To finally be comfortable in my skin…

Posted by sheddingoldme on July 18th, 2009 |Filed Under Uncategorized |

is awesome!!!! I currently weigh 178lbs. I dont feel ive reached my point of my “perfection” yet ive reached a point where I dont feel disgusted with myself. Today I realized im almost normal, im fat, but im not so fat. A couple of people seen me who hasent seen me in a month or more. I heard things like: “wow, your face looks amazing!”, “Your getting so small”, “How are you doing it???” I was so embarressed because yes I get very shy especially when im in the spotlight. But more interesting comments was “you dont need to loose anymore weight, thats enough”. Because of course I feel I do. I dont feel im at that weight yet. 

     Today something happened to me, I realized I havent enjoyed this journey as mch as I should have. Ive been too preoccupied with loosing as much weight as possible. Someone told me that 30(some) lbs is to much for me to loose, so do it in 10lb incrediments til you feel comfortable. This was some sensible advice. I want to take this journey slow and to be able to enjoy it without getting upset with myself. I’ve come a long way… and im super proud of myself. Because this journey hasent been easy. I wanted to be disciplined and still feel sometimes im not being as disciplined as I should be with food quantity. But I also realized ive been extremely disciplined!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ive cut out ALL the things I use to love!!!! cheez its, chocolate, mozzerella sticks, all things white (flour and sugar). Ive made it, alot of people cant do this because it is a huge struggle/discipline to give up these things. And for anyone attempting the struggle: YOU GO YOU CAN DO IT- FIGHT THAT BATTLE, YOU CAN WIN!!! AND IT IS A BATTLE. GOD BLESS YOU!!!! I dont want to sound arrogant but ive come to a place of mercy with myself. Because God knows I havent had any. It takes alot to give up everything we love. To face our desires face to face. So on one coin ive given up, but I also feel its ok to enjoy these pleasures once in a while. So tonight me, hubby and my little girl is going out to eat because my birthday is on monday and im going to ENJOY MYSELF. I have no restrictions tonight- once every 1-2 monthes I deserve! But im not going to make it more than that because these things are unhealthy for my body. I’ll let everyone know how it goes!!! KEEP FIGHTING LADIES !!!!!!!!!!


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  1. kellygram on July 18, 2009 6:23 pm

    Happy birthday! It’s good that you are giving yourself permission to enjoy your birthday dinner, and the weight loss journey as well. Also, let yourself enjoy the wonderful feedback too. You deserve it :)

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