Shaping Up

I was horrible last week!  Just had so many things going on and the days I didn’t I just wanted to veg out.  I blame it partly on not enough sleep, part on being lazy and partly PMS.  I did not workout or eat good at all.  Saturday I was going to do some cardio but didn’t really want to.  So I got out the Wii to weight myself and it had been 34 days since my last time.  I only lost .7 pounds.  Gee make me feel bad!  Some of the ladies on the forum for CE have lost 15 pounds.  I know I need to work harder at it but sometimes finding the time and the determination or will to do it.  Forget the food!  Not any will or determination to correct that.  But I find it so hard to eat well when everyone around me is eating whatever.  Or I have to cook for numerous people who are never happy with what I make and neither am I.  I am just whining! 

Okay I have done week 3 of push over again.  Due to all the screw ups with the schedule for the last 2 weeks. 

I will not be able to write often.  (Not that I did anyways.) Because my computer will not turn on so I have to beg the bf to use his and that means maybe a few minutes here and there.

Okay this is the end of push week 3.  But I think I must start over and plan my week ahead of time.  So I can do my rest days when I have appts.  I am enjoying lifting heavier and less reps.  I need 15 pounds weights!  I do miss my workouts when I don’t get time for one.  I feel worse about that then eating bad.  But I have done well with my portions, I try and make sure I have snacks.  Last week when it was that time of month I did indulge some but I think it was the hormones.  I try to balance the whole day and not look at just one thing.  I am still eating something chocolate at least once a day.  My late night dessert craving won’t go away!

Last week was a little hectic with spring break and all.  I only did one day of cardio and all the workouts on different days.  But since it was my first week of push I definitely felt it.  The workouts are shorter because you are supposed to lift heavier.  I find that for certain shoulder/arm raises I can not keep my form to do it heavy.  So for moves I am happy cause I really feel I worked it but others are almost to hard to get the weights up. 

This week I started a day behind schedule but I will just skip a rest day.  I have been thinking about doing extra cardio but with last weeks mess ups it just didn’t happen.  Plus since it’s not already on my schedule that means I have to think about it.  You know what happens then, I put it off or do something that makes it so I can’t…  I have been thinking about riding my bike to try and ease the knee pain.  Not sure if that will work but that’s the cardio I like.  These cardio videos just kill me!  But it has been so windy, like a storm for the last week.  And now today it’s in the 60’s!  Yesterday it was in the 90’s and so dry and hot.

Well, I have not backed down on the workouts but the food is really slacking.  It is so hard to find something that everyone will eat, enjoy and be low calorie good for you cooking.  The recipes in the book just are not really kid friendly and they aren’t tasty enough for the big kid (my bf).  What’s a girl to do?????????

I stretched the burn phase an extra week due to week 4 only getting half done.  I had a cub scout camping trip that ended my week early last week.  So I decided to just do another week of burn and since I finally got a bigger weight I could boost it up a bit. 

I got size 12 dumbbells and started working with them and have come to the conclusion that my weights that I thought were 10 pounds must only be 8 pounds.  The 12s just seems so much heavier that the others must be 8 not 10 pounds.  Reading the Chalean Extreme thread in the forum is really making me think about buying the select techs.  But I just can not justify the $350.  I spent a lot of money buying this program alone and really don’t wanted to spend so much more.  But I need more variety of weight.  I feel like I could really get my moneys worth of the program if I had more weights.  I feel like I might end up with the weights but I would really like to find them cheaper.

Since I am officially done with the burn phase it was time to weight and measure.  I was so happy to have lost 3.7 pounds 35 days after my start.  Since I really did not think any thing was happening other then feeling better.  I also lost an inch on my waist and 1/2 inch on my arms and hips.  My thighs gained an inch.  Not worried because I know patience is what I need with a ton more motivation. 

I am starting the push phase tomorrow!! 

 That means burn phase is almost over!  Still I feel like I have lost no weight.  BUT (a big but) Last week I completely ate whatever since it was my bday.  Back eating good this week.  And I just read in one of the forums that weight loss is 80% food and only 20% exercise.  I also decided that I need to do more cardio.  Was thinking of riding my bike on a rest day in hopes it would not put strain on my sore knee.  Yes I have been having stiffness and pain under my kneecap.  Since I skipped my workout yesterday and had not had one since Friday it was feeling better today.  However I was not.  Seems like something was really screwing with my sinuses and got a afternoon headache.  Managed to squeeze in my workout after dinner.  Thought I might puke.  I really do not like working out after eating.  But it was better to do it than not to. 

