Shall We Shrink??

Well I finally got a little scale love today. woot, woot! I am almost back to where I was a week or so ago before 3 pounds mysteriously appeared, for no good cause. Now if it would just keep going down 3 pounds a day for the next week… I’d call it good! Alas, I am sure that’s not gonna happen I did well on the food yesterday, but it seemed like I was eating ALL day long. I was so hungry! That seems to always happen to me when I don’t work out mid morning. Good thing I have boot camp today, so no worries there. I think my son is well enough to go… he hasn’t been coughing or running a fever and he is running around like usual. I hope this doesn’t make him feel worse. It is foggy and damp outside. We don’t have to leave for 30 minutes, so maybe it will clear up a little before then.

A few years ago I was diagnosed with Sjogren’s. I got really, really sick on a trip and went to an ER somewhere in Kansas after a few days of torture (we were road tripping from North Carolina to St Louis and then home to Oklahoma). My salivary glands were so swollen I couldn’t eat or drink. I looked like a bull frog. The ER told me to go home and see my regular doc. So, I did and they ran tests and sent me to a rheumatologist and decided it was Sjogren’s. And they gave me 5 bazillion pills to take, and steroid shots (which helped to add some weight), and I did not like it. I have no genetic predisposition to this disease, I don’t fit the demographics for it, and I don’t want it! So, I did research and decided I had the mumps, as there was an outbreak in Boston and I had flown through there, plus I was allergic to the MMR vaccine as a baby, so I only had 1/2 of 1 dose, and you should have 3. So I stopped all off the medicine and I haven’t taken anything or had any problems… til recently. One of the characteristics of Sjogren’s is dry everything, and I have that. My eyes are gritty and hurt when I try to read at night. I wake up in the middle of the night with my mouth so dry my tongue is stuck to the top. And I am tired, and achy. And I do not want to have this stupid disease. Grrrrrr Hubby was really upset when I stopped taking the medicine, but when I stayed ok for so long he relented. Now he is bugging the crap out of me to go to the doc. We’ll see. I need to do more research. Anyone familiar with Sjogren’s? It’s in the same family as Lupus and Rheumatoid Arthritis, and has a lot of the same symptoms.

In other news, I have a ton of overly ripe bananas, as I am cutting them from breakfast, so I am going to make a homemade banana pudding. No jello! Ick! It’s an old recipe and YUMMY! I’m going to lighten it up a little bit, but not too much.

Happy Wednesday, chickies!
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Well, I have another 53 minutes knocked off the SB challenge, and let me just tell you… it was HARD earned! Bootcamp was crazy this morning, and I am so glad I went. My HR got up to 197. Is that even possible? It was sprint and squat day apparently. I am worn out. Thank goodness today is Wednesday. The boys get out of school early so I am going to take a bath and do nothing this afternoon! I’m getting another Big Love dvd from Netflix today, so it must be fate. I am so addicted to that show. I’m almost done with season 1. I am going to try to ride the bike (after adjusting the seat!) for a little bit tonight. Maybe half an hour or so. I don’t watch tv tonight, but I can bring my dvd downstairs

I’m going to try to make a tofu stirfry for dinner tonight. I need to run to the farmers market and get some more veggies. I also need to look up a recipe. I have never used tofu before. I have eaten it, just not coked it myself. We’re trying to incorporate more vegetarian meals into our diet, so I guess I’ll learn. I bought smooth (maybe put it into a soup? not sure yet) and extra firm (for tonight). I’ll let you know.

Oh how I miss home today. This is my brother and my holiday. We always act a crazy fool! But, it is probably better that I am not there, as drinking to excess is not good for a diet And, this day 13 years ago is the day that a really, really good friend of mine passed away in a car accident. We had just learned how to drive. It was a horrible, horrible day. So he is in my thoughts, too, today. My oldest son is named after him, and it is funny how he has certain personality traights that remind me of him. Funny how that works. My brother loved him, too, so our hanging out on this day is kind of theraputic, too. They say everything happens for a reason, so when he passed away I tried to find a reason, something I could learn from it so it wouldn’t be in vain, and he wasn’t wearing a seat belt so I ALWAYS wear a seat belt… no matter what! Enough depressing stuff.

