Shall We Shrink??

So on my way home I got a ticket for speeding, which was BS, but whatev. I don’t know if I told you the story or not, cause it was a crazy one. Anyway, I though the Highway Patrolman told me they would mail me something, just like the California Highway Patrol did when I got a ticket from them just two weeks before! AGHHHHH I hadn’t had a ticket in over 4 years, then two at once. Anyhow, I still haven’t recieved anything from them so I dig out the original and apparently I heard wrong because it was due one week after I got it, which is almost 3 weeks ago. Of course I discovered this at 4pm yesterday, which with the time change is after I could call them, so I have been stressing about it all night. How much is this gonna cost me?? I feel like my tickets are ruining Christmas, since without the fees they are almost $500. Does anyone else think it’s ridiculous to have a 10% over the speed limit ticket?? I know times are tough for governments, but taking money from underpaid government workers like me and the hubbs is SO not the way to go about reducing the budget shortfall. Okay, enough bitching.

Calories yesterday were a little low, under 1400 I think. I was too angsty to eat much last night. Today the lil man and I are going to run the 3ish miles up and down the mountain and then come home to start out weight training. Okay, mine. He’ll probably watch cartoons, although he does stretch with me

Happy Friday, chickies!

getupnow, just for you, I got online and ordered some presents from Discovery Channel’s website! They actually have awesome toys that the boys love! And, I was so inspired that I left work early and went for a run before I had to get the men. It was a 3 mile run, but there were a couple places I had to walk. I think I ran too soon after eating lunch because my side was hurting and that never happens to me. Yay for actually moving my lazy body!!!

I am SO over this week! Last night’s concert went great! Well, except for the fact that we didn’t get home til almost 10! That is soooo past my bedtime, and the boys for that matter. So, no workout yesterday and no run this morning. Grrrrrrr I really feel like I am derailing. I hate not running. Thankfully there are no extra-curricular activities scheduled for today, so I am going to either A. go to the gym or B. run and do some weight training. NO EXCUSES. Like the psychotic penguins say, “Don’t give me excuses! Give me results!” hahaha

Hope you all have a fab Thursday!

0.8 pounds. Seriously? Don’t you know I ran 4 miles straight?! I totally deserve like 9 pounds! haha Actually, a loss is a loss, and I’ll TAKE IT!

Can you believe Christmas is just around the corner?! I haven’t started shopping or decorating yet! I am SUCH a procrastinator. So, my husband found out yesterday that he has duty on Christmas. I know, it’s sad. However, he doesn’t have to go in until 7:30 on Christmas morning, so I am going to get up early and make a HUGE Christmas breakfast instead of dinner! We’ll get the boys up around 4:30 and do presents followed by our breakfast. I think that will be fine… at least he’ll get to enjoy the “Santa” time! My husband thought I would be upset, and to a point I am, but I just think about all of those families that have a parent deployed right now… that won’t be here at all. We are so lucky that we get to have him for a piece of the day. Really, we are so lucky to have each other at all, and that is what the holidays are about anyway… family. Plus, like I told him, I get to play all the new toys without sharing! muahahahaha

I stayed right on calories for yesterday, but never did get to work out. Yesterday was a CRAZY day. Since I couldn’t run in the morning I pretty much knew it would be that way. My oldest son had his first basketball game last night and amazingly enough scored 8 of their 22 points!! He was doing so GOOD! We definitely need to work on his dribbling! Actually we were going to do that the other day, but our ball is deflated and we lost the needle part of the pump! grrrrrr So anyway, back to exercise, none for today yet. I was going to get up and run this morning, but I had the gnarliest dream and I was so MAD at my husband in it that when he tried to wake me up I got so mad he left me alone!! So crazy, huh?? Tonight is my son’s first concert. Let’s put that expensive cello to good photographic use!! I’m definitely going to do SOMETHING after, though. Promise.

Happy Wednesday, chickies!!

