Shall We Shrink??

Today is a MUCH better day!! I had to get up early to take the hubby to work so I could keep the car (how the hell do people do this one car thing?! I am OVER it!). I ended up at the farmer’s market by 7 and got that out of the way. They had no honeydew and the pineapple was expensive (I bought one anyway), but the watermelon was CHEAP and it is SO good! I actually got so much I ran out of containers for it, so I tried a new recipe for watermelon lemonade. It was a last minute thing, so I didn’t have fresh lemon, only the bottle kind, and it was ok, but with fresh lemons? It would be delish! I am also still addicted to Greek yogurt, I just wish it weren’t so expensive. It’s like 2 bucks per serving. I got the cheapest strawberries, too, so I got a ton of them and has some in my yogurt with a little honey. YUM! Tonight the hubbs is having a couple Marines over for dinner and I am making lasagna (and sneaking in spinach and zucchini… shhhhh don’t tell!) with french bread and strawberry shortcake for dinner. My mouth is already watering. I heart lasagna.

I did almost 5 miles this morning (at least I think, I need to map it), and I would say I ran a third of it. It is SO hard to push that jogging stroller and try to maneuver it simultaneously. UGH. But, I got a great workout. Looking forward to tonights walk, too. I am trying to lose 3 pounds this week, which is totally doable if I can keep the food in check. Should be easy now that I have decent food.

Happy Wednesday, chickies!

B: oatmeal, brown sugar, blueberries, and a hardboiled egg
S: balance bare bar
L: greek yogurt, honey, strawberries, and some watermelon
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D:

Oh, and hungry4achange, yes, I still wear my bodybugg and yes, I still love it. It holds me accountable and makes me aware. I do wear mine all the time, except for in the shower and sometimes at night when I sleep, but I think there are places you can rent them and just use for a month or so to tweak your workouts and get a feel for what you should be doing. I pretty much have my body figured out now, and I don’t think I have had mine for even 4 weeks.

Well today was weigh in, and I lost… nothing. I mean, I didn’t gain either, so that is good, but I was going to make this week MY week. Instead? I didn’t even log my food for like 3 days. We shopped all day on Sunday and so we ate out like twice (and once was BAD), then we had a party that night and I drank pina coladas and ate all the wheat thins plus dip, cheese, turkey I made for everyone else. Not to mention Saturday… bbq for lunch, some peanut m&m’s at the movie (Ice Age in 3D… pretty cute although a few questionable things were in it… try explaining what he meant by “turning t-rex into t-rachel” to a little kid. OY!) So, in conclusion, I only have myself to blame. I knew I was doing it, but I did it anyway. Oh, and of course, I hardly walked during those days either. Yesterday though I made a vow to be back, and I was! I ate really well and walked/ran in the morning and then took a short walk with the hubbs at night, plus took the boys swimming in the afternoon. I’m just going to focus on one day at a time. No more eating everything I burn!!

So we got new space saving beds at Ikea, for really great prices. I’m pretty stoked about that. And I bought some new dishes at Crate & Barrel and some silverware. Other than a few things, I think project declutter is just about done! I need to go through the boys bedrooms one more time and weed out any clothes that are too small or too old and get rid of them, and then I need to buy them new clothes for the fall. We’re getting so close. In just 2 weeks and 3 days we’ll be totally out of this house and on vaca til we leave. We’re thinking Disneyland will be a good place for a few days, and maybe going north to san francisco to sight see too. We’ll see. AND, my sisters are going to be here in 10 days, and then we’re off to Vegas, where my BFF is flying in to meet us for girls weeked! yay!

Alright, I need to go for my walk. 

B: oatmeal, brown sugar, blueberries, and a yogurt
S: rachels cottage cheese, cheese stick, part of lil man’s donut (WHY?)
L: turkey wraps
S: here goes… snickers energy bar, hardboiled egg, coconut ice bar, and some of lil man’s ritz crackers (GROSS!)
D: open faced tuna sandwich

So here I am at dinner time, and I have to eat something low calories because somehow in the last few days of being bad I have reverted back to my nasty, snacky ways. I am so mad at myself. Luckily I have been really active today, so I am not just sitting here eating. I think this is a self sabotage I have going on. I read an article about it the other day, and it was like they were writing about me. GRRRRR I was doing so well with my eating. I guess I will always be effed up. Another problem though, that isn’t my fault, is that we are out of healthy snacks here! I sold my car so we are a one car fam now, and the hubby had stuff to do for work today so he kept the car, meaning I couldn’t go to get any fresh fruits and veggies. I really eat a lot of fruit, and by a lot I mean both often and in large amounts! Luckily fruit is pretty low calorie. So tomorrow morning? I am going to get honeydew, watermelon, and pineapples for sure. I need them! I might go on a walk with the boys in a bit. I wanted to wait for the hubby, but he is still working and he probably won’t feel like a walk anyway as he had a long, crappy day. Boo!

