Losing Again

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As I’m sure I’ve already said before that I started a physically demanding job shortly after returning home from working up North and have some good news. I’ve actually started losing weight again. The best news though is the inches I’m losing and muscle tone I’m gaining so the scale hasn’t reflected how much weight I’ve actually lost as the waistline does. Being able to say I’ve lost some weight is always worth repeating more than once! Woot!

I weighed myself this morning and am back down to 230.4lbs which is FANTABULOUS! It’s been so hard to get the weight to start coming off again but looks like I’m back on track.

All my meals are included with my job while I’m working so breakfast, lunch, snacks and drinks are all provided. When I get into work in the morning, I grab 2 apples and a glass of orange juice. Then I literally drink a gallon or more of water while I’m working. Lunch consists mainly of vegetables and some protein. And again, I’m having orange juice. Then it’s back to water while I work. I steer clear of carbohydrates like breads and run from sweets. Today the lunch was sandwiches and the basics (salads, veggies & fruit). I opted for half a sandwich of sliced deli meat turkey and the usual veggie stuff. (3/4 of a regular plate is mixed salad with no dressing and some slices of cantaloupe and honeydew melon with a few grapes and the protein is usually about 2-3 ounces of chicken breast) When I got to my table, I took apart the sandwich and just ate the turkey meat and tossed the rest into the trash. It’s a good thing I’m not big on breads (other than home-made) to begin with so this is not a problem for me to do.

I’ve been working long hours and have been sleeping very well these days. Most mornings when I wake up I don’t even realize I’ve just been sleeping for 6-8 hours!

Time for me to hit the hay again as I have to be up for 6am.

I hope the scale is good to me again tomorrow.

Another Day Wiser

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Some days I struggle with feeling like allowing myself the “luxury” of guilt-free eating and laying around all day (the kids are experts at this and call it “relaxing”) but because that’s not the type of person I am, I am completely unable to do it. My family tease me about constantly being busy and never “relaxing” but to me, “relaxing” IS cleaning and exercising. I love to be active. I love a clean house and playing tennis, mowing the lawn, gardening and doing laundry. There’s just nothing else like it! Except of course wilderness hiking or cross-country skiing!

Because of the fibromyalgia, I’m unable to walk anywhere so housework and tennis are my avenues of activity. But some days, I’m in so much pain and swollen so badly that just holding my cup of coffee in the morning can be a daunting feat. I found that while I was up North, I did not swell or ache as much as I do down here and I think it is due to the humidity that affects my body in this way. For three glorious months, I didn’t ache or swell. Then I moved back home and then within the first 24 hours, I felt my body begin to ache all over again. So the solution to my fibromyalgia is to move where there is no humidity! HAHAHA! This is SO NOT going to happen so the only other alternative is to continue to deal with the pain as it is and know that if I want a break from the pain, I can go North for a weekend away. :-D

One thing I rediscovered while I was up North was my love of tennis. When I was a teenager, I used to play all the time but then I had children and my life stopped being mine. I purchased a racket and balls (pink of course!) while I was up North and have been playing about once or twice a week since. The plan is to play two to three times a week until the snow falls again then I’ll have to find an indoor sport until the spring.

So today, I am a few pounds lighter than I was yesterday but have a home-made lasagne in the oven for dinner tonight. This is such a bad food for me but I tried to keep it lighter by using a lot less cheese and more seasonings. We’ll see how this affects the scale in the coming days.

I go back to work tomorrow and am anxious to see what I weigh next week at this time after making 20+ double beds, 7+ king beds, vacuum and clean bathrooms in about 16 rooms a DAY for the next 5 days…. This oughta be interesting.

Life Changes Unexpectedly

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As I had mentioned before, I had to leave my job up North to come home and take care of some family issues and in the meantime, I also had to find myself another full-time job closer to home. At first, things were a little rocky around here with me not being home for almost 3 months, but as I got a lot of cleaning¬† and job searching done, things have started to fall back into place. Last week, I happened to get a call from our local Holiday Inn folks regarding a resume I had emailed them the day before. So I went to the interview¬† last Thursday and before I’d even gotten home after the interview, they’d called me back telling me I’d gotten the job for housekeeping. Now mind you, it was supposed to only be part-time but I can’t afford to be choosey at this time so I accepted the job and started work this past Saturday. So much for part-time hours though! From what I’ve found out so far, I’m part-time on paper but working full-time hours until things slow down at the hotel. And because I’m willing to be flexible and help out where I can, the boss will keep me working in other areas of the hotel during the off season to ensure I get full-time work on a regular basis. So it seems to have all worked out in the job area for the time being.

