I am officially sick. It just hit me. I have been fighting this cold that the boys have had for almost a week now. At least I got my workout in before… Today I did double duty. I ran 3 miles and then did 2 weight days. I know, I should have just done one per day lke I was supposed to, but I got L-A-Z-Y over the last week. I dunno if it’s just hormones or what, but I am in a funk. I have been worried sick about putting my lil man into yet another in home daycare. We are 2 for 2 in the psycho department. But, the only way to get him into the development center is to work full time. I looked around, and there are several openings I’m sure I could get. The thing is, I would LOVE to work full time. I miss being busy, busy and being the boss. I also miss the money. But, I do like my time with the boys, and I would miss out on sports, etc., should I work full time (practice is like at 4… who can do that?! and the games start at 5!). I just really would feel more secure if he were in the development center. This is such a tough choice. I have always worked full time, and felt so blessed to get a really great paying part time job. I just don’t know what to do… Sometimes I absolutely hate being here all alone. I wish I had someone to HELP. Maybe just one sister? My mom? Come on… anybody! I miss date night with my hubby and going anywhere alone without feeling massive amounts of guilt.

Christmas was awesome! We baked for hours and took our goodies to all the fire stations on base. They were all so appreciative, and they were so nice to the boys! They gave them rides in the trucks, let them wear their gear, showed them the axes and other tools… they LOVED it!! After we came home and made a mini Christmas dinner to take to the hubbs as a surprise. All in all, GREAT day even without the hubby.

I hope you all had a fab Christmas, too!

Now for New Years… eek! I should make a resolution or something. Or not. I never keep those anyway.