So, I got up at the butt crack of dawn and headed out to get my RMR checked. Amazingly enough, it fell right in between where I have been dieting. Go figure. So, I am at this with a renewed vigor. It just feels so good to be working towards something with a definite goal. Know what else we discovered? Even though I was following my WW points, I wasn’t eating near enough calories. And, I wasn’t eating enough protein. I had suspected that for a while. So, I’m going to break out some of my old meal plans this weekend and tweak them. I’m also going to make a new workout schedule and 4 days a week I’ll be bringing back the weights. What the heck, it’s the best way to add muscle which increases my RMR, which means I’ll be able to eat more when I get to maintenance! hehe It’s always about the delicious food So, all in all, SUPER day so far. Well, with the exception of work. I am so over it. BLAH. I’m looking forward to my son’s first B-Ball game tonight, though, so that pushed me through! Go Grizzlies!

Hope you are all having a super Tuesday!

The fruit of insomnia is extra time for a great morning run! I logged in 3 hilly miles this morning, which puts me at around 10 miles in the last 3 days alone! Holy Guacamole! Running in my neighborhood is so much more challenging that I feel like I’m cheating when I go to the flat track.

I’m off to the job, where I hope I can stay awake! Hope you all have a fabulous day!!!

I can’t sleep. I have been lying in bed for the last hour thinking of nothing and everything. It’s too early to go running, so I thought I’d write down all that I am pondering…

I read the other day in one of those myspace surveys something that made me think. The question was: Have you ever been at a friends house and been starving but not said anything? And my friends reply was: yeah, I’ll admit it. Hmmm… I was reading that thinking, wow, and she is so thin. And then I thought, I was like that, too… unable to speak up if I was hungry all through junior high schoool and high school and even into college, even after I had my oldest son, because of my body issues. Crazy thing is, until I had my son (I gained almost 100 pounds during my pregnancy!), I was never big! I thought I was the grossest, fattest thing ever. It’s funny because all through school I was one of the pretty, popular girls, and everyone liked me. I was in show choir and musical productions, I was in all honor classes, and I was even a little athletic (if you use the term loosely!). I had boys telling me all the time how perfect I was. All of my girlfriends told me how lucky I was to be so smart and pretty and how they envied me. But that was never enough. Never even close enough to counter how I viewed myself. From the time I was a little girl, as far back as I can remember pretty much, my mother has been overweight. Scratch that, obese. She and I have similar frames and she weighs about 85 pounds more than I do right now, and seeing as how I have about 30 pounds to lose, it is safe to say even morbidly obese. She has never been happy. She married my stepfather when I was around 2, so they have been married for 27 years, and I don’t think one day of it was happy. Over Thanksgiving, my Dad gave me some picture of him and my mother and I was shocked! My mom was a knockout! She was a dinky lil thing, but totally in shape. Apparently she was like that until I was around 5, and then the unhappiness of her marriage finally caught up with her. Well, if my stepdad coud do that to a grown woman, imagine what he did to me. He all the time told me I was eating too much… that I was starting to look just like my mom… that no boy would ever like me if I were fat. Constantly. I never thought those things got to me. I had always tried to ignore them. But, somewhere in the back of my mind, deep in there, they remain. Even still to this day. So, the first step in anything is to analyze the problem. That is where I am: step one. Where to go from here? Not sure yet. How’s that for a plan?

Although I’m not really losing weight, I can see a definite change in my body. One thing about me that is good and also bad is that when I gain or lose weight it is evenly distributed. So, if I am chubby, I don’t look AS chubby. That is the good part. The bad part is that when I am thinner, I still look chubby to myself because all of my flaws are the same and seemingly still there. So, with the running I am seeing a difference in my body’s actual shape instead of just the size (which has yet to change!). I have always had chubby thighs. Always. However, I am happy to report that they are thinning out nicely. My gross saddlebags (who even thought of that disgusting analogy?! they should be shot!) are almost gone completely and the same can be said for most of the celulite on the back of my legs. Yay! So I might be chubby still, but I am gonna be chubby with some fabulous stems

Alright, still not sleepy. Damn it! Guess I’ll go try to catch up on some of you chickies. Hope you have a happy Monday!!!

