I know my eatting habits are related to the internal struggle I have with stress, drama, etc..
I was doing good last week.. I detached myself from a situation that was unhealthy, and feeling better about me..

I thought my road trip was going to be nice and blissful.. I was planning on making it that way. Now I am traveling with someone who I don’t like anymore or have any intention of being around for any length of time.. The ball and chain has attached itself to me like a fungus, and not wanting to let go.

No it isn’t my hubby, or my fur babies.. They are a huge blessing in my life. It is a friend who I meet who decided that I was the only person in her life to help her thru the most tramatic situation, and that is how we meet. I have helped, beyond reasonable, and now feeling used up. I have little to give.. And I thought (a few dayz ago) I was released from her and her situation. And then the dreaded email and phone call from another friend reminding me we gave our word to help and we can’t back down now.

Even though he feels not good about it and I feel even worse.

Why DO I DO THIS TO ME??? Don’t I deserve better. I am considering call off the trip.. I really don’t want to travel with her or be around her.. It is a unhealthy and unhappy situation.

And of course my eatting has increased, my appetite getting bigger.. Funny how that works.. My internal strife manifest into chemicals, and toxins which belong nowhere near my body let alone in it.. Hey why not punish myself even more.. I am so over it..

Oh release me from my treadmill of hell.. I know this is going to get better, ALot! Because I am in control of my life and what I need and want to manifest in my life.

Needless to say the Shanti Cleanse is off, and the eatting sugar is off.. I choose to take control now and be at peace in my life. PERIOD!