I believe in unicorns
I also believe in myself :)
Posted stellarosa27 on June 7th, 2010 | Filed under Uncategorized
Happy Monday (I know, oxymoronic statement)
Again, I’ve been quiet. I’ve been sad (I cried a LOT yesterday) but I’ve also been out and about on the town, which will explain my absence. I was down to 167.0 yesterday, but I haven’t really been eating much. No appetite.
I was out until 5:30 am Sunday morning (from Saturday night) - which is the explanation for the post-title. I spent Saturday-day at Samantha’s roof top pool - there was sun, grilling, alcohol and a lot of relationship talk. Not my relationship, because why would we spend attention on me, the girl who just had the equivalent from a break up from a 6 year relationship…but I digress. We got dressed up, went to bars in DC, and then ended the evening on another co-worker’s roofdeck while I tried to keep Samantha from jumping off of the balcony (she’s apparently a hot mess when drunk). The moral of the story is - don’t sober up enough to realize what’s going on, otherwise you’re not going to have fun.
I spent the majority of Sunday crying…I went to visit Jessie and she force fed me Chinese food because she said I looked too skinny. I mean probably, I hadn’t eaten in days, and then came home and colored while I watched the Last Unicorn. Some days you just need to go back to being 4 years old.
Today was better - although I look like I was crying all day yesterday - and I had jury duty. Got selected for a jury and I can’t say anything about it other than that - but supposedly they only needed me for today and tomorrow. Its really not bad - the courthouse is near my office so the commute is the same, but I get to go into court later than work
Positive news - I ran/walked around my block in 17 minutes tonight :) I haven’t really eaten much today, so I figured I’d do that instead of the full gym work out - but I didn’t die :) I’m going to go to the gym tomorrow morning since I have the extra time, and maybe the endorphins will put me in a MUCH better mood. So far I have plans for every day this week after work (except tomorrow but I’ll figure something out) so maybe I’ll get out of this funk. I have to SEE the boy on Thursday, so that may be hard, but a third party will be present, so I’m hoping that will kind of level the emotional playing field.
Sorry, that was kind of long and rambling… I’ll be more organized tomorrow…