Balance the Scales…..

I know my eatting habits are related to the internal struggle I have with stress, drama, etc..
I was doing good last week.. I detached myself from a situation that was unhealthy, and feeling better about me..

I thought my road trip was going to be nice and blissful.. I was planning on making it that way. Now I am traveling with someone who I don’t like anymore or have any intention of being around for any length of time.. The ball and chain has attached itself to me like a fungus, and not wanting to let go.

No it isn’t my hubby, or my fur babies.. They are a huge blessing in my life. It is a friend who I meet who decided that I was the only person in her life to help her thru the most tramatic situation, and that is how we meet. I have helped, beyond reasonable, and now feeling used up. I have little to give.. And I thought (a few dayz ago) I was released from her and her situation. And then the dreaded email and phone call from another friend reminding me we gave our word to help and we can’t back down now.

Even though he feels not good about it and I feel even worse.

Why DO I DO THIS TO ME??? Don’t I deserve better. I am considering call off the trip.. I really don’t want to travel with her or be around her.. It is a unhealthy and unhappy situation.

And of course my eatting has increased, my appetite getting bigger.. Funny how that works.. My internal strife manifest into chemicals, and toxins which belong nowhere near my body let alone in it.. Hey why not punish myself even more.. I am so over it..

Oh release me from my treadmill of hell.. I know this is going to get better, ALot! Because I am in control of my life and what I need and want to manifest in my life.

Needless to say the Shanti Cleanse is off, and the eatting sugar is off.. I choose to take control now and be at peace in my life. PERIOD!

I did do a cleanse last week. And I may continue this week. I lost three pounds last week.. I decided that this time the cleanse wasn’t the Master Cleanse, or anything so extreme..

I decided to eat fruit all day and drink fruit drinks (low in sugar, organic), as well as water, then at nite, have one meal (organic).. No Sugar, No bread, No white anything…

It wasn’t easy at first, but after a few days, it got easier… I was able to work and continue on my daily life by having the fruit and juices during the day (and I think a few times I did do a vegetable broth)…

What I found is it had a similar affect to more stringent Cleanses.. I was able to start feeling clearer and seeing the choices I make are affecting my emotional life… And that it relates back to a inside job that no outside fix will help.

This week I am slowly eatting two meals a day, since Sunday.. Still doing the fruit and juices. I will be going on a road trip this coming week (on Thursday), and plan on doing the fruit and maybe nuts during the day, and one meal again.

It is slow but sure progress. I am still interested in doing the Cleanse I spoke of last week, and I may once I get to Florida. I am in a flux as far as moving and keeping myself grounded during this time of change.. But really there is no better time then now to do the shift in diet as well as the shift in taking care of me..

Now is all there is!

I am also still keeping up with the push ups and squats!

I have been doing them every other day usually 30 of each! I am happy about that! I can feel the squats making a difference, so can hubby see it! As far as the push ups, I am hoping soon they will show a difference in my arms! I believe it will…

Today I prepare for my Trip to Fla, by doing all the laundry and getting the house nice for hubby when I am gone.. I also will be putting a list together of the foods I will be taking..

I am polluting my body whenever I chose to digest foods that have chemicals which are not meant to be taken internally. Whenever I use white products (sugar, breads,etc) I am again polluting my body with chemicals that create hormonal, physical, emotional changes within me. I have tested this over and over again and have found it to be a fact.

When I am becoming aware of this and getting angry at myself, and at this incessant need to intake the pollutants into my body, and I start to revolt hence the revolution. Maybe by getting a detox kit at the health food store, doing a cleanse to rid myself of the pollutants. and my increased awareness brings me to more healthy food, organic and natural, as well as feeling as though I have gained control of this ugly ugly dis ease of the mind, body and soul..

Then I start to shift into a healthier weight for me, as well as healthier looking skin and hair, as well as my mind becomes clearer, and my emotions more balanced. This is the Evolution of me… I become kinder to myself, and no longer grab the nearest bag of chips (no matter how organic they are), I journal, and write, I create, I allow myself to feel the feelings, knowing they too will pass. I no longer feel the need to use something outside of me to fix the inside of me… I give back to others who suffer this milady. I no longer feel the need to hide….

I am me, I am renewed, revived, refreshed, RELAX…

I welcome the me that has been waiting all this time…. Patiently knowing that I would get to this place and time and embrace my true nature, my true self and my true love. ME!

