that’s just me

The whole “I’m going to lose x pounds by y” is so not working for me.  My body does what it does.  I’ve decided I’m going to focus on staying on plan and exercising regularly.  If I do those, then eventually I will lose weight.

What a surprise to me … I actually look better in clothes that fit.  Who knew?  Here I’d been knitting myself sweaters in a 46″ size (because I didn’t like clingy) and then frogging them because they looked like sh*t on me.  I’ve knit two sweaters this month, both size 38-40″ and they look awesome. I’m going to replace all my XXL sweatshirts with my awesome hand-knit sweaters. 

I’m going to have a buy new pants too, but really want to wait until March.  I should be okay for another 10 pounds lost or so.  I’ve been over 200 pounds for the last several moves (during which moves I purged anything that didn’t fit), so I don’t have a closet full of one size or several sizes smaller clothes.

had a great day yesterday.  Ate lots of healthy stuff, exercised, did heaps of things around the house.  Didn’t have a cookie when I could have.  Then I weigh myself this morning and instead of being down for the week, I’m up a pound.  :::sigh:::  Not sure what’s going on … I am retaining some water, which is okay because it will come off eventually, so I’m hoping it is that.

Had two hard boiled eggs for breakfast, but was starving by 11:30, so had two toast with peanut butter.  That worked.  I’m still mulling over the whole south beach thing.  I’ve lost weight on it before (40 pounds in just a couple of months the last time I did it), but I also gained 30 back when I started adding in bread.  So does this mean I shouldn’t do bread at all?  I don’t know.  I do know that it doesn’t bother me intestinally, but I’ve also read that the one sign of a food allergy is that you totally crave it and feel like you can’t live without it.  Which is how I feel about bread.  And that’s silly because seriously nobody HAS to have bread.  So maybe it isn’t good for me.  I have three sisters (out of five) who have some degree of gluten intolerance.  Don’t know if that means anything for me or not.

I have had lots of energy this week which is awesome.  I’ve done the supercharge alternating with weights every day.  AND the most awesome thing is my new sweater.  I had made a gorgeous wool/silk sweater for one of my daughters.  She didn’t like it, so i took it back (I’m totally okay with her not liking it.  I’d rather somebody tell me they don’t like something than them never wear it and not tell me).  I love this sweater, but it was a 38″ bust and I’m a 44″ so thought I needed to wait to wear it.  Tried it on yesterday, though, and due to the style (and the fact that my shoulders are smaller than my daughter’s) it fits.  Fortunately it doesn’t have to button around my hips because it wouldn’t but it looks beautiful and totally awesome with my jeans and a white shirts (it is a deep burgundy red). The yarn is so soft and has the most wonderful drape to it. So I’m happy. 

217 this morning.  Still 9 pounds more than I was in April which sucks, but down 7 pounds since October 1st.  Have done well this week with exercise and weight lifting.  Haven’t had cookies or tootsie rolls all week.  No bananas, although they are sitting there because DH isn’t eating them either and I bought them for him.  Have been having an apple with nuts mid afternoon.  Wanted a peanut butter and jelly sandwich yesterday, then decided to do a tuna sandwich, then ended up doing tuna salad … yea me!

Some days I definitely don’t eat as much as others and then am starving the next morning.  Decided to have 3 pieces of toast this morning just for a little extra.  I’ll have celery and hummus, coleslaw, apple and nuts this afternoon.

Really went after it on the Nordic yesterday.  Vague memories of doing that Every Single Day without fail.  Never should have lost that.

We talked about moving, but the landlord came back at the same rent we’ve been paying, so we have no justification unless we want to do it ourselves.  Looking at comparables shows that we are paying 25% more in rent than a similar house (actually exactly the same house with the same builder in the same neighborhood).  May look at it again if we get what we get for housing allowance regardless of how much we pay in rent.  If we only get what our rent is then there is no need to move because the Awesome House is no longer available (and honestly it looks like it wasn’t available when I first saw it anyway.  boo hoo.)