Reality. I’m fat.

15 Apr, 2010

I’m a slacker!

Posted by: shellydeflores In: Uncategorized

I have only done the P90X twice since Monday-and it’s Thursday!  Holy crap!  My arms aren’t really sore anymore but my legs were a little bit from having to do lunges on some of those exercise! I have class tonight and will be stuck here until 10PM. What am I gonna do tonight?  I guess I can try to stay up late and work out but then I won’t wake up early enough for work! Ugh, this is hard to time manage!!

I already miss being sore! I need to pick up the pace. Everyone on facebook is cheering me on and giving me verbal high fives. It feels good to have people support me but it almost hurts a little too. It’s like everyone knows that this fatty really should be losing weight. I should be-and it’s obvious so I don’t really know what I’m bitching about. I guess in my head I am still use to be that cute slightly chubby girl who everyone tells, “You don’t need to lose weight, you look good.” I miss that! 

I think I am having another one of my small break downs where I self pity and tell myself that I am stupid for letting it get this far!

Well class is about to begin so I will update again soon! 

1 Response to "I’m a slacker!"

1 | souloftwilight

April 15th, 2010 at 6:30 pm


I am not sure if this will be helpful or not but when I get into the self-pitying mood and I start to feel overwhelmed I remind myself that there is nothing I can do about this moment. Whatever shape I am in that moment cannot be changed, however I can sure as heck change the next moment and if I can change that moment I can change the next one and the next one, etc… Like Meet the Robinsons, Keep Moving forward. p90x is a tough program you are awesome to be doing it! This may sound weird coming from a stranger but please don’t be sad, keep your chin up. Remind yourself of your victories and don’t get bogged down by the bad stuff. Just keep working at it!

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