EVERYDAYisAnewDAY

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I have to say that today, is one of those “rainy” days.  A day you feel like crap emotionally, mentally, oh yeah and let’s not even mention when I look in the mirror… CRAP! I am at such a struggle!  If I didn’t have obligations my day would have turned out so different.  Instead, here I am taking a moment, and I do mean only a moment, for myself in between my “duties” of being a working mom.  I just want to scream because I struggle all the time with the guilt of when it is okay to work, and not neglecting my son.  Or that I can’t workout until I get papers grades, lesson plans made, and all the other tedious things that come with being a teacher.  And don’t even get me started on my “perfect” looking husband who is a gym freak and I always make time for his “hobby” before allowing myself to go.  I am just frustrated.  So while I’m watching Biggest Loser, and they are losing weight! I am screaming inside!  I know this is how I got here.  Exhausted and putting everyone else first, but where is the balance?  I feel like there is NO BOOK or WEBSITE for that question to be answered.  Maybe I need to stop blogging and take my ass to the gym!

Filed under: Just checking In on November 3rd, 2009