As far as the ex-husband issue, I’m still trying to fill out my response for the court date set for August 30th where my ex is being a real “ex”! (if you know what I mean!) Since I am not familiar with family law nor the legal jargon they use, I am completely at a loss as to how to proceed, other than being honest and forthcoming since I’ve nothing to hide. I just wish the guy would leave us alone and let the kids make their own decisions regarding his claim to “fatherhood”. I’ve only got a few more days to complete my response and without some much needed professional direction, I’m relying heavily on prayer and honesty to get me through this time.

Now for the weight thing…. Well, since I had been working up North, I had lost about 35lbs but had gained some back during my first week back home. I’m still sitting around 235lbs but at least I’m not gaining anymore! And working as a housekeeper at the Holiday Inn is also now helping me to tone up, lose weight and stay busy. It’s ALL GOOD!!!

On a side note: I may not be losing the pounds as quickly as I would expect but I’ve definitely lost inches off my body. I had measured myself before I left in May and again last week and found out I’ve now lost a total of 12 inches just from my waistline so I must be doing something right! My face is thinner, I am able to see muscle definition on my legs and arms too. I’ve still got a long way to go but thank goodness I was tracking my measurements as well otherwise I’d be pretty discouraged with the scale right now.

Weather: Rainy and overcast - my kind of weather

Mood: amused and somewhat bewildered

Sleep: sleeping hard and not getting enough as usual

Physical: Keeping up appearances

Activities: housekeeping- 8hrs = 1771cals burned

Total Calories Allowed: 1741cal

Total Calories Consumed: 1908cal - I splurged today and had some pepperoni pizza for the first time in months. I’m seeing that pizza is NOT a good food choice at all! I won’t be having pizza again anytime soon!

Keeping My Chin Up…

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After feeling a little down on myself the past couple of days I thought I’d best compose an entry so as not to give up and feel completely like a failure.

I’ve had a lot on my plate the last week or so since I’ve been back home. I’m dealing with an ex-husband issue regarding the grown children and I’ve had to look for another job in my city too. A lot of stress and a lot more sleepless nights have been my nightmare the past few days.

I just wanted to get my feelings down into my journal and express how I feel so alone sometimes in this battle and then in my personal life as well. It’s at times like this that I wish I had a friend to confide in and to share some laughs with. Oh well, being a preachers wife isn’t always all it’s cracked up to be I suppose. It would just be nice sometimes if I had a fellow Spirit filled Christian to spend time with.

Well I guess that’s all I’ve got to say for now. I’m waiting for my son to call me when he’s done work so I can go and pick him up then come home and go straight to bed. I’ve been up since 3:30am yesterday morning and it’s really starting to hit me how tired I am.

And despite the hardship and challenges right now, I still praise God and give thanks for all I have and the many blessings in my life.

No other updates tonight. Sweet dreams.

It’s an uphill battle… or so they say

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“Frustration” is the word for the day because all the hard work I’ve been putting in since I got home would appear to be futile at times. If I were the type of person to give up at the first sign of a struggle, I would have thrown in the “towel” years ago. But since I’m known as a very tenacious person, I dig my heels in a little harder and look that obstacle right in the eye and say, “I am better than this!” and keep moving forward.

Today, I stepped on the scale as I do every morning and have gained 10lbs since yesterday. Yes, 10 (ten) pounds! Yes, this is “normal” for me as I have a thyroid disease and this is typical. The frustration comes from the knowledge of doing everything I can possibly do to lose weight yet gaining is a raging battle that requires a lot more than average weaponry such as more exercise and less calories etc.

So today is counted as a “loss” in the battle but tomorrow is another day and that scale will not beat me!

Weather: Absolutely gorgeous!

Mood: determined

Sleep: 12+hrs. I did a lot of tossing and turning so the 12+hrs was not completely uninterrupted.

Physical: energetic

Activities: Housekeeping- 2hrs = 444cals & gardening 45mins = 249cals burned

Total Calories Allowed: 1720cals

Total Calories Consumed: 1049cals

Today, I Gain a Small Victory!

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Since I’ve been home not quite a week yet, I’ve been cleaning my house from top to bottom and have spent several hours literally scrubbing floors and steam cleaning carpets and furniture. Other than the other day where I made terribly bad food choices, all things considered I think I’ve done alright.

I stepped on the scale first thing this morning like I do every day and was pleasantly surprised to see me down to 227.8lbs. I have to admit, this feels pretty amazing and like I’m actually getting somewhere with this weight thing.

While most folks who have “normal” metabolisms and are able to eat 1500-2000 cals a day in order to lose/maintain weight, I have found I need to consume about half of that in order to lose the pounds. I find if I stay around 1100-1500 cals and do something physical for at least 8 hours a day , I’m consistently losing.

So today I claim a small victory and stand tall knowing my pants are a little looser today than they were yesterday! Go ME!!!!

