I could really use a wish right now…

Posted stellarosa27 on June 10th, 2010 | Filed under Uncategorized

Or 5.  Whatever, I wouldn’t be picky.

So yeah - work’s just been busy - and I’ve been trying to keep busy after work - so that’s my lame excuse for not blogging.

I really need to go food shopping and get back on “eating” track.  My calories are still low, and last I checked I was at 167.8, but I’m eating crap and I feel like crap.  I also am still not sleeping, but that’s my own fault.  I am exercising, either the stairmaster or running and push ups.  I also swam today at lunch, and I plan to still go to the gym tonight.  I’m having dinner with a friend, and the boy from last week will be in attendance.  We haven’t spoken since I decided to ruin our friendship - sent him 2 random emails, no response.  The way he’s going, I might send him a really long one with a whole bunch of stuff I was going to spare him, but we’ll see how spiteful I get. I have a lot of things to say to him, that I wasn’t able to say, and as he ignores me, I just get even more angrier.  I don’t understand why *he’s* the upset one - I was the one who got rejected…I kind of wish I could go back and un-do what I did but still keep the knowledge that it would be a “no.”  That way I could just move on, but he wouldn’t be all weird.

Tonight the plan is to go to therapy, work out for an hour, then go home and get gorgeous for dinner at 8:30.  The underlying idea is - if I look pretty, I won’t cry.

I’m also thinking that I need to really start doing strength training, or something other than cardio.  In the past week 2 people have told me I’m losing my butt, and I like my butt!  I know I could do squats, but they’re soooooooo boring.  I really need to buckle down though.  I also really want to tighten my abs.  I don’t have a “flat” stomach, per say, but its definately to the point where I could probably just tone it up.  I really wish you could do “spot weight loss” but I know it doesn’t work…I just wish I wasn’t so shy about strength training at the gym.  WH and Shape have great work outs (or so they appear) for strength training, but I just get so embarrassed when I’m in the floor space.  I really need to get over it.

I may even break out my old belly dancing DVD - nothing like getting fit and feeling sexy at the same time :)  I need the extra confidence, lately.

I’d like to thank the Flyer’s for their typical Philadelphia sports team performance last night.  MUAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAAHHAAH - Revenge is a dish best served cold…that will teach you to knock my team out of the playoffs….


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