I am still sick and getting very frustrated! I went to the gym today and after 20 minutes and a shower I felt like I would pass out. I know this could be from the lack of food I have not been eating from feeling sick, or that I just over did it when my body is worn out. But I am frustrated none the less. Even though I am losing weight on the scale, I am afraid as soon as I am well, that it will all come right back! Yuck…Yuck…Yuck! That’s how I feel right now. I am taking the meds and back to resting and hoping that I am going to back on my feet soon. I just know that in Jillian’s words “I am not quiting, only feel like I am failing, but I am pushing forward!” Tomorrow is a new day…Here’s to me! 
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I have to say that today, is one of those “rainy” days. A day you feel like crap emotionally, mentally, oh yeah and let’s not even mention when I look in the mirror… CRAP! I am at such a struggle! If I didn’t have obligations my day would have turned out so different. Instead, here I am taking a moment, and I do mean only a moment, for myself in between my “duties” of being a working mom. I just want to scream because I struggle all the time with the guilt of when it is okay to work, and not neglecting my son. Or that I can’t workout until I get papers grades, lesson plans made, and all the other tedious things that come with being a teacher. And don’t even get me started on my “perfect” looking husband who is a gym freak and I always make time for his “hobby” before allowing myself to go. I am just frustrated. So while I’m watching Biggest Loser, and they are losing weight! I am screaming inside! I know this is how I got here. Exhausted and putting everyone else first, but where is the balance? I feel like there is NO BOOK or WEBSITE for that question to be answered. Maybe I need to stop blogging and take my ass to the gym!
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It is very hard to stay on track, the way I would like, with all the sick people in my household (even myself at times). I am managing to still focus on eating healthy, but have no energy to workout. In fact, all I want to do is sleep. I think I’m going to focus on the eating healthy because that is still a positive and be real with myself that there are going to be little bumps in the road. Here’s to struggling with Sickness.
Filed under: Just checking In on November 2nd, 2009 | No Comments »
I have to say that I am so excited to have this blog. If for no other reason than to help me “journal” and be accountable to myself. I have never felt so excited and really committed as I do this week. I think this is due to a combination of reasons, but most importantly it is because I am being completely honest with myself … AND making it a priority in my life. I want to first say Thank You to Jillian Micheals for her inspiration to me thought The Biggest Loser, Literature, and her public speaking events (where she gave her shout out to 3 Fat Chick). My next Thank You goes to 3 Fat Chicks for having a this place where all types, programs, and people can come together with every resources we need (and NO “catches”), and 3rd FitDay : You are so great for all the charting and information to help be maintain, be honest with myself, and stay commetted! Here’s to Me, for Me and By Me. I am ready for no more excuses, no more quitting, and complete honesty (where ever that leads me)
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