’t as close as I thought we were… and that makes me sad, but at the same time I’ve probably gained the best friend I’ve ever had.