I feel like I am kinda loosing my motivation this week.  It just so aggravating to have to work so hard to get something that other people take for granted.  For example work.  I have mentioned them before.  It’s like a bunch of fad dieters and they drive me crazy!  The first moment of temptation and they cave.  So that makes it harder to say no when everyone else is.  But I am trying to think ahead before I do something.  Yesterday is gone and tomorrow isn’t here yet.

I am now in week three. Hopefully getting heavier weights this week.  My birthday is tomorrow so I have been slacking with the food.  And of course I put off the grocery store this weekend so I don’t have anything to cook.  I do notice my muscles in my arms and legs more.  Not sure if I notice them more because they are sore or because there are muscles there. 

I did have a little bump last week and missed my Friday workout due to an unscheduled happy hour with work buddies.  So I worked out Saturday, my rest day, and then just stayed on schedule.  I couldn’t really tell if I was too sore due skipping my rest day.  But I have been thinking about doing some cardio outside stuff on Saturdays when I don’t have a workout scheduled.  I’ll probably never do it cause thats not a scheduled. lol!!! Could someone schedule my grocery shopping and what I have to buy each week?  It would make my life so much easier!

Feeling a little chipper today since Friday is tomorrow. Work is a little easier to bear with a few of our drama queens on vacation. I have been cooking all week for lunch and dinner. I have figured out a few recipes in the guidebook need some modifications. Basically you just eat chicken, meat or fish with vegetables and salads. There are a few interesting things in there that I have never seen before. Like turkey hotdogs in a tortilla and deviled eggs for snacks.  I guess it’s a good thing that I can eat almost anything at this stage in my life.  I was a very picky eating when I was younger and would never try anything new.  Well tomorrow is the end of week two and I am very happy about it.  I don’t feel like I’ve lost any weight but I do think maybe my shape is starting to change.  I am feeling stronger like at work to move boxes now is so much easier.  (No I don’t move boxes as my job, actually I have a desk job but sometimes our inventory is not where it should be or needs to be put away.  I am the type that will just do it myself since no one else will until their told.)  Just a short post tonight, Grey’s Anatomy is coming on in 15 minutes and I need to dry my hair!

Okay I am going to complain but it’s annoying!!!  It’s work.  Yes work itself is annoying but try to eat right and be healthy is like almost breaking the law with these people.  They talk about dieting non-stop but then inhale a bag of chocolate or anything laying around.  Every time I mention that I brought lunch or cooked something and she says “oh on your diet”.  I am not on a diet nor have I ever been on a diet!!!!!!  Why does this infuruate me so?  Well cause she keeps saying things like that in front of other people.  I really did not want to tell the whole department that I am working out and eating better.  I feel that I should be able to do what I want with my life.  Or does she just want everyone to know in hopes I fail and they could all talk about it?

I am working out regularly and watching what I eat.  I am making better food choices and not depriving myself.  Someone reading this might think I am not on a diet at all if they knew what I eat everyday.  But to me it is better choices and smaller portions.  Tonight I did not eat a completely healthy dinner and I had dessert but I did do well the rest of the day.  I am also trying to cut out the words good or bad when it comes to my relationship with food.  Why are women always saying they were bad over the weekend when they ate too many desserts or too much food.  You do not see men doing that!  (Maybe there are some I just have never met.)  In the new Self magazine is a great article about a women’s journey through life and how she dealt with food.  She is 75 years old and after a lifetime of binge eating or starving and all of the in between thinks she found a way to live life with food not about it.  It was a very enlightening article.  One of the reasons why I finally decided enough was enough and I needed to do something about my unhappiness with my body was because I don’t want to be that way the rest of my life.  I see people old enough to be my parents on diet after diet and doing workouts to run marathons and it is just like a repeating cycle.  I do not want to be that way.  I want to be healthy everyday not a month here and there. 

Yes I said it and I am ANNOYED!!  Okay maybe it’s a little bit PMS.  But I really have been felling alittle more positive lately.  Since I am normally not a perky person.   

Did I mention I really think I am stronger.  Over the weekend I carried the groceries all the way in the house with out feeling like my arm was going to fall off.  Tonight when I did Burn Circuit 2 (that’s 2nd workout for the 2nd week), I did not feel like I really got as exhausted as last week.  I am going to ask for weights for my birthday because I need more weight then my 10 pound weights.