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Weather: Super Hot, Hot, Hot with a humidex and smog advisory

Mood: content and sort of proud of myself

Sleep: had a very late night but had a good sleep for about 5hrs

Physical: GREAT! I’ve been keeping very active and am feeling so much better for it!

Activities: housework- 6hrs = 1302cals burned

Total Calories Allowed: 1669cal

Total Calories Consumed: 1774cal

Settling In?

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Good evening blog,

I have a confession to make. I’ve only been home for a few days now and see that I am already starting to fall back into old habits. Yesterday I went to visit my mother and had lunch with her at the local Swiss Chalet (chicken diner) and had half of an amazing club chicken wrap but instead of a salad I opted for a poutine which involves french fries, cheese curds and gravy. Ugh… I loved every minute of the meal but found I felt bloated and heavy after eating the poutine and regretted it for the rest of the day.

I came home later in the afternoon and for dinner I had a beef stew with a cheesy dill biscuit that I had made from scratch the night before. The beef stew consisted of loads of vegetables and a bit of beef I had in the freezer. No added salt or fats and I used the frozen ratatoullie I had made a few months ago as a tomato based sauce in the stew. The biscuits were made with unbleached, unenriched flour, butter, cheddar cheese, fresh dill from the garden, 1/2tsp salt, baking powder, baking soda, a bit of mustard powder, and enough milk to moisten the dough enough to roll out. This meal wasn’t the falling point but I wanted to include all that I’d eaten this day.

But where I really fell was in the evening sitting at my computer once again, playing a game and munching on chips and jelly-bellies. Then to top it all off, just before heading to bed, I fell prey to my old friend, the peanut butter and cheese sandwich. Don’t ask; just accept and move on…

So I hang my head in a momentary lapse of judgement and temporary failure and accepted that I too am only human and reavow with renewed vigor, to keep fighting this war against the bulge. I plan on going to the tennis courts with my son at some point soon, once the heat of the day is gone to show him that I’m not too old to beat him once again! :-)

Weather: Hot, Hot, Hot, and very Humid

Mood: coming back to reality

Sleep: 5hrs did not sleep well. Woke up with a bad migraine headache

Physical: Feeling bloated and swollen.

Activities: Housekeeping- 9hrs = 2028cals & gardening 1hr = 338cals burned

Total Calories Allowed: 1726cals

Total Calories Consumed: 1714cals

A Summer Cut Short

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Well, I have returned from my job up north having to cut it short due to a personal emergency that requires my immediate attention on the homefront. Nothing to do with my own family but the father of my children (ex-husband) who is causing problems in my life.

So here I am and I suppose you’d like to know how I fared in the great beyond! :-) So I guess I will tell you.

When I left, I was 260+lbs with high blood pressure of 192/86 and my doctor wanted to put me on medications to lower my BP. I have news to report that after only 3 months working up north I have now….

Lost 35lbs and counting and my BP is now 127/75 which is NORMAL RANGE!!! Woot!!! So now I’ve gone from being a 4x shirt size down to a LARGE!!! I am officially OUT of the plus sizes for shirts. I couldn’t be more happier with my progress. I have lost approximately 6 inches off my hips and waist so far and plan on continuing this weightloss even now. I’m already halfway to my goal of losing 60lbs by the end of October. I NEED to succeed! For me, for my family and for my life…. I choose life with both hands and take back what I gave up so long ago now…. my self-esteem and affirm that I AM WORTH IT!!! and I DESERVE THIS!!!

The plan is to be down to 200lbs by November of this year. With tenacious determination, I WILL DO THIS!

A LOT of the weightloss is due to good old fashioned HARD WORK and SMALLER PORTIONS! I eliminated the added salt from my food and also from my cooking. Being in the food industry it can be hard to remember a day without salt since it is used very liberally in any commercial restaraunt and fast food joint. That’s how they make it taste so good! That, and chemical additives and fillers. Anyways, I also played a lot of golf, tennis and canoeing which helped with keeping my boredom at bay. I drank TONS of water and I mean TONS of water! I was, and still am drinking about 4-6 liters of water a day. It helps with hydration but also does something a lot more important…. it makes me feel full when I’m not really hungry during the day between meals.

So here I am. Back home and all the more determined to continue losing this weight. A LOT lighter and a LOT healthier.

Way to go ME!!!!! woot!

Weather: Hot, Hot, Hot

Mood: elated!

Sleep: 5hrs did not sleep well. It will take time to adjust to my bed again after being gone for 3 months

Physical: GREAT! I’ve been keeping very active and am feeling so much better for it!

Activities: Eliptical - 1hrs = 773cals burned

Total Calories Allowed: 1677cal

Total Calories Consumed: 1817cal