Still doing it!!!

Posted by sheddingoldme on April 26th, 2009 |Filed Under Uncategorized |

    Ok so I figure its been almost a month and I havent given up! Which is the first time in a long time. So I am really proud of that fact. But- I know without God I wouldnt have been able to do any of this- this definitely is not my strength. I am so weak! Im almost proud of it. Just like Paul said he glories in his weakness because only than is God strength visible. Thats exactly how I feel inside and it really humbles me.  Yes, this is a weight loss blog. In entirety its a Christian weight loss blog. Without Christ I wouldnt be doing this right now. Hes my reason. 

     God has given me a beautiful lesson this last week. It was a difficult one but nonetheless precious. Through someone elses’ words I realized my foundation for this weight loss was off kilter. Which if the foundation isnt right we know it will sink like sand thru a fist. Someone said one nasty word to me and me (being weak and vulnerable) of course brokedown and almost gave up. God pointed out to me that thru one hurtful word out of a humans mouth I was going to fall and give up. No matter who that person is or how important they are to me they cant be the sole basis of this process, this journey. They just cant be. I was basing this journey on pleasing them because they are so important to me. I can’t do that. The reason for this is #1 God is my foundation, beginning and end. Hes my provider of strength and everything else. The call he has on my life is why I am going for this. #2 I cant be a people pleaser. I am to be a God pleaser. I will never be able to please anyone 100% and just is unrealistic to expect too. The only one I am to worry about pleasing is God. Only one who can fully accept me is God. Thats my standard and realization. Thank you Lord!

    Although ive come to realize that I shouldnt base my life on someone elses judgment of me doesnt mean I dont love, value, and accept that person as is. Because although I cant expect that out of someone else… I am to show and give the same love and acceptence God gives to me. I look at Jesus’ loving kindness, his suffering, his sacrafices- Thats my only standard. Weather or not others do the same is not my concern, Only showing it is mine as I look in his eyes as I struggle along this path.


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  1. inkheartmeg on May 15, 2009 3:04 pm

    Amen to that. I started at 310 pounds, smoking pot, eating like a glutton. Being depressed and angry all the time. That’s no way for me to be. In order to be the best I can be for the Lord, myself, family, community, and whoever He brings to me… I needed to correct those things and so I am with his Love, grace and Strength because without it, I cannot do it. Perhaps the person who said what they did, do not know what they do? Satan will love to see you fail. Stand firm.

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