I’m too old for this sh*t

Posted stellarosa27 on June 7th, 2010 | Filed under Uncategorized

Happy Monday (I know, oxymoronic statement)

Again, I’ve been quiet.  I’ve been sad (I cried a LOT yesterday) but I’ve also been out and about on the town, which will explain my absence.  I was down to 167.0 yesterday, but I haven’t really been eating much.  No appetite.

I was out until 5:30 am Sunday morning (from Saturday night) - which is the explanation for the post-title.  I spent Saturday-day at Samantha’s roof top pool - there was sun, grilling, alcohol and a lot of relationship talk.  Not my relationship, because why would we spend attention on me, the girl who just had the equivalent from a break up from a 6 year relationship…but I digress.  We got dressed up, went to bars in DC, and then ended the evening on another co-worker’s roofdeck while I tried to keep Samantha from jumping off of the balcony (she’s apparently a hot mess when drunk).  The moral of the story is - don’t sober up enough to realize what’s going on, otherwise you’re not going to have fun.

I spent the majority of Sunday crying…I went to visit Jessie and she force fed me Chinese food because she said I looked too skinny.  I mean probably, I hadn’t eaten in days, and then came home and colored while I watched the Last Unicorn.  Some days you just need to go back to being 4 years old.

Today was better - although I look like I was crying all day yesterday - and I had jury duty.  Got selected for a jury and I can’t say anything about it other than that - but supposedly they only needed me for today and tomorrow.  Its really not bad - the courthouse is near my office so the commute is the same, but I get to go into court later than work :)

Positive news - I ran/walked around my block in 17 minutes tonight :)  I haven’t really eaten much today, so I figured I’d do that instead of the full gym work out - but I didn’t die :)  I’m going to go to the gym tomorrow morning since I have the extra time, and maybe the endorphins will put me in a MUCH better mood.  So far I have plans for every day this week after work (except tomorrow but I’ll figure something out) so maybe I’ll get out of this funk.  I have to SEE the boy on Thursday, so that may be hard, but a third party will be present, so I’m hoping that will kind of level the emotional playing field.

Oof.

Sorry, that was kind of long and rambling… I’ll be more organized tomorrow…



2 Responses to “I’m too old for this sh*t”

  1. bikinidreamer Says:

    Awww. I really hope you feel better. Unfortunately, I know EXACTLY how you feel. It will pass… can’t tell you how long, but it will definitely pass. Maybe the workout tomorrow will be just what you need to get back to yourself. Best wishes to you… :)

  2. kasandra8586 Says:

    I colored this weekend to, your right sometimes we find comfort in the simpliest things! I hope that things will start to look up for you, just keep your head up…

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