… until the hubbs just went all 2nd grade on me. AGHHHHHHHHH! So I was feeling a little sorry for myself this morning still, about the lack of weightloss, and instead of being a baby I decided to step it up and work harder. Sooooo, I gathered the older two boys and off we went to the track where I… wait for it… ran 4 miles! As in 4! w00t! I know, right? I never would have thought I’d even be able to do that. So, I was pretty proud of myself.

On the way home, I was talking to the boys about their letters to Santa and they were saying PS3, X-Box… AGHHHH! I have TOO many games already junking up the house. So I made a deal with them and we have decided to get rid of everything but the Wii. Yay. I get home, tell the hubbs and he throws a FIT about getting rid of the Nintendo. It’s the original! Um, seriously? Why, oh why, am I so cursed to live with all these boys?!?!?

Happy Sunday, chickies!

Well here it is, my favorite day, and I am in a mood. Not really a good mood, or a bad mood, just a mood. Since I stopped taking those hormone pills my belly has been bloated and CRAMPING pretty much all the time. Boo! Before I started taking them it hurt when I ran, and now running seems to make it feel better for at least a little while. Thank God for small favors. Speaking of running, since my day was such crap yesterday I had planned on buying myself a new pair of running shoes (which I totally need). However, we went to the exchange yesterday and my boys were out of their minds. Bad. Really, really bad. So we immediately left, came straight home, and they went into their rooms to write me a letter detailing why what they did was wrong, what better choices they could have made, and apologizing to me for embarrasing me. It’s one thing to be a little disruptive, but the 10 minutes we were in the store there were like 3 instances that were horrid! Ugh. Little meanies. They also went to bed early and that seems to have done the trick. They are uber well behaved today! I started the writing thing when it seemed that they didn’t understand why I was getting mad at them and also to help them with the concept that their choices are just that… choices. There are other things you can do, even if your brother really DID hit you first! So needless to say, after my metabolic testing letdown and then my no new shoe let down, I was pretty blah. I went to bed early and did pretty much NOTHING productive yesterday. I think I needed that day off though. This morning my oldest and I went back to the store (ALONE!) and he got some new shorts and shoes and I got some new Aasics Nimbus somethings. After, we were off to the track to break them in! My shoes ROCK MY FACE OFF! They are so, so perfect. My son ran 2 miles! He did such a good job I wanted to treat him, so I just ran 2 laps after he was done and then we headed off for some ice cream, where I am proud to report that I had a small orange juice instead. Not that the ice cream didn’t look good.. cause WOWZA! It’s so good on a hot day, and even though I know you are all gonna hate me, it was hot this morning! We were sweating hard core at the track. I am never going to be able to leave Southern California!!!

I am really discouraged right now on my weightloss… or lack there of. The hubby is doing the WW thing with me since we got home, and he (with little to no weight to lose) has lost 7 pounds thus far. Yes, in less than a week. I have lost… drumroll please… nothing. Of course, I never do. It’s just so frustrating because I follow that program to the letter. Even when I eat something bad, I account for it. And yet, I get no results. I was going to change to calorie counting after my metabolic testing, but won’t be doing that this week apparently. The thing is, WW is working for everyone at work. Let me rephrase that, for everyone that is making an effort. But not me. I know, pity party central today, but I really just want to know what it is that I need to do. Just freaking give me a number and I’ll DO IT! At the beginning of the year I started weight lifting and was counting calories and I lost about 5 pounds and then nothing. For 4 months. And I saw a nutritionist and talked to my trainer and no one could explain it. I was doing everything right. Oh well… I am not going to let a number get me down. I am going to focus on getting stronger and running longer and faster. Because ultimately that is what I want. To be FIT!

Okay, that is enough boo hoo for me for a LONG time! I need to change this mood soon because we are having our first basketball practice in a few hours. I think I am going to meet and greet the parents, set up some stuff, and then sneak off for a 45 minute workout. We are meeting for practice at the gym I usually go to and I’m sure there is no law saying I have to stay and watch

Happy Saturday, chickies!