Today is going to be a challenge, as I am hosting my 1st graders party at school, and we got lots of delicious junk for it, but I am going to stay strong. I do love the cookies we got, but not as much as I love looking and feeling great. I need to just keep telling myself that.

Since I did weights and intervals yesterday, I think I am going to do a steady, easy run today. I wish lil man felt better so we could do it outside, but he doesn’t. I got a cute lil Adidas green shirt for my workout today, and now no one will see it but me. Boo! I got in only 15 minutes on the bike last night. Of course 13 minutes in lil man wakes up and was hungry and thirsty and needing to snuggle. I held him off 2 minutes because I HATE having random numbers of exercise. Weirdo, I know. So I am up to 75/250 for the challenge. I am going to aim for 45 minutes on my run, and then maybe 15 minutes on the bike after. We’ll see. The bike makes my arse hurt! Maybe I am just positioned wrong or something, but sheesh! Lord knows I have plenty of padding back there…

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Well the party is over, and it was meh. His teacher was sick today! Boo! And there was a sub that was creepy. So, I cut it short. But it was still fun and I think the kids enjoyed it… even if it just meant listening to me instead of the creepy sub for half an hour I ate some soup before I left so my belly would be full, and then had a snack as soon as I got home so I wouldn’t be tempted to eat those damn cookies! They are the soft, squishy sugar cookies. mmmm. I am proud to say that I did not eat any, and I promptly sent most of the leftovers back to work with the hubbs (who stayed home for lunch to watch lil man nap), the rest I am saving for the 10 year old, since they are his fav. I sent cookies to school with him, too, but there weren’t enough of that kind left at the store for his class to take them so he had to settle for shortbread. He has almost 30 kids in his class and my 1st grader doesn’t even have 20! Crazy. So I promised him I would save a few for him. I have yet to work out, but I did finish the laundry. I need to hop on the treadmill while the lil one is asleep, but honestly I am not feeling it in the least. I think I am going to put it off til after dinner and then head out for a run just before dark. Yep, that is the new plan. My 3 mile neighborhood route will give me 30 minutes or so, and I can bike while TBL is on tonight so I at least get 60 minutes. Don’t want to lose this challenge

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Alright, I totally forgot my son had a dr appt at 5:15 so by the time we got home it was almost 7 and I still had to make dinner. I decided to skip the run and just do the bike. I rode for 45 minutes and went almost 12 miles. I think I have the seat positioned wrong or something, because the faster I go, the faster my butt and girly bits go numb, and that is no fun. I am going to try to readjust the seat before I ride tomorrow night.

Night, chickies!

My 3 year old has been sick for the last few days, and this morning it is even worse. I think it’s just a nasty cold, but the hubby wants me to take him to the doc just to be sure. So, I will. I feel so sorry for him. They outlawed all the sudafed-type stuff for little ones, so when he gets congested there is nothing to give him. Of course the only appointment they could get us is at 1:45 and the Naval Hospital is a good 20 minute drive. Which wouldn’t be a problem except his brothers get out of school at 2:55. I hope this is a fast appointment. I hate cutting it close like that.

In other news, I am not going to bootcamp now. So the new plan is to workout if and when I can get him down for a nap. The problem with that is that the hubby will probably come home for lunch and disrupt me. I hate people talking or moving around me when I am working out at home. It’s so distracting. At the gym it’s fine because I don’t know them, but at home I always think they are talking to me so I am constantly taking of my headphones and saying “huh? what?!” and that is annoying. Maybe I can get him to lie down and watch cartoons. He feels like poop though, and asks for a drink about every 5 minutes. Oh well. At some point today I will lift weights and do cardio, and tonight I will ride the bike for one episode of Intervention. Oh yeah, love tv night =]

I was doing some reading last night and I am recommitting myself (for the 5 billionth time) to clean(er) eating. It just needs to happen. I mean, half of my calories from cookies yesterday? What am I? 12?! Have I no sense? I would never let the boys do that. No wonder I felt like crap… I needed fuel and I gave myself cookies. So sick. Anyway, I am going to pay more attention to what I eat and the proper serving size of it. I’m making a new page where I’ll record everything I eat. I hate doing that because it is double work as I already log it, but I am thinking if everyone sees it I will be less apt to eat complete crap. Maybe not, but hopefully so. Also, even though I am gluten free now, I notice I am still eating a ton of carbs. I am going to try to curb that, too. I started by giving up my morning banana this morn. Boo! But it must be done. I am stuck at this weight, and I have been for a long time. I can’t keep doing the same thing.