I’ll update later, but I thought this was an enlightening article…

http://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=106268439

Yesterday was a good day… I was riding high on my weight loss so far and the world was a great place. Until… I spied the tortilla chips. I had this crazy mad craving for them, and I had some homemade guac from the weekend in the fridge. So, I ate. And ate. And didn’t measure anything. GRRRRRRRR And it was right after lunch, like only an hour. My belly hurt and I didn’t end up making dinner til nearly 8pm, after our walk, cause I was so stuffed. I do NOT want to do that again Good news is that with my 2 walks, I still had a 1000 calories deficit for the day, and that is what I aim for.

Today I want to get my AM walk in early (if that dang 6yo would ever get up!) because I have to go get my TB test checked, get the oil changed in my car and clean it (as it will be leaving me Friday morning… thanks for the 6 months, car!) and then the boys have dental appointments this afternoon. I don’t want a busy day to come between my walks! I only have two and a half weeks before my sisters are here and we are going to Vegas (damn it, it is going to happen! I am sick of missing out, and I want to go before I am 30!!), so I need to be in perfect little black dress form. I have noticed the chub on my outer thighs (aka saddlebags. ewwww) is going away! My inner thighs? They need some love for sure. Right now I am just going to concentrate on losing the bulk, and then I’ll try to shape it out later. I have so much muscle mass that I can do that and I’d still look toned! I keep saying I want to get back into pilates, but I never do it. I lost my favorite dvd (the hardest one in the history of the world, I swear it!) and I can’t remember who it is by, just what the cover looks like. Maybe I should just spend an hour on Amazon and get it. It toned me up so nicely, without all the bulk.

Okay, I need to go send my 4yo in to wake up the 6yo. Yes it’s 6:46 and summer break, but I’m evil like that! muahahahaha

B: oatmeal, soy protein, 50g banana
S: balance bar, venti nf latte
L:black bean wraps (2), pineapple, watermelon
S:snickers nutrition bar, fage strawberry yogurt (YUM!)
D:
water: 50 oz

exercise: 1 hr walk AM

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OMG, been on the go all day and I am so exhausted!!! Been trying to get the car ready for the in laws to take home on friday. It’s clean, armour-all’d, and oil changed. I also went to the store and got them healthy road trip food. How nice am I? And I did all that in between going to the Naval hospital and taking the men to the dentist. I am hard core. And… I bought frozen pizza for dinner. HA! I am wayyyyy to tired to cook. I’m still debating whether or not I’ll partake of the pizza. We’ll see how my walk tonight goes. I have already reached my calorie burn for today =]

And… down 2 more pounds! I can’t even believe it. I am doing nothing but eating healthy and walking. It seems too easy. I keep having to fight the urge to run or to weight train. I feel like I should be doing more, but really, if this is how my body responds then I’ll stick with it. It’s just hard to break old habits. I took yesterday off from exercise all together, but still met my calories burned target and my physical activity target. The only one I didn’t hit was the step target, and I got in almost 7000 steps so it’s not like I didn’t move all day. We went to the mall and the saleslady at the Bobbi Brown counter was apparently too involved in a conversation to help me (she really looked at me and held up her finger, telling me to wait a minute) and that put me in a bad mood. I just left. And then I couldn’t find dishes I liked, except expensive Fiestaware and I am not willing to invest in that just yet since the 4 year old occasionally THROWS his plate/bowl in the sink still. Really I think I was just mad about snotty chick still and not open minded. So I skipped the nightly walk to snuggle up to some good A&E, Intervention and Obsessed, and can you say rerun?! UGH. I tried to wait up for obsessed and I couldn’t make it. I need a dvr.

I took a long walk today to make up for yesterday, and I am about to leave to go run a few errands. Hopefully I will be back by lunch time, as yesterday was torturous. If it warms up I am going to surprise the boys with an afternoon swim =]

Have a great day, chickies!

