Maintaining…

Posted shamrockmoon on August 7th, 2011 | Filed under Uncategorized | Comment now »

I know that I should be happy that I am maintaining my weight at this difficult time.  But I am not.  Ok…maybe a little.  I know that my eating isn’t as good as it should be…that is my own fault…and old habits die hard sometimes.  But I have been getting in some exercise…more than I was doing on my own. 

Besides the medical stuff going on with my mom, I have a few of my own issues that I am trying to work out.  My coping skill has always been eating.  I have been trying my best to do something else to distract me first…if i am still thinking about the food later…i will give in & eat it…most times i don’t want it.  That isn’t the best strategy in the world but at least I pause a moment.  I haven’t done that in the past.  If it popped in my head…I had to have it.


Stress

Posted shamrockmoon on July 13th, 2011 | Filed under Uncategorized | 2 Comments »

I do not cope with stress well.  I am a creature of habit.  I like things to stay pretty much the same with minimal change.  So when something happens out of the blue…it stresses me out.  For example, my mother was just diagnosed with a brain tumor & was operated on last week.  (side note: she is doing fine).  But I coped with it by eating way too much at the hospital cafeteria.  Which by the way has really really good food for a small price.  Although, I did maintain this week…It had to be all the walking I did…because I was shoveling it in pretty steady.  I knew what I needed to do & what I should be doing but its like my mind took over.  I need to be more “in the moment” & be aware of what I am doing & stop my thinking & re-frame it.  So I make healthy choices.  Being stuffed & miserable isn’t going to help me when I need to take care of my mother.  I need to learn to take care of me first so that i can be there for others.


Grocery Shopping

Posted shamrockmoon on July 4th, 2011 | Filed under Uncategorized | Comment now »

I always dread going to the grocery store.  Too much to choose from, too much temptation, & a bunch of lies.  So many foods are disguised as good for you.  And even though I am a very large person…I am a picky eater.  I just like all the bad foods…LOL.  My great uncle use to have a saying, “If you put it in your mouth & like it…spit it out…its probably not good for you.”  (He had high blood sugar, high blood pressure, & high cholesterol - just as I do).  I truly understand that philosophy….I am not a veggie or fruit lover.  I am a carb lover.  I could live my life on bread, pasta, & potatoes. 

So today I went in Food Lion with my handy dandy list & filled my basket with good for you foods.  I am shooting for approximately 1200 calories daily.  Low carb meals that are easily prepared.  I am not big on cooking or staying in the kitchen for long periods of time.  I work long hours 6 days a week.  Luckily I do have my own home gym.  I will be shooting for 10-15 minutes of exercise a day.  Nothing major at the moment.  Baby steps.  In the past, I have jumped in with both feet & have burned myself out.  So I am just starting with small little tweaks at a time.


Insanity…

Posted shamrockmoon on July 3rd, 2011 | Filed under Uncategorized | Comment now »

“The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results”.  ~Albert Einstein~

This word pretty much describes my life up until now.  I have been continuously doing the same things over & over again…whether it be diet/health wise, financially, or emotionally.  Its no wonder that very few good things have come out of it.  But that is all going to start changing.  Tomorrow is my Independence Day….I am going to re-claim my life…one baby step at a time.