Here’s to another Monday morning!

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I am so not an advocate of television babysitting, but on this particular morning… thank you Nickelodeon! I managed to get in a kick ass workout. 61 minutes worth of running and weight circuits. Yay. And I have been behaving with food, though I am not sure what to do for dinner yet. Need to figure that out. Ok, just wanted to update my food and exercise. I have a hot date with the laundry for now…

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Took lil man to the doc and he has horrid allergies. They put him on allergy meds and also want me to watch him, as they think he might have asthma. NOOO! His dad has horrid asthma and I am the only one out of all of my siblings that doesn’t have it (which I hated growing up… I could have had an excuse to suck at sports!!). Poor lil man… He has been asleep since we got home. We ate dinner without him.

Speaking of dinner, I made yummy breakfast tonight. Gluten free pancakes taste and smell like sugar cookies. It’s kind of odd actually. The boys ate well, even after they found out their sausage was veggie =] I’m going to try to get on the bike tonight, so I saved a couple hundred calories for a snack after. I actually logged all my food today like a nice girl. Yay!

And, I got all my party shopping done. We aren’t allowed to make snacks for the boys school, so I bought cookies and juice tonight. I heart St. Patty’s Day! I can’t wait for the party tomorrow, but I hope it isn’t ruined by the lil one being sick. Maybe the hubbs can come home for a bit…

Have a great night, chickies!

Well can I just say, EPIC fail! I was right on in my calories until the movie, and then something possessed me to get a diet coke and a box of hot tamales. Ane that same thing helped me to eat them. As in the whole movie sized box. UGH. But, Paul Blart was actually kinda funny. I did an hour of cardio yesterday… 30 minutes on the bike and a run. The run was crap. I couldn’t do it for some reason. I took like 4 walking breaks. Not sure what the prob was, but I miss the days when I felt so kick butt. I did look freaking cute, though. I went shopping to get my son & hubby some new running shoes and passed the clearance rack… too many cute Adidas pants and tops, not to mention some Under Armour sports bras. New running clothes always makes me feel so good. I’m debating on whether or not to run today. I worked out every day last week, I think. Maybe that has something to do with the crummy run. I might just need a break. I guess I could just ride the bike for a bit. That doesn’t get my heart rate up too high.

In other news, I am addicted to soy protein powder. It rocks my face off. I don’t miss dairy at all (except for ice cream… soy ice cream blows!).

Happy Sunday, chickies!

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Well, epic was for sure the right word to use about today’s blog. UGH. I had roughly half of my calories (which, of course, were over) from cookies. Do not even get me started about the predatory nature of the beastly girl scout troop I ran into today. Oh. My. Gracious. SO I tried to make up for it by having a protein shake for dinner, while the hubby and boys went out. Like that EVER works. I ate some of the fries (from a place that makes them fresh every day… oh so good) and some of the blizzard. Yes, a butterfinger blizzard with 5 gazillion calories. And my run I was gonna go on as pennance? Now shot since my belly is aching. I think I have some sort of crossed wire in my brain. I cannot resist sugar. I have to have not had it for several days to be able to say no. I’m a junkie. It’s sick. Seriously sick.

I’m back on the wagon tomorrow. No excuses. I can’t complain about not losing weight when I eat like I have the past 2 days. Tomorrow morning is bootcamp, so that should get me started off on the right track.

In other news, my disgusting garage is clean! I cleaned and organized it before, then the hubby was going to “get rid of some stuff” and basically effed it all up and disorganized it (to the point that you couldn’t walk through it) in an effort to get some of the stuff he was gonna “get rid of.” Well, today I went through all the old baby clothes, baby furniture, and toys and we are donating all of it. I feel like a weight has been lifted. I really cannot stand clutter. And, everytime I get out the jogging stroller or our bikes I am SO embarrased if anyone looks. No more! I have a kick ass garage again. Yippee! =]

Night, chickies!

