Let’s give it a try!

I have always felt really strange writing blogs, but I guess I will try this out since Andrea is so persistent. Hah.  She is just trying to help me, which is good, considering that I have begged her to help me.  So here’s where I am; When I got to high school, I had this whole new sense of confidence that I had never really felt before. I had begun to develop a womanly body, rather than a dumb kid one. And once I started getting noticed more, I got more and more confident. And although I still curse my boobs (freaking DD’s!!), I really am thankful for my curves.  But somehow in the last year or so, I have just gone nuts and gained like 20 lbs. Not good. Especially  considering that I’m starting my senior year and that’s supposed to be the best time, and I KNOW I am hindering myself by not feeling and looking my best. So here we are. I’m going to try my hardest to knock this fat off myself and get back to feeling good!

Unfortunately, I work at Zaxby’s, which is my very favorite fast food restaurant.  And getting free food and working long, strange hours has made my eating habits go haywire!  Today was okay.  It was the first day I have worked since I started “dieting” like 5 days ago.  I got 1/2 of a House Salad with no fried onions or toast and I got light ranch dressing.  So I did a good job with that.  But we get a free milkshake every week and it was BURNING up in there and I was craving it sooo bad, so I drank half of it.  Which, sorry Andera, I didn’t mention to you.  I was not going to, but I figured that trying to hide when I make a mistake won’t do me any good.  But with the half of the milkshake, I was still under my calorie allowance, and I was running around working all day, so I think I’m okay.  BUT I did do a good job in other ways.  A guy I work with, Brett, was leaving today so he had a cookie cake in the back.  A farewell cake I guess.  But anyway, everyone was eating it except for me.  Not even a bite! I hate to be “that girl” though.  The one that won’t eat something that someone offers because she’s counting calories.  But eh, who cares.  I’ll look better for it!  And for dinner I had a cup of cole slaw and a piece of grilled chicken.  I wasn’t going to eat at all, but I figured 12 hours with no food was a bad idea.
So overall, today wasn’t so bad.  I wish I would have skipped the milkshake though.  =/

Now, I’m tired and I don’t want to write anymore.  I have to work again tomorrow morning and my goal is to eat light yogurt for breakfast (making myself actually eat in the morning is a big deal), eat the same salad as today, and then have a healthy dinner.  I’m not closing tomorrow so I will leave around 8 and be able to eat my own food.

Well, okay.

Goodnight! I will write a better when I am not exhausted.