I decided to join the Detox Challenge.. It is 1.00 for first month and then 19.95 after that.. It says it takes three months for for the change.. Of course that makes sense to me… Here is the link if you are so inclined…

http://www.laurakleingreenclub.com/greenclub/

I like that she has a thirty day calendar and thought you have to do the work yourself on setting up goals, etc.. But that is fine, I can do that!!

My golas are:

1. To lose the twenty extra pounds

2. Eat only organic exclusively

3. Do daily exercise

4. Meditate daily

I want to keep these simple I usually go overboard, not this time. simple stuff I can do!

Today I will eat organic produce, and organic vegetable broth, organic yogurt with fruit an organic cereal. Tonite I will have Organic spelt pasta with organic turkey burgers and organic tomato sauce. Also eziekel sprouted bread with garlic and parmesan. Then Organic fruit smoothie.. snack before bed with organic yogurt.

30 push ups,

30 squats

50 situps

I have been more aware of my eating but what is eating me is a different story…I have been doing push ups everyday, and walking and trying to get back into the excersize game…But the food thing this weekend was crazy.. ate consciously at the beginning of our trip, then fell so far off the wagon could not have cared… Extreme miss thaz me.. Welcome to my world, or really probably a zillion women do this type of eating….

But then came home and yesterday I had a new resolve….I ate mostly fruit and yogurt, and for dinner I had a wonderful seafood stew I made and a few organic crackers, and small amount of dip… I ate really well yesterday.. No sweets , no bread….

Downloaded a few new apps on my iTouch…200 situps, 200 push ups, and 200 squats, they help you start slow and keep track of how many you do and a history. I did 30 squats, 20 push ups, and no situps, today I will do situps too.. It is how I actually like to work out simple yet effective…

I am going on a road trip in two weeks and my goal is to eat as consciously as possible, and a simple workout I could do anwhere.

I also have Lose it, a App that is great for reporting your daily intake and shows you how many calories… Will come in useful on the road trip…And of course if I used it today..

I am making plans to go on the Master Cleanse this week.. I have some tummy issues that need to be cleared up…I have done it before for like half a week.. A few times and it worked well.. I have to watch though my low blood sugar…

Found a website that is doing a Green Detox Challenge, here is some of the info, and the link below….

http://www.organicauthority.com/blog/organic/the-green-club-detox-challenge/

Have you ever thought about doing the Master Cleanse or Lemonade Cleanse but didn’t have the courage to do it? Well…here is your chance! I am launching the Green Club Detox Challenge. Join me as I and other members of the Green Club bond together in support of each other as we tackle the Master Cleanse. What is it? Beginning Monday July 13th, we are launching the 10 day Green Club Detox Challenge complete with a community blog! We are having our first free introductory Green Club Detox Challenge telecall, Wednesday July 8th, 5pm pacific time to prepare you for the cleanse. If you are ready to snap your metabolism back into shape, kick up your energy and lose a few pounds and detox your body this summer (which is very healing for the body), after a big food filled 4th of July holiday, this is for you! The suggested length of time is for 10 days. I will be doing it for 10 days along with my husband, and I hope you will to!

I have been on this road before.. The journey is familiar, I know it oh so well.. I choose to stay on track today. And eat healthy, live healthy and put healthy vibes into me…. I am going to walk the doggies today. Another 1 1/2 miles yah for me! I have a app that shows how many steps I take and how many calories I burn.. I hate mentiong it cause then I don’t do it, so shhhh.. lets not chat about it any longer……

I have been good though about doing 15 push ups a day.. Not easy but getting easier.. I know they really do tone your arms!!!!

I am chosing to eat healthy today and make this a day of beautiful food on my plate. I did have some wonderful seedless watermelon from Traders Joe… YUMMMMMMMY! I add Himalayan Salt to it..

I also had a organic banana with organic sunflower butter (like peanut butter only sunflowers) that was tasty too. I don’t like to deprive myself of healthy and yummy food if I do I just fall backwards….

I tend to graze with my eating habits.. I am sure that is not the only thing I do, I eat my feelings, I eat junk and on and on…… Geez no wonder I need to lose 20 pounds.. I can’t even look  at the scale.. Scares me.. I am not alone, but feel alone on this rollercoasting of food addiction…

I have a small workout room at my complex, am thinking about starting to use the treadmill, it’s just that I have two doggies and If I am going to walk then I would rather take them for a walk…..

Working toward a balanced life in all areas….