Well, I am sad to report that I ate goldfish last night, and too many of them at that. NASTY. Not even sure why I did it. I think I am just frustrated with my weight. And I see so many people lose it here so effortlessly that it pisses me off that I try so effin hard and get nothing. Like not even a little. I’m like an evolutionary dream… I would survive! ha! Anyway, today is going to be full of challenges, but I am going to meet them head on and not let yesterday or some retarded number on a scale get me down. Over it.

I bought a new food scale yesterday. Yay! Today I am going to do a little more shopping and some errands and my middle son is going with because we have to get all the stuff for his St Patty’s party. I’m so excited to be able to do this for him and his class. They appreciate it so much, which makes me want to make every party bigger and better. Speaking of class, California is run by an effing MORON! and they are laying off a ridiculous amount of teachers. I am SO over this! What the hell makes them think we have teachers to spare?? Last year my son’s Kindergarten teacher got layed off and they combined 2 Kindergarten classes. If that happens this year I will FLIP. Not even kidding. It’s bad enough that we live on a military base where the kids are forced to move around, and then on top of that every Spring they play musical chairs with the teachers because they are too stupid to properly budget? No. The state of California has hands down the worst management of money I have ever seen. Wow, how do you like that for an early morning soapbox?!

So tonight we are going to the movies. The boys have been dying to see Paul Blart: Mall Cop (yay for me) so we’re gonna have a family night. I plan on doing dinner right before and sneaking in carrots just in case I am tempted. The goal today is no sugar (well, added sugar…).

Happy Saturday, chickies!

Well today has been a day, that is for sure. It started off great. The boys were nice this morning, which is always a treat. I got a great workout in. I warmed up then ran a mile, did weights and abs, ran a mile, more weights and abs, and then ran a fast mile, followed by a cool down walk. It was actually fun! I was feeling really good. Then I did all of our bills and budgeting, made the hubby who couldn’t leave work a yummy lunch and packed a love note in it, then ran some errands with lil man, who behaved the whole time. I know, too good to be true. Then my BFF calls. And her boss is a jerk face. And even though she requested this time off like 2 months ago? It’s not gonna happen. So yeah, that blows. And she is sad cause her BF is deploying Sunday, which ultimately blows even more. And I feel so sorry for her BUT, the good news is that I am going to OWN the next Slump Buster challenge, as I’ll have no distractions, so boo ya!

My weight was a little better today, so maybe the gods are smiling on me and will return it to normal soon. One can hope, right? I have eaten well today, too, so I am just not gonna worry about it so much. Eileen is right, it’s just a damn number. And, can I just tell you, I totally got hit on in the bank. By a cute guy. And I was in workout gear, sans makeup. So I know it’s shallow, but it makes me feel better. I make chubby look good

Later, chickies!

Me, durr!

I finished the challenge for this week yesterday, so tonight I did goofy workout videos from the ondemand thing. I did Cardioke (did I spell that right?) with Billy Blanks Jr. and I did The Biggest Loser Cardio whatev. I tried a yoga video after those, but it made my knees hurt so I stopped. It was good cardio though and fun to be doing something different. The goal is to run tomorrow. It must be done. Also, I want to do some weight training, so maybe I’ll do another video for that. We shall see. But mark my words… I WILL run tomorrow!

So next week the challenge is 250 minutes Monday - Friday. And my BFF is in town all of those days. And 250 is a lot. Eek! But, I will get it done. For sure. Cause my weight? U-G-L-Y. Like wtf? ugly. I have no idea why. I stayed low on calories today to see if that might help. I am so not loving this bloaty nastiness that is my bod right now.

Night chickies!

I am so frustrated right now. I am still up about 3 pounds. Am I eating within my calorie range? Yes. Am I working out? Yes. Okay, so it’s bad enough that I’m not losing weight, why am I gaining? This is just frustrating. I had wanted to lose 5 pounds before my BFF got here, and I have effectively gained 3. It pisses me off that I do the right thing and get nothing for it. If this were a realtionship or a job, I would’ve been done! I am so ready to quit myself!