B: oatmeal, brown sugar, blueberries and a hardboiled egg
S: yogurt, watermelon, pineapple
L: Amy’s black bean and corn enchiladas, honeydew, pineapple
S:copious amounts of chips and guac (gag)
D: blueberry pancakes (the lower cal/fat kind)
water: lots

exercise: hour long walk AM, almost hour long PM

It’s actually nice to not think of a title every day. I guess it really is the little things…

Today has been crazy, busy, hectic, and to top it off I am so tired! I could not fall asleep last night. I had to go to the Naval hospital and get immunizations and pick up the boys signed oversea’s screenings. I decided to pick up the boys paperwork first since I knew after a tetanus shot I wouldn’t want to hang out in pediatrics waiting. Well, they lost them. And it took an hour of running from dept to dept to find them. And? They were filed in the wrong place. UGH. So then off to my shots and now my deltoid hurts and I have a weird mark on my forearm from my tuberculosis test, too. The boys wanted to take me to get donuts to make me feel better! So cute. I, however, restrained because I was thinking about how good I felt the other night when I slipped on that sexy little black dress. I want to only put good stuff in my body! After, I had to go pay for hubby’s car registration (which was LATE and he just gave me the notice… grrrrrrrr) and then to get an updated base decal. What does that mean? LONG lines. So it is now almost 1 in the afternoon, we are all starving, and I need to hurry to make it to the farmers market. I ate a protein bar I had stashed and went through the McD’s drive thru for the men. I made it through the shopping and came home to make a sandwich with yogurt, a kiwi, and banana. I ate more than normal, but it was healthy and I know it was because I was starving. I’m proud I skipped the fast food again. I’m feeling a little smug So now everything is chopped and clean and I am waiting for the hubbs to get home so we can run errands together. I saw some dishes at the mall I want his opinion on. I’m sure we’ll eat dinner out, but I am determined to make the best choice possible. Tomorrow is weigh in day, so my scale will finally appear again, hopefully!

B: oatmeal, brown sugar, blueberries and a hard boiled egg
S: snickers energy bar
L: pb&honey sammy, banana, kiwi, yogurt
S: 250g watermelon
D: footlong sub. seriously. it was good! I skipped the cheese and mayo, so that cancels out eating the other 6 inches =]
S: tea & biscotti
water: I need more! probably about a liter so far
exercise: yeah, about that…

I want to weigh myself. Seriously, I almost bought a book on addiction today. I’m sure I could relate it to my dependance on the approval of the mighty scale. I have noticed that without it I am feeling better about myself and noticing other things… like my arms are getting much more toned and less like wings. Maybe no scale is a good thing…

We were going to garage sale again today, but decided we didn’t care enough! We’ll Goodwill the rest of it. With hubby’s bonus (yes, he is actually going to get it, YAY!) we’ll need the extra deduction for our taxes anyway. And of course it feels good to donate things

We took a long walk this morning, and we’ll take another tonight as part of a deal I made with the hubbs who wants to have a lazy day and read. I needed a starbucks and a new book so we went to B&N and got both, plus there was a Ross right across the street and hubsy needed more walking shorts so I stopped in and got cheapo Nike shorts. Cheap makes me happy. Then the guys HAD to have Burger King, because there are Transformer toys there, that’s why. So I gave in, but as I looked at the menu, nothing even remotely appealed to me, so I passed and had a pb & honey sammy and a yogurt when we got home. Yay for passing up junky saturated fat filled food! Now we are about to start book fest 09.

Hope all you chickies are having a great weekend!!

B: oatmeal, blueberries, brown sugar, and a hard boiled egg
S: venti non fat latte
L: pb & honey sammy, rachels wickedly delicious (she wasn’t lying! yum!) yogurt
S: none, I took a nap instead!
D: leftover chili, some guac and chips
S: new coconut green tea and a biscotti
tons of water!

Exercise, am & pm walks

So in honor of my lucky number 19 (and because the hubby won’t give up the super secret location of the scale and I am a little obsessive) I decided to try on some old clothes and see where I was at. I have been feeling really thin today for some reason (probably because the hubby won’t tell me where the scale is!). And, drumroll please, some of it fits! I mean, some is still like HA, not a chance, but I look pretty sexy in some of those dresses! I am so relieved to know that when my sisters get here I’ll have a little black dress to rock that looks amazing. w00t, w00t!

Today was a really crazy, really long day. We had the garage sale so that meant getting up early and setting up. That was fun (suuuuuure). The we closed up around noon, went to the bank, and then to lunch at my favorite buffet. And do you know what? I showed restraint. Like massive restraint. But, only because everyone there was like seriously overweight. It made me sad for them. I wanted to give them a lesson in nutrition and let them know the nutrition values of what they were eating. It was kind of like a drunk who was recovering going into a bar and it being a sobering experience. Something clicked and I feel like I kind of just get it. Food cannot be a reward. It just can’t. It’s not positive! It’s self destructive. Pedicures, jewelry, clothes, running shoes… those are rewards. Now if I can just keep riding this I heart myself train so I don’t choose to be self destructive… After lunch we went to Crate & Barrel to buy some new dishes, but I didn’t love anything so the search continues. I have to fid some soon cause I sold mine today at the garage sale! I was just so over them! I am on a plain kick… everything white. Or at least neutral. At least in the kitchen (says the girl with the brightest quilt ever lying across her lap). Then we had dinner and a family walk to end the day. Perfection!

