My Relationship with Food

We all have struggles within ourselves that range from the weird to incurable. I don’t judge. I created this blog as a means for those to express the weird things we do with our struggle and obsessive relationship with food. I am embarrassed of some of the things I do and I’m sure you are embarrassed of some of the things you do all in the name of what?  F-O-O-D, food.

I want you to tell me what you do, how do you do it, and why. If you don’t know why, then tell me why you think you don’t know why. Tell me your history with food. Tell me what you’ve learned from your history with food. Tell me the secrets you keep deep down inside about food. Your love/hate relationship with food always has its secrets.

You don’t know me. So lets put our trust in the fact that you don’t have to face me and you don’t have to fear my rejection of your abusive relationship with Food.  The more I share and stop hiding my weird abusive relationship with Food, maybe it will become easier to just say no.

I want to be here for you. I want you to read my stories and thoughts and laugh with me-laugh at me. I want you to cry with me and for me. I want you to relate to me. I want to relate to you.

My name is Shelly, and I in a weird, obsessive and abusive relationship with Food.

What about you?

2 Comments so far

  1. peggy on October 24th, 2010

    Hi Shelly

    My name is Margaret and I have an unhealthy relationship with food; I use it to comfort myself when I tired, bored or stressed; I use it to celebrate - parties, birthdays, christmas etc; and I use it to squash down negative feelings like anger, sadness, self hatred.

    I love food but sometimes I abuse it. I’ve been reading some of you blog entries and I can definitely relate to your experiences. Sometimes I spend every evening after work eating untill I’m so full I’m uncomfortable. I’ll hide the evidence from my husband by wrapping the sweetie papers, crisp bags etc inside other rubbish. It is often mindless and numbly stuffing piece after piece of toast, or bowls of cereal or portions of pasta.

    I’m doing better now and have lost 6 lbs in the past 3 weeks but I know it’s a long term problem that I have to address. I think that you are right, if we share our food secrets in our blogs it will hopefully give us better understanding of our issues.

    It’s also good to know that we are not the only ones out there.

    Wishing you all the best in your journey to health and happiness.

    Peggy x

  2. shellydeflores on October 24th, 2010

    Peggy,

    I think that is great. Six pounds is a wonderful achievement. You know when I first started 6 lbs felt like a forever in the future achievement. I wanted to give up soooo many times. My obsession with food was also very hard to see ever ending. I know I won’t ever see my desire for delicious pastas and breads or sweets ever going away but I know I will have them under control. You know, we will forever be dealing with the issues of not being able to let go of food. Of not being able to just say no and not accepting the fact that others can’t understand why we can’t just say no. It is so much harder than most people think, especially thinner friends or family members. BUT we will keep up the fight in the name of better health and allowing ourselves to build amazing relationships with other people without letting our weight stop us. I know I have that problem. I think the most important goal of my journey that I can’t wait to reach is actually being able to love myself. That sounds incredibly gay but it’s also incredibly true. I want to love myself for who and what I am.

    I wish you the best of luck on your journey and I also hope you will continue to comment! When you reach those times where you just don’t think you can go on and it all seems so hard–I want you to go to a gym or a sports store (like Sports Authority or Dick’s) and pick up a 5 lb weight or one of those 5 lb anklet things and strap it to you in some fashion. Walk around with it or pick it up and play with it. Just think…for every 5 lbs you’ve lost, thats one of those weights coming off of you. Off of your BODY! Better yet, strap on a couple of the anklet 5 pounders and walk around the store. Take them off and tell me how great full you are to have gotten rid of them! I promise you, it’s a pain in the butt but it is also an eye opener.

    Good Luck!

    Shelly

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