So yeah, eating yesterday was right on. I wanted to snack last night, but instead had green tea. All of my macronutrients were in check, too. Grrrrr

Okay, just got a phone call from a friend who is crying… her neck is hurt. I’m going over there stat.

Happy Thursday (or NOT!), chickies!
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Well, I am less pissy, though not by much! My friend is okay so that is good. My eating is good today, as I am pissy and not so much caring about food. I have yet to work out, but I am feeling like it is time for a pity party. I was looking to see what was on tv and checked out the on-demand channel… they have the coolest free workouts! Maybe it is a sign I should work out? So I thought I’d get on here and see if I could find some motivation. But, really I think I am sticking with the pity party. Wonder whats on the tube…

Just a quick check in before boot camp this morning… I am swamped today and may or may not ever make it back on here. UGH!

I ended up not running yesterday. I started on the laundry and then I ended up in a cleaning fest and my morning was gone. But, I did ride my new bike (LOVE it!) for 7 miles last night so I am only lacking 1 mile to have completed the challenge. I have bootcamp this morning, so challenge is pretty much done for. Now my personal challenge is to double it. We’ll see how that one goes

Eating… oi! I was a snacky lil thing yesterday, and I am not going to do that again today. Also, I didn’t track yesterday because I was all over the place, so I really don’t know what my totals are. I also don’t like that. Everything I ate was healthy, but there were lots of high calorie things, like pumpkin seeds (my new addiction). Thank GAWD I have been spared from the Girl Scout Cookies. They are the devil. That is one perk of having all boys and being anti-social!

Okay, I am off to completely annihilate myself. I still can’t use my legs properly. Can you say SHREDDED? Beauty is pain, right? Well then come on bikini bod.

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I am officially done with my challenge. Congrats to all you chickies who are done, too! Yay! Bootcamp kicked my ass. We had some new girls… all blonde and tiny, so I am still the odd man out. UGH. It really just gives me motivation. I will never look like them. But, I can be the best, most confident me.

I am right on in my calories today, and I am so snacky! I hope I make it through this!!!

Night!

I hobbled downstairs this morning, the lure of food the ONLY thing that could have made me do that. My legs are so sore!! You know what’s crazy? I have been thinking that my legs have become so strong with all the running. Apparently not squat/lunge strong. Ouch. I am really stoked to go again Wednesday. LOVE it! I love the idea of not knowing what I am going to be doing, it’s scary and it also makes me feel so accomplished at the end. Today I am going to drop the boys off at school and then hop directly on the treadmill. I am going to take an easy run day today, since yesterday was hard core and I’m sure tomorrow will be, too. I’m going to run 3 miles at precisely a snail’s pace. Well, maybe not quite that slow, but not any faster than 5.0. I am going to do a lot of cooking today, too. I want to make a soup that I can have for lunch everyday and not have to do anything. I’ve had a yummy salad the past two days, but I think I am almost out of romaine. And I need to incorporate the beef. Beef. Ick! Since hubby has class tonight and will be super rushed, I need to make dinner really early. Not sure what I’m making yet. Maybe chicken and broccoli. Oh, I totally forgot… tonight is my tv night! Woot! I found a used spin bike that I am thinking of buying. I’m going to look at it today. I would LOVE to have a bike here at the house for night time cardio while I watch the tube. I only watch 2 days a week, but at least I would feel less guilty about it. And I would have an alternative to running when I am not in the mood.

Eating yesterday was great. Weight? Not so great. For some reason I am up like 3 pounds. Not sure why, but not a fan. I think it might have something to do with the goodie drama, but I hope not. I am so OVER this. Yesterday I was cramping so bad, and my back hurt so much, that I literally had to go lie down for an hour. Ridiculous. I still have 6 weeks til surgery. I had to pick the last date she had available because everyone and their dog is coming to visit. AGHHHH. So, the weight goal is to keep eating healthy and to get my cardio in, and possibly ride, too, if I get the bike. I have GOT to lose some weight. Sheesh! I feel like I am working so hard and getting nothing for it. That is a total bummer.

On the Slump Buster front, can I just say… this shit talking is CRACKING me up! I am going to be halfway done after my run this morning, so I’m not skurred. Get ya some, chickies!