B: oatmeal, brown sugar, blueberries, a hard boiled egg
S: plum, snickers nutrition bar
L: greek salad, chicken tortilla soup, banana muffin, mini frozen yogurt cone
S: yogurt
D: pb & honey sammy & rachels cottage cheese (my new addiction)
S: gonna be green tea and a biscotti

SO now I’m off to watch Revolutionary Road with the hubby. Night chickies!

Well, my weight went down a little but it is still up from Tuesday. I am not going to stress over it, even though internally I kind of am. I mean, this weight loss is too good to be true… I have tried everything and nothing works so now that this is working I am afraid it is going to stop. I need to get over it. And get over my love and need for approval from the scale. Whatev. It’s so ridiculous. I know that I have kicked ass overall. Yes, the sushi day I went over, but I still had a good deficit. Yesterday I was good. I am just going to try to be the healthiest I can be and hope that weight loss follows. So, I ended up making walnut crusted salmon last night because I was out of plain yogurt, and it was pretty good. It’s from Clean Eating magazine. Has anyone read that? I want to buy one and see if I love them. It costs more to subscribe to stuff in Japan, so I am trying to be choosy so as not to break the bank. I just feel so much better when I eat REAL food, stuff I make myself and understand the ingredients in. I hate guessing.

In other news, I was telling the hubby about my walk yesterday, and he wanted to do it again for our nightly walk! wtf?! He wanted to see how hard it was to push the stroller up, so I told him I would push it until it got to the steep part and then he had to and he agreed. So, off we went. It was a great walk! So much better without the stroller there at the top, although I was still out of breath! I think I am going to do the usual walk today in the morning and then force myself to come home and get this house in order. I still haven’t cleaned out the closets, nor have I done laundry in almost a week. wtf is wrong with me?! I don’t feel motivated in the least. I have however sold a ton of crap and been running around to meet people halfway and such. That totally should count for something.

I think I am making blueberry pancakes for dinner tonight. I have a simple, mostly healthy recipe and I have been craving some syrup. Who knows.

B:oatmeal, brown sugar, blueberries and a hard boiled egg
S: rachels wickedly delish cottage cheese
L: mcd’s cheeseburger & apple dippers
S:balance bare, plum, bite of oatmeal raisin cookie
D:
water: already started. *I’m 3 bottles deep now, so almost 70oz.

Exercise: 50 min walk-AM

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I have been going nonstop all day trying to get ready for the garage sale. I have a headache that I got about this time yesterday afternoon that just won’t go away. UGH. I took ibuprophen last night and an aleve this morning, but I hate taking medicine so I’m not sure if I should take anything else. All I know is I am miserable. Managed to pick up a Clean Eating mag while out and about this afternoon, I made up some chili for dinner and it is on the stove simmering, so I may just lie in bed and red all afternoon til hubbsy gets home @6:30ish…

So last night? Sushi debauchery. As in dinner was almost 1000 calories. So needless to say I went over on my calories. Luckily I took the hubby along for a walk before we left to go, so I still ended the day with a decent deficit. I am trying to do a little extra today to make up for it. My bright idea? Take the boys, in the double stroller, up and down the mountain we live on top of. Oh. My. Gosh. That was not one of my brightest ideas. That stroller is effin HARD to push regularly, but nearly straight uphill? Damn near impossible. I was behind it with my arms all the way extended, pushing as best as I could. It felt like doing mountain climbers on the ground, that’s how far extended my body was. So, needless to say, I got a great morning walk in! I went a little more after I was done with that to make it an hour long, and of course I’ll be doing a walk tonight, too. We’ve already eaten lunch, so as long as I keep my snack in check and stick to salmon for dinner (since I didn’t make it yesterday) I should be good. Speaking of, I am looking up your sauce now, brseay. Thanks for the tip It’s only noon… I should have held off on lunch until a little later, but I am SO hungry lately. I don’t know what is up with me. Usually I only get like this before my period, but it is still 2 weeks away. ARGH! My sisters will be here in 3 weeks and 1 day and I don’t want to get derailed before then. These are the last pics we’ll take together for THREE years!! I cannot be the fat one in them, I just can’t.

B: oatmeal, brown sugar, blueberries, and yogurt
S: rachel’s cottage cheese and a kiwi
L: la tortilla factory tortilla with some turkey, cheddar cheese, and dijon mustard, watermelon, strawberries, and a cheesestick.
S: Balance bar
D: walnut crusted salmon, broccoli, black beans with spicy tomato salsa, romaine and balsamic
s: clif bar after walk, and popcorn in bed
Water: A crap ton!!! The scale didn’t like sushi night so I am trying to flush myself out… literally and figuratively, I suppose.

Exercise: 1 hr walk-AM, same walk with hubby only 40min-PM