Ok, so I went home last friday and I was able to stay mostly on track. I even turned down an offer to go out to eat at one of my favorite places. I struggled more since I was back at home (the house I grew up in) and there is food EVERYWHERE!!! All in all I was able to stay the same… no loss but no gain either so I couldn’t be too disappointed.

Then yesterday came and I buckled. My SO wanted to go out for lunch and while I drank water and only ate 1/2 of my meal I then felt like I deserved to splurge these last few days with him and I bought ice cream. To top off a bad day I didn’t run either. The scale this morning 137.0 (*gag*) oh well, I did it to myself and I know exactly why.

Unfortunately i’m on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster right now…2 more days with SO before I move 7+ hours away and I broke down again. Dairy queen created this horrible (yet oh so good) dessert called the Oreo Brownie Earthquake… I ate it and loved it. Then I came home and made myself look up the calories online and add it to my daily total. It was…. 760 calories *cringes* yup… over 1/2 of what I allow myself a day and I’m not dumb i know they are bad calories too. To try to salvage the day I only ate a little mashed potatoes for dinner and then I ran 2.5 miles and pushed really hard beating my best time by a full minute and a half. (granted it has been a while since I’ve timed myself) I ended up finishing approx. 2.5 miles in 24 minutes and 31 seconds. WOOO HOOO…. then I tried not to collapse ha ha ha. Now I feel much better. I know come morning I probably won’t have lost anything but I don’t expect to have gained either. Back on the wagon I go…